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     Sammy Z 
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    When dressed as a woman I dont feel the need to be manly. I have a sense of calm. I feel very empowered and it gives me a sense of courage and Strength.

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     Jasmine Jeffries 
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    Speaking for myself I don’t think I had a choice I believe I probably should have been born female I would watch my mom and dad get dressed up for a party and I always wanted to be a girl getting dressed for the party I believe I was born this way I didn’t have a choice hugzz Jasmine

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     Shawna Carter 
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    I don’t consider myself to be crossdressing (maybe I did at first, many years ago – before I realized who I am)…I dress as a woman because every fiber of my being screams that I’m a woman…and I LOVE being a woman!

    Hugs,

    Shawna

     

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     Brianne Andrea 
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    I just feel happier dressed as a woman. I went through a period of more than 10 years that I surpressed it and told myself it was something that would pass and dated a lot of little size 2 sluts like all my friends. I couldn’t fit in any of their clothes even if I wanted to. Drunken bar hookup that was a bit heavier than my norm left in a hurry with all the cash in my wallet. When I went to bed the next night I found her bra and tried it on, but didn’t matter what I did that cup size and style just didn’t look right. Found her panties in the dryer after I washed my sheets  and they looked good on me so I kept them and I was interested enough to buy some thigh highs at the drug store to go with them, but I tossed the bra and I had a renewed spark, but still dated girls only. Ended up cleaning out a rental suite where the tenant did a midnight dash vs paying rent and when I cleaned it up it was all garbage furniture, but the dresser was full of clothes that fit pretty well. I kept them all and was wearing tights, neon spandex and womens t shirts a lot after that. No lingerie was in there. Started buying panties and make up at christmas saying stocking stuffers. Good friend of mine that I snowboarded and golfed with noticed my clothes and said nothing until he crashed at my place for the night after I picked him up from the bar drunk and out of cab fare. I made an excuse for it and went for a shower. Bravery and alcohol made him walk into the bathroom naked and hard and I gave in. He broke it off with me 8 months later for a girl, which made sense because he had little interest in my man parts. 4 times in 8 months vs my 2 or 3 times a day in his. I was sad and cheered myself up getting a new wardrobe and casual hookups as well as a vacation, tattoo and cute piercing. We stayed friends, but I was ok being the down low girlfriend, but not the person he cheated with so I filled the void how I could. We’ve been on and off for the last 8 years. Longest break was his first marriage. 3 years and 2 kids. He rents my basement suite now and we’re together again for now. Maybe not the healthiest, but he’s who I’m most comfortable dressed around and he’s always been honest with me and I’ve always used discretion when needed so he’s comfortable as well. Him living in the suite vs us living together as “roommates” also makes him more comfortable. Especially with me being out of the closet as far as that goes. He still isn’t. I’ve found gay guys find it almost as weird as women do that I dress so I count myself lucky to have somebody who not only accepts, but also enjoys it even if it is only sometimes. I don’t think many of us ever enjoy that. I know I’ve tried to find another during our breakups. Never lasted.

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     Kimmie 
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    My reasons for cross dressing have nothing to do with gender identity. I have never wanted to be female or to pass in public. I’ve thought about this a lot, both on my own and in therapy.

    My life was highly sexualized at an fairly early age. My best friend starting around age 4 or so was a girl who lived a couple of houses down the street. She was two years older than I. My parents both worked full time, so she (I’ll call her “Kathy”) walked me to school for my first day of kindergarten.

    Sometime around then we began to play doctor. We became very involved in various role play scenarios and it was intoxicating for both of us. At various times, we managed to be fully naked and touched each other on our private parts. Once or twice, we exchanged underwear, she in my tightly whities, me in her cotton panties. Even though Kathy was older I never felt or, in fact, was coerced. I engaged in this activity freely and willingly. I loved it.

    The games continued until we Kathy started middle school and we somewhat suddenly drifted apart. I really missed the sexual excitement that I felt and began to quench the thirst by playing with my mother’s clothes. I would put on a girdle, pantyhose, bra and role play by myself in a fantasy world. From this history, my mind became hard wired to engage in what became a fetish that I continue to enjoy many decades later.

     

     

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       Sherri Christopher 
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      Kimmie, there was a girl who lived next door to me who also was a couple of years older than me and one time, she showed me hers and I showed her mine. As with you, there was no coercion from her. We just looked and it was exciting for the both of us. We were in the basement bathroom and my grandmother caught us and gave us hell about it, so that was that and we never did it again. A year before is when I put in my sister’s petticoat and also got caught, that time by my sister and was shamed by her. I had bad luck back then getting caught! 🙁

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         Kimmie 
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        Incredibly, we were never caught. We had a very close call once when we were naked in her basement, heard someone coming down the stairs, and somehow managed to finish dressing just before she opened the door to the room in which we were playing. (It was summer, so we didn’t have much to put on, just undies, shorts and a shirt.) My closest dressing escape happened when my mom caught me reaching in to my hiding place about the ceiling tiles in our dropped ceiling bathroom. I was wearing pantyhose and a girdle under my clothes and the top of the girdle was showing as I was reaching up. She either didn’t notice or just decided not to address it.

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     rhonda 
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    One day I was fooling around at home I tried on a dress .well I guess the rest is history , I became a cd’er off and on for 60 plus years and love it more each day

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    I’m with you.  I love being a girl, wearing sexy lingerie but I’m very much in the closet.  I need someone to share with.  I’d love to have a friend who enjoys having me dress up and show off my outfits (especially the lingerie). Nothing like the feel of sexy satin and lace and having someone look and touch.

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       Lucinda Hawkns 
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      why should all the real woman have the fun dressing up pretty with satin silk, sexy dresses, nylons, skirts and lacy bra, lacy panties and make up and smell pretty, they dress up in manly cloths so we can dress up in female cloths and show off our fem side.  i dress up because i feel happy and free and feminine when i can

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     Sherri Christopher 
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    I still don’t like thongs though.

    Thongs = Butt Floss 🙂

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     Lucinda Hawkns 
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    Whats my reason to cross dress? its the clothing, better fit, great looks. more comfortable to wear, the color, style, fabric, silk or satin.  the nylons give my legs a message feeling when wearing them. the dresses are better wearing cloths, i also love to wear a skirt and blouse on warm days but i never went out doors and shop. the sound of heels as i walk, the smell of perfume, wearing dangle  ear rings, wearing eye shadow.   all that good stuff woman get to wear and we can’t.  Y is that??? they wear jeans and shirt, so we can wear a skirt and blouse and bra, panties, nylons, dress and wear make up too. we are all human no matter what we wear or do.

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     Sandy Greatlegs 
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    I couldn’t agree more.  In addition to the clothes feeling more comfortable, they also make me feel sexier.  I just love the feel of a sheer or satin type of panty and bra underneath either a see thru blouse, or even a less revealing maxi summer dress.  I have to admit though that i feel the best in a short skirt, un-padded bra, and feminine panties.  I still don’t like thongs though.  In topping off an outfit, honestly, a nice heeled sandal with ankle strap really makes the hormones jump. lol…It is at this point i usually find an excuse to either walk to the end of my driveway, or stand on the porch and actually hope that someone spots me….maybe i am wrong, but if i had to be short and sweet, it is the arousal i feel when dressed in the femme way.

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      Wow, how sexy.  You and I would get along very well. I love all the things you describe and would love to dress up for/with you. You made my morning.

