I enjoy horseback riding on the beach, campfires and spending time with people who are open and honest. I am married to a man who says he is a cross dresser but I worry he has been or desires to be with men in addition to me, his wife of 38 years. This all began after his brother died suddenly four years ago. He has changed tremendously and I don’t feel like he desires me as he had for 34 years prior. It’s been four years and I’m tired of waiting for him to show me the love he professes to have for me.