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by mariec

Loneliness is an aspect of crossdressing that I believe we all share. For me, it was a secret that began in childhood. Something I had to keep hidden. On an emotional level, there was probably a deep fear that if I was ever fully seen, I might not be accepted or loved. So, hiding it was really for my emotional survival. As adults, we can rationalize that we’re not in any real danger, but the loneliness and isolation are still present. I’m so thankful that I have an accepting and supportive wife, but it’s also a lot to ask of her to be my one and only outlet for connection. At the dawn of the pandemic, the loneliness became even more acute and my motivation to change things became strong enough that I started looking for places to connect with other CDs socially. I met Jill Marshall shortly after joining CDH in 2020. Like many of us here, I was immediately impressed with her flawless presentation and deep, often poetic observations on her experiences as a crossdresser. We began exchanging emails sharing and exploring all the ebbs and flows of our respective journeys and thoughts about the “hows and whys” of it all. Eventually, my wife suggested we meet via Zoom, since “crossdressing is such a visual pursuit anyway.” We eventually did and have now been connecting that way for years. Since we live on opposite coasts, getting together in person proved challenging. Finally, Keystone 2023 became the perfect opportunity to do just that. Keystone itself was an amazing experience, but it was made all the better because I was able to experience it with a good friend. Beyond crossdressing, I feel like I can talk with Jill about work, family and all the other aspects of a complete life. I’ve often said to my wife, “I think Jill and I would be good friends, even if we didn’t share crossdressing.” Ultimately, the fact that we share crossdressing is something that makes the relationship all the more meaningful. When you can be honest and vulnerable and allow your whole self to be seen, and ultimately accepted, it’s a good thing indeed.



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Marie Chandler

I’m a happily married, heterosexual crossdresser in my 50’s. I’m lucky to have a supportive wife who loves me for who I am. Full disclosure, if you are considering a friend request or messaging me, please know that I will only respond to people who have taken the time to write a full bio. Preferably with photos, but I totally understand that not all of us are in a home situation were we can express ourselves fully and take photos. My goal is not to offend anyone, but to connect with others that are willing to be vulnerable enough to share their stories, feelings, photos and experiences with the rest of us. I'm also not interested in chatting about underdressing or lingerie and I have no interest in discussing anything sexually or fetish related with dressing. My hope is to connect with like-minded ladies and learn more about myself along the way.

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3 months ago

Oh Marie! I loved this. I too have a supportive wife, not encouraging, but supportive. While I state in my bio, that I consider dressing to be a hobby, sometimes I’m not so sure about that. The femininity aspect that coincide with dressing, is getting stronger. I’d love to talk more, but I’m not sure this is the place to do that. I loved your post!

Best regards, Mikki

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