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     Tiffany Alexis 
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    Pretty much I dress because it makes me feel like…me. This me has been there all along, but repressed and when i put on my girl stuff it feels like stretching out after a 9 hour car ride crammed in the back of a compact car (I’m thinking a yugo but most people probably don’t remember those, aka the crappiest car ever built). So, yeah, put on the clothes and the wig and aah time to relax. Some of the sensations are nice and sexy (smooth legs, the feeling of wind on them, and hair touching my back and bare shoulders stand out) but I’d do it anyway, just as much even if that wasn’t the case.  Because it’s what I am.

    Tiffany

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    the clothes , yessss the feel!

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     naomi cooper 
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    i have been crossdressing from a very young age and it has become a major part of who i am and how i live. im not sure i want to transition but i do love releasing my true feminine self as often as possible

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    For me it started as a child. My sister use to dress me up and we would go outside and play. My mother was ok with it we would go to the store and all over. She thought it was cute that my sister and I had become friends. Now I do it for what ever reason I choose. My wife will go out of town or sometimes I just feel like being in womans clothes its really not fair that they get all the sexy clothes so as a man I want to be sexy too so I wear sexy clothes!!!

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     Valorie Baird 
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    V likes to both feel attractive and likes to experience the sexual side of womanhood. Each session ends with a relief of sorts. Research tells me it’s most likely a type of transvestic fetishism, but that’s not all V is. I like the sexual aspect, but I also like to shop, do my makeup, put in my forms, contouring the illusion of cleavage. I like to tuck my manhood away for a time and experience, in some way, the things a woman does. I like to feel attractive, probably because I didn’t feel that way for most of my life. Many men excuse themselves to the bathroom so they can fantasize about being with a woman; I excuse myself and try to become that woman. It’s a strange thing to explain and sounds quite narcissistic. It’s my private time, where I can finally feel attractive. Where I don’t have to operate within the rigid bounds of masculinity.

    How this came to be comes from many things I believe:

    • My dad, having come from an incredibly abusive childhood, left me with a very broken father. Though never abusive to me, he also wasn’t a place of safety. It took nothing for him to fly off in fits of rage. My mom protected me. My mom made me feel safe.
    • Despite trying my best to be me, it was always perceived as gay or feminine. My older brother would constantly call me a fag just for being me. I have never been gay.
    • At ten my dad was diagnosed with terminal cancer. V became a place of safety in a very unstable time. Dad’s fight lasted three years and then his final breath was taken.
    • Thirteen years old and now without a father, I was left to try and find my way best I could. What I came to realize over the years was my dad, so broken from his own upbringing, never had an identity of his own. Despite his best attempt to teach me how to be a man, he never was confident in himself as one. I had no real blueprints. And V, having been there in the hardest times, began to fill a very big hole.
    • As puberty was hitting and my sexuality was starting to bloom, V found her place. She planted herself in the midst of my arousal. I like to dress for many reasons. But the sexual component is the biggest reason. To feel attractive. To get to leave the man behind and put on the woman. There is an aspect of fetishism to it but more in the way a confident woman likes to be seen as attractive.

    I can try to pinpoint just one reason why V is part of me. I think it’s a whole mixture of what I’ve written. She gives me a room where I can put on the woman and feel attractive instead of judged for not fitting in the rigid box of masculinity.

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       Jamie Z 
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      To: Valorie Baird

      Wow, quite an insightful answer! Thank you for sharing….

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      Somebody (V) always beats me to a response that very closely aligns with me……….I may not be the sexiest babe in the world, but my MIRROR tells me differently……………..isn’t that what mirrors are for ???  I’ve never felt sexy as a man………..but taking the time to be so alluring as I can makes me feel wonderful about myself…….and my SO loves that about me……….

      Mikki

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    • #166275
       Anne Preuss 
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      Valorie, your post struck a chord with me.  It took me a long time but I feel my childhood had some influence on how Anne came to be.  Like yours, my father came from an abusive childhood and was beaten as a child.  He also was a WWII vet who served in the European theatre who I am sure saw many horrible things.  I wonder if he suffered from PTSD which was not a diagnosis back then.  At home, he ruled the roost through fear, intimidation, emotional putdowns and the belt.  My mother came from a broken home during the Depression and her father deserted the family…just upped and left.  So it was quite a toxic stew to grow up in that house. There were no hugs, no expressions of love, just an emotional void.  Besides the fear and emotional putdowns he inflicted, I got to listen to many nights of loud fighting between the two of them.  But my mother did serve as a protector of some sorts as there were times she would yell at him to leave me alone when she witnessed him verbally abusing me (as an 8 and 9 year old) and I would once again experience the yelling between the two of them.  Women are supposed to have that protective, nurturing characteristic and I wonder if inside I am trying to replicate as Anne what my mother in her own way was trying to be.  Am I also as Anne trying to receive love from both an emotional and physical standpoint, that was so lacking back then.  I don’t believe what I’ve described above as the only influential factor as I believe there is something within me be it genetics or whatever at play that makes me want to be a woman and dress as a woman, but what I experienced back then is so deeply ingrained within my psyche.

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       Sidney Silver 
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      Such lovely and heartfelt sentiments. Thank you for both your courage and candor. In doing so you may help clairify or solidify the search of origin for other girls. I certainly feel resonance with what you’ve shared. Others will too. Thank you for that.

      xoxo

      -Syd

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    I dress to create the vision of femininity, and even thinking about this sends tingles through me.  I have a totally accepting wife and she allows me to ever-increase the presentation……..the more fem, the better.  We will tease each other, talk and shop online, casually drinking, I’ll model for her, she wants me to not only look the look, but walk and act the look as well.  I try to totally dismiss the male, and totally engulf the fem…….this carries on through the evening, and into the bedroom, only to change into a sheer baby doll, very lacy panty, and my favorite little shelf bra…….which I can show small breasts—just pushing out the babydoll top………..all the make-up, wig, and heels remain……………the fem playing lasts as long as lust succumbs

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    fr me its being the woman I want to be.  The woman within me, and of course the gorgeous clothes and lingerie

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    <p style=”text-align: center;”>        Hi girls</p>
    <p style=”text-align: center;”>I was a regular 6 year old boy. I definitely knew their was a difference between boy’s&girl’s I liked them. I was in kindergarten way ahead of the class my mom was at home mom. So I learned more from her then kindergarten. In the second part kindergarten my birthday had just passed I turned 6. My parents announced they were getting a divorce. Mom had to start working. She got a job at a bank in our town. Not really a small town but everyone new everyone. My siblings were a little older than I so I kinda knew every kid in a 4-5 block radius. On the next street over the same. street as the elementary school. There lived a newly divorced family</p>
    With the sisters everyone knows Sharon 15. In dance beautiful lead most town parades.cheer captain.you know. Colleen her little sister 7 or 8… Same dance beautiful. My mom now woks with theirs…nights… Cash flow auditing stuff. My siblings. were just old enough to stay home together. Mom looks for babysitter for me. guess who got the job….Sharon…town sweetheart.. .colleen 1or 2 year’s older than me same school . Ideal she picked up her sister the same time I got out from school.1st day I was nervous I have a crush on colleen for a few year’s. we went to their house. mom would pick me up bout 11:30pm. Colleen showed me the house their rooms and a huge walk in closet full of dancewaer of all kinds. Leotards tights everything. you could Amgen. Sharon made lunch we eat they were going to play dress up. I don’t play that I said  we’ll figure something Sharon replied. They both undressed in front of me we were in the closet. It had a bench makeup vanity. Sharon  still in bra panties had me sit the bench explained to me I was half girl that’s why I was named chris rubbing silky things on me taking off my clothes their so soft not was like those boy clothing she said I didn’t know what to do hell couldn’t breathe. She started to slide a pair of her sister’s tights on my I was aroused intensely. I remember a intense sexual euphoria wow She help put on a shiny a shiny leotard colleen was dressed already cute little silky outfit tights giggling. We played dolls for a while they touched me here&there. Took my hands a showed me how soft slippery their outfits were .rubbing each other was now what we played.  Went home with mom still confused. Told her yes I had fun Sharon is a good sitter best ever…so school on day 2 couldn’t wait to get to their house pretty much the same. start all dress up straight to rubbing touching learned how to french kiss that day. touching was very sexual now .this pergesed every day for 4-5years 8-9 hour’s a day 5 day’s a week we were touching kissing oral intercourse.anything you ever wanted to do with a lover . we knew we shouldn’t be but no stopping now around other’s you’d never know Colleen and I were the cute little couple. We’d hold hands sometimes it wasn’t strange at 8-9 year’s old little crush every one would say o how cute. Little innocence.. Wow innocent good God. More like insane. Still an every day thing my birthday just passed I was 11 the family moved abruptly without a word I kinda figured what happened.. I’m sure you did also about 15 year’s ago I was back in my home town.I heard that Sharon was a great mother to colleen and my son… That’s the short story.

