Hello there fellow CDs!
As you read in the title, I’m getting away from this site for good. Let me tell you first the reasons i have and of course my latest experience.
Im a straight CD, 21 yo, in a relationship with this beautiful and lovely woman. My adventure in the CD world started a few months ago, although I did it already while i was growing up through all my childhood.
And one day i was there in my red lips, my new thong, my favorite skirt, my brand-new matching bra and a nice shirt. I felt so pretty. After a while i made a pause to go the bathroom, but as i was in there, my Girlfriend came home. I tried to lie, to fool her, but there was so many things in the house that it would’ve been impossible. So i told her the truth.
As many would’ve reacted, she freaked out. She felt angry, sad, disappointed, betrayed and repeled by me.
She really hated me at that time.
We had this fight for hours. And then she actually accepted me and told me she loved me despite everything. She was not happy but she said she could be ok with it if that’s what i wanted.
The thing is: I DIDN’T! AND I DON’T! I hated me too at the time. I hated the way she felt because of me. I hated that even then she was so nice with me. And I was sure of one thing then. I REALLY LOVE THAT WOMAN! And I don’t want her to live with any of this. I don’t want her to accept my mistakes, i don’t want her to deal with the idea of getting home and not knowing if there will be her Boyfriend or his female self the one answering the door.
I love her and i want the best for her. I want what she deserves. So that’s why I’m saying goodbye to Emily Russell.
I know this should never be published. After all, this site is about giving people courage and inspiring to keep this habit. Not telling about how to get it over. But I thought people would like to hear my story and some will understand.
With a deep love to this wonderful community,
Goodbye my friends.
Raul Suarez. The male self of Emily Russell.
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