    Thanks if you read this

    Christie Marie…..

    PS no one ever knew Sharon was involved or when it started never could anyone Amgen Sharon the town sweetheart touched her sister from the day she was born..

     

     
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       Christie Marie Marie 
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      <p style=”text-align: center;”>Hi girls</p>
      I just want everyone to know that the story #164662 was me. I’m now here back again as Christie Marie Marie. Don’t know how that name happened. Anyway we’ll just go with it. This was my live as a young boy. Many people loved to here my story I’m happy with the me I am.. Our lives no matter what it made you…you… Be happy with you… Keep dressing

      Bless you all

      Christie Marie. Oooxxx

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     Deanna Lund 
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    1) When I was 4, I guess I was molested by a teenage girl. She would take me behind some bushes, pull down my pants and make me pee for her. It did not embarrass me, or make me feel bad. In fact, I liked it.

    2) A few years later there were some girls who lived across the street an I would play with them. One of the things I liked doing was the ”doll parade.”  The girls would carry dolls and I would put a dolls legs down the front of my shorts and we would march around.

    3) When I was 8, many decades ago we were visiting my grandparents st their house in upstate NY. My grandmother was very small and encouraged me to dress up in her old clothes. I distinctly remember how wonderful her slips felt and a kind of special stirring feeling I got. When I would come downstairs dressed up everyone would clap.

    4) One Christmas I wanted a doll and bath set, I got am Erector set instead.

    5) In my 20’s Once I found a little girl’s bathing suit in a rummage sale. I bought it and would pin it to a shirt and looking in the mirror would say, ”I’m a pretty little girl!”

    6) Over the years I would sometimes buy panties but nothing serious until recently. I bought a pair of white high heelssnd love how my feet look in them. I have bought bras, another pair of women’s shoes, makeup, etc. and love the feeling of being a woman!

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     Denise Walker 
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    Mainly it’s just because I like it. It’s fun to try and look and behave like a genetic woman, although I didn’t much like trying to walk up and down the stairs in my hallway wearing 3″ heels! I was imagining what the reaction might be if I was found dead at the bottom of the stairs dressed as a woman. That would be some shock to the people who know me!

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     Samantha Lane 
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    Strong fetish desire brings me to cross dress more than any other. Heels and hosiery make a great presentation in the mirror. Lately I’ve discovered what adding a tank top and lace overlay can do for heightned sensitivity to breasts and the beginning of cleavage. My limited means has restricted my purchases, and my DADT relationship with my wife curbs the opportunity to dress. Would love to be seduced while enfemme as my submissive side has always been a part of my personality. Wait to be asked rather than put yourself out there for rejection has always been a role that women prefer even when they haven’t had sex in a long time.

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     Davina Evans 
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    I am not sure that I have a reason.

    It seems to be right. I feel calm. I have a gentle smile on me face when dressed. I like the feel of the different materials.

    I guess I am being me.

    Davins

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     Tara April 
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    Not to early but later on didnt figure out I liked womens clothing till I was in my 20s. I would of chosen to be a women if I could choose. Probally be a lesbian if i were a women guys just dont do anything for me. But I have not got many outfits actually only one outfit! The one outfit is a nighty which is perfect at the moment I am not ready to go out as a Tara. I am hoping on day soon I will be ready.

    But yes I wish I were a women!

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     MarthaLouise 
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    I feel I am a woman in a man’s body, plus I just love to dress like a woman. Plus I look much younger dressed as a woman and much better looking as a woman than a man.

    I just have a fringe of gray hair and bald. Look much better as a woman

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     CaseyP 
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    I can’t say why…only that it always felt right

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     Gisela Claudine 
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    I love feeling feminine when wearing feminine garments. With long hair and makeup. The bulging chest and to give the feeling of fine curves. I love to perform the ritual of getting ready to feel pretty. I love smelling female. Although it is mostly in solitude, it makes me feel good.

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     Lacy Thomas 
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    I love the feeling of being dressed period . I never smiled in pictures much , but in photos of me dressed , I’m usually smiling ! I love the attention too . I like the compliments . I really love the feel of pantyhose . I love tapping my long pink fingernails on my desk and my keyboard . I love hearing my heels clip – clop down my hardwood floor. I really just enjoy me being “pretty” .

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     Bobbie 
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    I have always had a woman’s ass even was I was a young teen, I have a bubble butt. I had 2 older sisters and used to sneak their panties and wear them. My wife stopped having sex in 2000 when she went through the change of life. As a teen I was seduced by a man who made ma a bottom so a few years back I found an older man and he asked me to dress for him. He bought me clothes and keeps them at his house.  When I go visit I put on garter, panties, stocking , ect and bra with holes for the nipples.  I feel sexy in them.  His girlfriend loves playing with us both and likes me dressed as Bobbie.

    My wife or any of my friends would never understand.

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       Leslies Ann Gray Girl 
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      Bobbie , Hi , I love your frankness about your life and i hope its has love and caring for you . I’am glad you are here and you’ll find there is a lot of great gals here to listen . Love   Leslie

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     Amy Myers 
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    Although, It was almost an opposite start for me I think. It was only after all the stress ended and I became somewhat less of a workaholic that I began to relax and do some self examination. Olivia made herself known, and wanted to express herself! Here I am

    For me it is much the same. When I was seriously stressed out, I never had the urge to dress, or as I said before, only the odd time, and it wasn’t demanding of me.

    I fully retired just under a year ago, and it is since then that “Amy” has come into life.

    Amy

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     Lucinda Hawkns 
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    my reason for dressing up     helps with depression and panic attacks. plus LOVE the look of being dressed up as a female for i should of been born one, my mom wanted a girl, well i am just inside, i dress up to feel happy and being the real person i should be.  feeling the sensation of nylons and dress or skirt, heels and make up. feeling the wind blow against my nylon legs and getting a message feeling. smelling pretty, being the woman i am inside and letting her out when i can

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     Sherri Christopher 
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    I was supporting two households on little pay and then found out she had cancer. So a LOT of stress.

    After she died and all the bills were paid, the urge slowed. I still dress and enjoy it tremendously, but now it’s to express another part of me.

    My wife died from cancer too. She knew from the start about my CDing, but was at the most, tolerant of it and never accepting. What differs from our experiences is that when my wife was diagnosed with the cancer, up until her death from it, I totally lost the urge to CD. I didn’t purge my clothes as I knew better than that. After she died, I started CDing again, just in my vintage slips and panties, usually a couple of times a week. I have no urge to go out in public and and happy to CD in the privacy of my own home. That’s just the way it is for me and I’m good with it.

     

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       michaela jane 
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      I lost my wife to cancer also. She was only tolerant of me wearing panties because that was hidden. Three years ago, after she passed, my crossdressing took off. Like you, I do this at home and am happier to be in a bra, forms, dress or leggings than I am in male jeans or trousers. I have, on the odd occasions during cold weather, been to the store wearing my forms and bra covered by a jacket, but I don’t see me going out dressed any time soon.

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         Lucinda Hawkns 
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        i know how you all feel about loosing a loved one and it hurts and still does to me to this date. but life must go on. i wear my moms blouses with care makes me feel good about it, having her with me when i wear her blouses. i also dress up in my own home and feel good about it, going out doors is a little to far to go with it. wife  knows about my x dressing and excepts it some degree. when i dress up its when no one is home,feeling the feminine side of me and my mom being here with me when i wear her blouses.   sorry for your lose of a loved one.  yes dressing up helps me with depression in a way and helps with panic attacks.   summer is around the corner and will have to put away my fem side now. but still here.   have a great day every one

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     Adeline Johnston 
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    I feel comfortable in women’s clothes and dress in womens clothing every day. That usually consists of womens slacks, panties, socks or tights, and shoes. I have not had good luck with womens sweaters or blouses so I usually still wear a men’s shirt. I try as much as I can to wear heals. Usually a bootie with a 1.5 to 2 inch heal. I wear them so often it feels strange to wear regular flats. I find that women’s jeans fit me better. I have fairly muscular thighs from years of running and bicycling. If I get jeans that are not constricting my legs, they gap open at the waist. Women’s jeans have enough stretch to accommodate me. And I like that they hug my hips and waist.

    I know many of the girls disparage men’s clothes as being drab. Clearly men do not have the colors, patterns, and fabrics that women’s clothes do, but I have found that I can actually create an interesting style by the suits and shirts I wear. For example, a linen suit and shirt with no tie in the summer. So at this point I feel comfortable wearing both men’s and women’s clothes.

    I do covet women’s clothes though. I do ballroom dancing and some of the fabrics of the dresses they wear feel so wonderful when I hold them and I just want to be able to wear that myself and feel that fabric on my skin.

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    There are a few reasons I dress. What triggered it the first time I fully dressed was stress.  I was married at the time and working away from home.  I was supporting two households on little pay and then found out she had cancer.  So a LOT of stress.  Dressing was a way of getting out of my head and relaxing.   I would come back to the apartment every day and dress.  Just the process of putting the clothes on and applying makeup made me concentrate on that process and relaxed me.

    I didn’t keep secrets from my wife, so I worked up the nerve to tell he and she said she knew, because some of her panties were stretched out.  At first she was supportive and helped me buy clothes.  She found a pair of flats I had bought and hadn’t had the chance to tell her about them.  That got her extremely mad and the support drained away.

    I went to a psychologist to try to find out why I dressed.  No luck.  It took a few years to figure it out on my own.  After she died and all the bills were paid, the urge slowed.   I still dress and enjoy it tremendously, but now it’s to express another part of me.

    Didn’t mean to write this much, but I felt a need to tell this part of my story.

    • #155324
       Olivia Livin 
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      Darlene, thank you

      Please feel free to share whatever and whenever you like. We’re here for each other and we like to get to know little pieces about the people we talk to.

      Sorry to here about your wife, stress is handled by each if us in different ways but dressing does seem to help many, myself included

      Although, It was almost an opposite start for me I think. It was only after all the stress ended and I became somewhat less of a workaholic that I began to relax and do some self examination. Olivia made herself known, and wanted to express herself! Here I am

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  • #155148
     Michelle Faust 
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    Hi everybody, my name is Phoebe and I am super new to this and incredibly nervous even being on here, as anonymous as possible. I was born into the most repressive family you could possibly imagine and due to that the possibility of me even having a feminine side hadn’t occurred to me… until, it did.

    As I think back, I don’t know how it happened. I remember a few instances when I was very young that could have been solid clues to a parent in todays world, but not to my family and not then. I tried on girls clothes that I found in the closet once and started wearing them around, basically playing dress up till my dad got home. Then that was over and I never saw those clothes again. (Never realized I missed them till just now…)

    Another time, again when I was just a kid, maybe ten, probably younger, I remember playing dress up for real with a group of girls. I recall being so nervous, almost terrified but it felt soooooo good, so natural. I could probably come up with at least a dozen stories like that, but… this would never be something I could bring up with my family and in my little bubble, the world I knew, people like me don’t exist.

    So long and probably familiar story, short… I’ve always been pushed to be one way, to be a certain kind of person who exists within a rigid, predefined outline of what my gender ‘should be’… and I got great at it. I became.. ‘I am’ to most people, a big, bearded, manly ass, handyman…. strangest thing about me is I hate ketchup and I’d rather play football than watch it. (Have never understood the fascination with watching grown men play a children’s game…) However.. in the last few years as I tried to be normal and have a girlfriend and just keep going, putting all of this out of my mind, again and again… telling myself there was no point anyway. I’m 6′ 200+ lbs of ‘mostly’ muscle, I have a large frame, strong jaw, THICK body hair… what’s a girl to do with all that, am I right?

    (Seriously, I’m asking? Am I crazy to want to do this?)

    All that having been said.. I don’t know why I dress. I dress because deep down in me there’s a little girl who never got live and shes fighting with every ounce of vigor and strength I have in order to escape… but unfortunately for her, I dont know if I’ll ever let her. For now she’s trapped in my basement dancing in front of a floor to ceiling mirror.

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       Tiffany Alexis 
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      Phoebe I know exactly how you feel, your story and mine are very much alike. Even had the busted shame sit down as a kid. Grew up cowboy but secretly wanted to be cowgirl. Manly stuff, got it down to a t. From job to hobbies. At least I can hide the panties in a toolbox or gun safe.

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    • #155369
       Danielle Rostencowski 
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      Phoebe, you’re not crazy. And hair??? I don’t want to talk about it. LOL. But we are what we are.

      Danielle

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    • #155243
       Sidney Silver 
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      Thank you for sharing Phoebe. Truly. It takes courage to not settle, to want answers, and to seek them out. I’m sure I speak for all the girls here on this site in this regard when I thank you for sharing, and for giving yourself a chance to at least be happy and at peace. Suffice to say, talking helps. You probably won’t find more support anywhere else than here. So much of the time we girls share the pain, in various ways, of our authentic selves not being fully (or even partially) expressed. It does take a toll, and we do suffer. This is a place to be ourselves that is safe and caring which offers love and support. So thank you again for being here.

      So much of your story is familiar to me. I’m a late bloomer such that I’ve only recently made the connection to my true authentic self. Only since last summer have I worked to discover what this side of me is, and to put needed time and effort in on my dressing and makeup. I do so to truly come to grips with what exactly are the limits of this side of me are, and to discover just what this is, and as importantly, what it is not.

      Attendent on this journey are all the ups and downs, and whipsaw changes in emotions and emotional energy this way and that. It will be at times, dually, exciting and terrifying. Some of it won’t make sense at first, other things you will come to know as having ALWAYS been true, and possibly have a kind of ancient surety that you can trust as the beginnings of your durable truth, and the beginnings of your possible emergence. Being honest and kind and loving to yourself is crucial.

      Please look around site and explore what the other girls here have to say about their realizations and their truths. More often than not, we find acute resonance in their stories as it relates to our story.

      I, too, have had a girl (named Sidney) inside me, bursting to come out. For the duration of my life, my protective male aspect has worked with loving dedication to keep her safe and secure. Only recently have I found the peace and the trust, in both myself and my wife, to let Sidney come forth to live and to breathe. Very early in my discovery I choose to be honest with my wife. Many reasons for this, but a major reason is the trust and honor I owe my wife, the love of my life. This side of me is so authentic and true that I could never conceal her, and any attempt to do so would be an insult to the love and trust given to me by my wife.

      Now, I dress regularly, both in private and at select times in public. I live in s liberal city that is generally supportive. I found a joy and a peace I’ve never thought possible. I’m a kinder, gentler, more optimistic, and more motivated person than I’ve ever been. I have the true support of my wife, and we’ve been taking the big steps together. To discover and to get to know Sidney, and to lovingly integrate my whole, true self in our lives.

      To do any of that, one must have an interest of being gentle and genuine with yourself. One must love what arises, and work to accept and trust that, yes, you are in control of who and what you are, regardless of what others think. Only by loving one’s self, coupled to a pioneering spirit, can one have the best of chance at acceptance and happiness. Which we ALL deserve.

      Welcome Phoebe, to this place of live and support. I wish you the strength and courage to take a deeper look at who and what you are. And remember— it’s for you to decide.

      Love  and support always,

      -Syd

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     Marie Sweets 
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    For me,  as Marie, dressed in women’s clothes, bra & breast forms, panties. Pantyhose and a dress and shoes. I feel most comfortable and relaxed. I feel that I should have started a lot sooner.

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    • #154248
       Lexi4Fun 
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      I too feel “relaxed” when I dress “en femme”.. I get a feeling of release, from pressure. It just feels nice. The clothes can be super comfortable too. I don’t have large “clunky shoes” on, no tight fitting “hard” jeans, or whatever.. It just feels “free”.. liberating. I can’t understand it, ok, a little bit. I wish I could dress the way I want to, and go where I want to, without the “consequences”.. I do go to a couple of LGBTQ clubs dressed as Lexi, but have to travel there incognito, but I really do enjoy my time there. I don’t drink alcohol anymore, and the one bartender was awesome, not charging me for soda refills. Everyone there is accepting of “gurls” who dress. The bar taken over by two lesbian women, but it is accepting of all genders.

    • #154165
       Carri Coleman 
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      Why, honestly I don’t know.

      Here is what I do know.  I have medium build tall frame, wide set hips – yes; not just wide in the hips on the outside. Mens pants and shorts fall off my butt (correct sizes) and pinch the nerves in my back causing paralysis, I can not wear a belt any longer, I look like crap dressed in Mens clothing even when dressed up in a suit. Yuck! One straight line.   I am well endowed but it ends there, I do not have large testicles, tucking isn’t needed even under form fitting clothing can’t even tell. I have female shaped boobs, I’ve been cat called and whistled at its flattering.  Why cant I get this attention when I am dressed like a guy from women???   Mens clothing is meant to be worn up high, and sizing is based off of waist not hips. I wear everything on my hips always have always will. Mens bottoms are baggy, YUCK!  There’s a lot to explain and I’m sure everyone here has figured it out by now or will.

      In misses clothing I have a well defined shape, everything fits, stays on and doesn’t cause problems with my back. Not baggy bottoms. I know the sizing is more consistent and women wear most of the things I buy up high – such as high waist Lululemon Leggings. Having my buns seperated while wearing those is a nice feeling. Buying bras is a bit of challenge, as it is now I’m enjoying wearing multipart cup bras for a more secure fit, I love the cleavage and lace on the top of the cups.  I do not enjoy sensitive, and itchy breasts..  I workout with women in a yoga/barre studio.

      Misses clothing is softer, stretchier and more forgiving and also comes in longer lengths and brighter colors.  Most of the population is short, have to buy Juniors to get long lengths.

      Been going at this since about 1994, purge, cry it out, buy new and repeat. I wear misses clothing full time, though I don’t always shave my mug.

      Attracted to women only or at least the female body. I love the curves and shape and everything about them.

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     Carolyn McIntyre 
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    I have only crossdressed in public once, but I started trying on women’s clothes last year because I love the thought of being a girl, even if fleetingly. I love the comfort of women’s clothes, the feel of the fabric, and I love how they make me smile. Perhaps that last part is the most important and the answer to your question. When I first tried on a dress at a women’s store, I took some selfies to record that groundbreaking moment, and when I checked them out later I didn’t even notice the dress . . . I noticed that I was smiling from ear to ear.

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     winny jones 
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    Mostly a fetish thing. Also a bit of stress relief.

    I don’t have any desire to pass as female in public.

     

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  • #152209
     Kay Smith 
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    I have always wanted to be a girl

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     Robyn Valerio 
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    I just enjoy it.  It’s fun.  I love standing in front of the mirror and watching myself change when I put on lipstick, foundation.  For some reason, I feel more whole!  Robyn

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  • #151823
     Lexi4Fun 
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    I feel a sort of release from stress when dressed feminine, even when home. It is relaxing and yet exciting for me, at the same time. To live up to society standards is well, a pressure of sorts. It allows me to be free to just think and do what I want to do without pressure or expectations, like a drug of sorts maybe. I think each person’s brain is wired to some extent both male and female, according to what society expects vs real emotions, whatever that means. I still haven’t figured out why fully, I just know that I enjoy it. There is evidence, proof that each male has a certain amount of “X” and “Y” chromosomes that vary with each male person, and females too, I think. So if I try to shut off the part of my brain with more of the “other” chromosomes, the “other feelings” , I will feel stress. Dressing as a woman, with the makeup and heels, pampering my feet and shaved legs, relieves that stress.
    I have read about this “dual spirit” thing, the American Indians had in their society, and the “third gender” in India, I think. In some societies it isn’t as taboo as in others.
    Men, in early American society wore stockings like pantyhose, as well as England and France.
    Kilts are worn in Scotland and dress like tunics in yet others by men.
    Here in America, they way a person dresses defines gender in a most specific way. The mere hint or suggestion of a man dressing in anything other than the “man code” form of clunky jeans, super long ridiculous “shorts”.. ( I like short shorts, like in the 1970’s), can evoke comments and jeers of gay or queer.
    Maybe it is the attention and the thrill, the excitement of being out in public that really turns me on. Maybe just the idea of a sexual encounter is what it is. The attention I get at the LGBTQ clubs, and some gay bars, is amazing.
    I have gone to the Flamingo Resort hotel numerous times as Lexi, and met many fun guys, people in general. One of the best times out to the club, was to Pepperz in Gulfport, FL, ( right next to St. Petersburg) On that night, it was my very first night out fully dressed as Lexi, heels, pantyhose, bra, the whole deal, in a short, short skirt. A very tall older, and very good looking professional type man at the bar, sat next to me on the barstool. He bought me drinks, and for all intensive purposes, treated me like his date, or a woman he wanted to “pick up”.. It was a huge thrill. It led to later activities, I won’t share here on this post, but it was very intimate, even sexual in nature as the night in the bar continued, and later.

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     Nicola De Auvergne 
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    Need!  The need, the allure, to touch and feel the silkiness of that slip, what those nylons will feel like on your legs.  All else is extra: the guilt, the purges, the trying to understand.  But, god, it can be fun….

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  • #151560
     SARAH WILSON 
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    My reason has to be that being dressed as a woman makes me feel happier and more compete as a person . never felt like this other wise  leads me to think i should have been a woman .  Sara

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     Jena Oakley 
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    Chickies-

    This topic has been on my mind ever since I saw it-answered it once but kept deleting because I could find the right words. I think I have 3 reasons for my CD.

    1.

    I reseve my right to be who I want. I reserve my right to keep it to myself or not. I have earned my “man card” in this life and have nothing to prove

    2.

    I have always felt feminine. As a kid, I fanticised about being a girl. Sexually, I always imagined what it felt like to be her. Past GFs have told me that I have legs and the butt of a girl-Used to try to act offended when I wanted to say thanks for the complement.

    3.

    I have a problem with getting older. As a girl, I can be the young skater chick or college preppy chick instead of the 40yr old that I am. It seems crazy to me how people are okay with aging. I see it all of the time-a 30yr old guy on a big HD motorcycle with all of the saddlebags-looking like someone’s grandfather. What would be youthful would be to get a small scooter, like a Vespa. Or the 22yr old that buys a 4 door pick-up.Also,  I don’t understand why a middle age woman would cut off all their beautiful hair and start wearing baggy sweats with matching earrings.

    Chickies, I want to ask all if when u see a post that relates to you, send that girlie a message, let her know that u relate. Let’s try to make sure everyone is heard and appreciated. Someone left the site-she didn’t feel included-it has been on my mind and breaks my heart.

    -JO

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    • #152106
       Stef Smith 
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      I like your response #1 i agree with that wholeheartedly

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       Davida Mae 
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      Yes; I also was sad the read her farewell post. I did a reply comment of course she didn’t respond back probably already gone by that time.

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     Sara Marie Franklin (SMF) 
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    This is a fantastic question I do not have an answer for.  LOL  I have spent over 40 years thinking about it.  Until I was able to get to the internet I thought that I was a freak or a sexual pervert.  That is all I had to compare to at the time.  In the beginning it was all just intrigue and trying things like lipstick and I wanted to try moms dye for eye brows and eye lashes but I new I was not able to wash that off so I never did.  How did high heels feel and the feel of wearing a dress how the air up the skirt felt.  Later I thought it was a sexual drive but I realized I was very young when it started around 8 or maybe 9 years old and I was not sexually aware at the time as I knew it.  Later I though it was a thing to compete with women to look as good if not better to show I could do makeup as well as them and even better so others would see my great abilities.  How self centered is that and I was not even that good at it.  LOL  Then I realized it was not to look better but to look more feminine to pass.  This opened my mind to other thoughts as to why I would like to do this.  I always keep going back to a girly magazine I saw when I was very young a Hustler magazine with a photo of a shemale in it.  I for a long time thought maybe I was trying to emulate this woman she was very beautiful and had a male part like me.  I later felt that I was trying to be a woman and this was not right until I found a forum for cross-dressers and transgenders on the internet.  This opened the world to me about the various classifications and terminology that was out in the world.  This was around 2005 or maybe a little earlier.  Since this time I have assembled what I believe.  I think that there is a rainbow of males that go from very dominantly male, to men that are very dominantly female.  As I see it there is a rainbow of males out there and I fall someplace in this rainbow.  The problem is as I think have located my place on the curve I find myself sliding some towards the feminine side and I do not know if this is for the excitement and intrigue of dressing as a woman or that I am further along the curve than I realized.  Then came the big upset of the cart.  I was caught and came out to my wife.  She started to ask me a lot of questions that made me think and at the time I was sure of the answers but as she continued to talk about it I found my self confused as to why.  Why did I do it, why was I like this and why did I have a drive for it.  I did not feel dysfunctional like I have heard many cross-dresser/transgenders describe but I also could not stop and would feel a very strong urge to dress.  It did not seem sexual, I could dress fully makeup skirt top under garments and still not have any sexual urge.  Most of that sexual urge, came later when I looked at my pictures or other female pictures.  Well I am still very confused but I feel I have a woman’s feelings and thoughts in me that want to come out and be noticed and seen and it makes me feel absolutely beautiful when another woman or a man makes a nice comment about my appearance which has never happened in all the times I had nice comments about my appearance as a man.  So I think I have a woman’s desires and thoughts in appearance and was never taught any of the other ways of being a woman.  So I have a strong desire for woman things but do a lot of things men do, due to my up bringing.  I know this is long and I apologize but it is one of the first times I have written this all down.  So I am an project in progress and there is a lot more work to do.  I think I am who I am and will continue to find myself.  Again Thanks for this Fantastic Question.

    Sara Marie

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       Stef Smith 
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      Great post

      i think there is a spectrum of gender, it has to be ! Everything in nature is! For women tomboys are celebrated to a degree but not femme males. We ve been taught to be all or nothing male so for us that like to express ourselves with heels nail polish dresses skirts panty hose etc its wrong in society so we repress. But you canonly do it for so long then it mist come out

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       Laura Lovett 
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      Sara Marie, it seems we are kindred spirits in just about every way! You have practically told my story, in your own way.

      One thing I’ve noticed as I’ve either gone public or dealt with people on the phone while fully Laura (ie, makeup, the lot) is that there’s a genuine Laura character that takes over in a kind of Dr Jekyll, sister Hyde way.

      She’s quite different from male me, yet I recognise most of her characteristics as feminine traits that I’ve habitually buried in the interests of being “a man”.

      Maybe it’s latent schizophrenia – I only know it’s life enhancing, as the more I set Laura free, the more interesting things seem to happen. Hence I feel no need for counselling.

      Thanks for sharing – it underlines the fact that we are not alone by a long way!

      Love Laura

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        Laura, Thanks for you kind words. Yes I forgot to mention the schizophrenia and Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde thoughts and fears. It does sound like we are very similar in many ways.
        And yes it is great to know we are not alone.
        Say hello any time.
        Sara Marie

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    I am not really 100% sure.  When I was young it was a huge sexual thrill.  Like taboo.  Now it just makes me fell so relaxed and calm to go out dressed.  I love passing, but I also love when i am spotted. I like feeling fragile and girlish and not trying to be pretending to be a macho male.  It is weird

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    I’ve always admired women. It got to the point where I wanted to be one of them. I also always had a air of femininity to me. Crossdressing, for me, is the means I use to express both the desire and femininity I have. On my journey, I found that women’s clothing and undergarments are much more comfortable than my male clothing. I also found that I like to wear makeup (though I have yet to find a noticeable blush and blue lipstick). I wish I had done this sooner.

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    Cross dressing is air my spirit and being needs in order to live.

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    OMG! I have spent so much time thinking about this …… and I ahve spent thousands of dollars on therapists talking and thinking about this.

    Initially, when I was young and going to drag shows – I thought that maybe I was a gay and I was a pervert and I was a freak.   Then later, after I spent more time reading, I wondered if it was an acceptable sexual fetish I was dealing with, or if I was truly gender confused.   I have gone through periods of hating myself for wanting to dress like a woman and wear makeup, and I have gone through periods revelling in the feel of pantyhose on shaven legs and the smell of perfume.  I have spent money on therapists trying to help me “get over” my fetish and I have spent money on therapists trying to “accept my gender fluidity”.

    Like other respondents to this question – I have decided that labels and categories don’t work for everyone.   They certainly don’t work for me.

    I love being a father – I really do!!  And I love hanging out with other men talking sports and politics in the local pub – I really do!!  And I like it when attractive women look at me dressed as man – I really do!

    But I also love using foundation to cover skin imperfections, and eye-shadow and mascara to accentuate my eyes.  I love slipping my feet into my new pumps and I love slipping on my new red dress (a new pic is coming girls!).   And when I am dressed, I do really like the idea of a man being attracted to me and treating me as a lady.   I have been completed by men when I am dressed en femme – and I love it!

    So where does that leave me?  I don’t know!

    But I know I am not going to stop being a man with my pub buddies and I know I am not going to stop dressing feminine and imagining that I am a woman.  I want to be both.

    Why am I this way?  I am not sure it matters why …. I am who I am.   I have spent enough time hating myself for who I am.  I am now trying hard to revel in both sides of myself, and I am trying to love myself for being both an attractive man and an attractive woman,

    So that is it!  That is the best answer I have to “why do I dress”?

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      I can relate. You’re saying so many things I feel as well. Someone else said Jekyll & Hyde. And there are times I’m not sure which is which either.

      I’m glad there are avenues like here to express our feelings.

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      I love this. It’s just how I feel as well.

      I’m never going to give up anything or change who I am. For ANYBODY. My dressing, my Sidney, is IN ADDITION TO all the other aspects of me. Nothing has to be replaced, just a bit of room in my (and others) head, heart, and closet given to this beautiful and, yes, healthy aspect of who and what I am.

      Hugs,

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    It’s just “Who I am”. I have identified as female, since I was about 8 yrs. old.
    I would wear my sister’s clothes, & when I got to High School, I got BOOBS!
    One day, in my 2nd year of High School, I went to school in a skirt & a low cut sweater.
    That was it! I’ve been a girl ever since. My parents really couldn’t argue, because I had boobs, for fuck’s sake! LOL I also feel more comfortable in women’s clothing, so soft, so silky next to my skin! I didn’t really feel right around the boys.
    (Unless we were making out!) LOL
    I didn’t choose this life, it chose me! And I’m fine with that! 🙂

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    Definitely into the physical feeling of the fabrics. You can have a nice strappy bra and panties combined with a soft flowing dress, and the combo feels great.

    I’m more in the “man in a dress” camp so for me, I don’t actually feel like a woman at all, I just like wearing their clothes! Looks and feels so much better than anything else I own typically “mens”. Not as into makeup or wigs, I actually prefer my own short hair look in the dress.

    I love the aesthetic of a woman though, and the clothes remind me of that, I guess I feel closer to that in an intimate feeling? Not sure what the internal feeling is I suppose, but regardless, for me it’s more about the physical sensations of the clothes, and I’m reminded while wearing them how a woman might look in them too.

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    excinting

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    I do it because I love it,

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    For me, because I’m a woman, and that is the way we dress. Okay, I still have those bothersome male bits; but I’m a woman. The look, the feel, the sensuousness, of the clothes, both outer and under garments is incredible. And women love me, and I love men. One day i will get to that point visually; but for now i settle for already being there mentally. Michelle

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      Ha, ha, ha. Was that sentence a enormous typo! “And women love me, and I love men.” I should have written: “And women love meN, and I love men.”. OMG, I am sooo embarrased, I could crawl under a rock. Love, Michelle

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    For me it is about the clothes and in particular the fabrics against the skin and the freedom of movement from dresses and to a lesser extent skirts. Don’t have the budget to indulge in real silk so have not managed to try it but really like the feel of thin nylon against the skin. In fact whilst I like to have some lacy panties for day time underdressing when it comes to night time underdressing I ldont go for lacy panties as I like the sliding of my chemise over the panties.

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       Georgina 
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      The sensation of silky fabrics, the feeling of being encased in pantyhose, pulling your camisole straps back up over your shoulder after they slide down–all so very sensuous.

      Georgina

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    Clothes definetly, as others have mentioned. I love looking cute, but its also a feeling of being “woman” as a man.

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     Melissa Nelson 
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    The clothes mostly. There more comfortable and then you have the cute outfits that make you feel more girly. So tou can have the best of both worlds.

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    For me it’s all about the clothing .Why should women be the only ones to wear what’s comfortable for instance the other day I went to the movies and had leggings on with an oversized sweater basically. Got compliments on the way out the door by several women one of them even asked where I got my leggings . For those wondering yes I had panties and a bra on underneath. I am by no means passable I have a goatee but still love to dress

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     Laura Lovett 
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    I don’t see it as cross-dressing – I’ve slways struggled with that term and any others!

    It’s just dressing the way I want to – just like women can and do.

     

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     Courtney Smiles 
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    Wow amazing stories. In the  beginning it was  for the feel of the clothes. I have always been more  on the  feminine side and so it seemed natural until I was caught. Today I wear my clothes for the way it feels on my body as well as how it makes me feel on the inside. I feel complete and connected.

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    I started around age 8, I started with feeling and then wearing my mother’s things. The first thing I ever wore was one of my mother’s girdles, it was so uncomfortable, but I loved the feeling of it. It also was the first thing I ever wore out of the house, going out to dinner with my parents.  I have always loved the feeling of and being in women’s clothes. I just feel comfortable and right in them. I don’t want a sex change though

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    For me it’s because I’ve slways felt that I should have been born a woman . I didn’t want to change sexes but still wanted to be the best feminine woman I could be . I love the feel of being who I was in my heart supposed to be .

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    Mainly because I could not stop but neither could I embrace it either. It is only last few years I have decided to make the best of it in spite of it all. Have found it gives and keeps me motivated for trying to lose weight, diet better, get in shape, and stay focused on my endeavors I engage in. Has not encouraged me to be in public to appear as a woman…but now I dress in public as a woman more than I ever had the courage to do before…just as a tomboy maybe…all women’s clothes except for a man’s shirt on top…even when stealthcorseting and out and about. Guess that is called androgynous while looking like a man otherwise? Not sure but feeling more comfortable than I ever thought I could or would.

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       Stef Smith 
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      I actually have found my niche in androgeny

      i like light makeup a little eyeliner mascara light concealer a femme man look

      with full underdressing and a mixture of femme clothing

      always have my toes done

      and on occasion wear my heels out usually tje 3 in ones which hide under long bootcut jeans

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    For me initially it was sexual motivation. However over time dressing up was a way to relax…I never realized it until very recently but whenever I am in female clothing of any kind, I  feel relaxed and happy. I think it’s because maybe it’s the most natural thing for me. I am introverted and am not comfortable in social meetings. However, when I dress up I feel so good and happy and energetic.

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    I can remember being maybe 5 or 6 years old and having fantasies about being a girl. I would get into my mom’s lingerie drawer and feel the various undergarments. I loved how they felt, so silky, and smelled of perfume. When I got older I began to crossdress in my mother’s clothes and learned to be pretty sneaky. I wanted to feel feminine and not always, but much of the time hated that I was a boy. My first wife was Catholic and fairly conservative. I cross dressed during most of my marriage and kept that hidden. Having that kind of a secret though takes its toll. It is kind of like having an affair. Eventually she found out and we ended up parting ways. A couple of years later, I met someone who was more open minded. She encouraged me to grow my hair out, and I let it go to the middle of my back. Women, complete strangers, would come up to me and lust after my hair. My wife had no problem with my cross dressing. She even encouraged it to a degree. I would go out in public wearing leggings and long tops. After a while though, I think she began to resent my crossdressing and we divorced. Worse, she brought up my crossdressing during the proceedings and tried to use it against me. I felt embarrassed and humiliated.

    Over the years I have gone through periods of total shame, where I would purge all my clothes and makeup only to start again a few years later. I am in my early 60s now and wear womens pants and shoes most days to work. I love wearing heals and wish I could get away with that at work and have worn 2 inch chunky heals with longer pants so as to not look too obvious. I have thought seriously about transitioning but at my age, it seems ridiculous. I have a daughter and family that are fairly conservative as well as judgmental and I don’t have the courage to do it. But I do dress and I do go out from time to time as a woman and love how I feel. The first time I had a gentleman open the door for me and smile, I felt wonderful.

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    For me as “Kayla” it is for purely sexual reasons.

    I don’t dress to look, or be a woman. I just enjoy wearing silky things that make my senses heighten, and make me aroused.

    I have been lucky to have understanding Girlfriends, and some amazing male lovers who appreciate the lingerie wearing “Kayla”…….

     

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    It was inevitable, I suppose.  I have always been fascinated with how smooth women are.  Over thirty years ago, I shaved my legs and soon after that upgraded to total hair removal.  I more recent years I have undergone nose to toe laser treatment.  For most of that time I didn’t consciously consider crossdressing even though my wife once said ‘your legs look like a woman’s’.

    A couple of years ago I was watching a programme on the television about ladyboys and thought how feminine they looked.  It must have set a seed and I started to wonder what I might look like if I dressed up and put makeup on.

    I did nothing about it but the thought kept nagging at me until I recently took the plunge and had a makeover.  The finished result was a revelation – I loved my new look and how feminine I could look!

    I joined CDH just a week ago and with the support and encouragement of the girls here, I have started to experiment with my new lifestyle. I have yet to discover what I like most, but to date have thoroughly enjoyed tucking and going to the shops with no bulge in my jeans; making breast forms out of a pair of tights and some bulgar wheat I had in the cupboard and, with the help of tape, getting a wonderful cleavage;  painting my nails and walking around the house en femme.  So far my attempts at makeup, particularly eyes and eyebrows have  been less than successful!

     

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    First and foremost, I love the feeling of Panties covering my private area.

    I also love the feeling of nylon stockings or hose covering my feet/legs.

    I like Women’s shoes, mostly Sandals and Loafers, nothing with too much of a heel.

    Pants and tops have become so universal/unisex for men and women, it does help me feel less self-conscious, when wearing whatever attire out in public.

    So many modern day Women dress somewhat butch, but some know how to do it in a way that is attractive and sexy, so I see no problem with dressing like a pretty, butch Woman I’d like to meet!

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    I  have always loved the feeling of nylon, wwhether it stockings, hold ups or tights on my female partners legs, so I thought I’d try them on. I just progressed from there. My current girlfriend is an absolute gem, helping and encouraging. She edges me to dress as Stephine, she wants me to buy dresses, more panties and heels. I think secretly she likes it, I know for a fact she has some bi  tendencies. This journey is going to be fun. Looking forward to sharing it with her and you ladies too. X

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    <p class=”MsoNormal” style=”mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;”><span style=”font-size: 12.0pt; font-family: ‘Times New Roman’,’serif’; mso-fareast-font-family: ‘Times New Roman’;”>For me it’s a mixture of many things.</span></p>
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    <p class=”MsoNormal” style=”mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;”><span style=”font-size: 12.0pt; font-family: ‘Times New Roman’,’serif’; mso-fareast-font-family: ‘Times New Roman’;”>I have crystal clear childhood memories of watching her getting ready to go to a formal ball and wishing all that finery and frippery was on me….</span></p>
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    <p class=”MsoNormal” style=”mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;”><span style=”font-size: 12.0pt; font-family: ‘Times New Roman’,’serif’; mso-fareast-font-family: ‘Times New Roman’;”><span style=”mso-spacerun: yes;”> </span>Many’s the time when, after being able to spend a couple of days as Caty, putting back on (as we say down here), the “socks and jocks” of male undies is quite a shock to the old bod.</span></p>
    <p class=”MsoNormal” style=”mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;”><span style=”font-size: 12.0pt; font-family: ‘Times New Roman’,’serif’; mso-fareast-font-family: ‘Times New Roman’;”>Happy dressing everyone</span></p>
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    • #163997
       Anne Preuss 
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      Hmmmmmm Caty…..that didn’t post too well.

  • #105635
     Caty Ryan 
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    Registered On: August 27, 2017
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    <p class=”MsoNormal” style=”mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;”><span style=”font-size: 12.0pt; font-family: ‘Times New Roman’,’serif’; mso-fareast-font-family: ‘Times New Roman’;”>For me it’s a mixture of many things.</span></p>
    <p class=”MsoNormal” style=”mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;”><span style=”font-size: 12.0pt; font-family: ‘Times New Roman’,’serif’; mso-fareast-font-family: ‘Times New Roman’;”>a/. Being first born of two brothers in a “macho male 50’s” family where fathers were absent either working or “down the pub” I was much closer to my mother than my father and I am sure this led me to a feminine side of my personality. To this day I’m also firmly convinced that this “femme side” of me has been instrumental in me being able to relate to many females just as well as I can to my close “Aussie mates”. EG I could, (but of course I wont) name two ladies who, via me not having any siblings of that gender, have been and continue to be like sisters to me. In fact I owned up to both of them about Caty many, many moons, ago and both were totally accepting.</span></p>
    <p class=”MsoNormal” style=”mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;”><span style=”font-size: 12.0pt; font-family: ‘Times New Roman’,’serif’; mso-fareast-font-family: ‘Times New Roman’;”>Doubtless, it’s also why I ended up trying on my mother’s bras and girdles at a very early age and did so many times when throughout my teen years, when I refused to go to the family holiday cottage in the winter, (there’s nothing to do there!!) and was left “home alone”<span style=”mso-spacerun: yes;”>  </span>I would try on my mother’s lingerie and use tennis balls for boobs.** </span></p>
    <p class=”MsoNormal” style=”mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;”><span style=”font-size: 12.0pt; font-family: ‘Times New Roman’,’serif’; mso-fareast-font-family: ‘Times New Roman’;”>I have crystal clear childhood memories of watching her getting ready to go to a formal ball and wishing all that finery and frippery was on me….</span></p>
    <p class=”MsoNormal” style=”mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;”><span style=”font-size: 12.0pt; font-family: ‘Times New Roman’,’serif’; mso-fareast-font-family: ‘Times New Roman’;”>b/. At a very early age I stumbled up on an encyclopedia entry (remember them  “PG” =pre Google??) dealing with women’s fashion throughout the ages. This resulted in me being immediately hooked on women’s period fashion, which today I “fulfil” by owing 3 period gowns. (see my photos for detail).</span></p>
    <p class=”MsoNormal” style=”mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;”><span style=”font-size: 12.0pt; font-family: ‘Times New Roman’,’serif’; mso-fareast-font-family: ‘Times New Roman’;”>I’m also old enough to remember the days, at least here in Australia, when all male private secondary schools cast young guys as females in their school plays. I attended an all male trade oriented public school which did not have such events and I was as jealous as hell of the boys that got to play the female parts. “Lady Bracknell” in the Importance of Being Earnest sticks in my brain to this day. Lucky “so and so’s” ….All those crinolines, make up and “up do “ wig’s”</span></p>
    <p class=”MsoNormal” style=”mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;”><span style=”font-size: 12.0pt; font-family: ‘Times New Roman’,’serif’; mso-fareast-font-family: ‘Times New Roman’;”>The fact that you good folks in modern day Trump’s America run Womanless Pageants/Weddings , not to mention your plethora of CD/TG conventions, <span style=”mso-spacerun: yes;”> </span>is a also source of great fascination and jealously to me down here in “Oz”.</span></p>
    <p class=”MsoNormal” style=”mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;”><span style=”font-size: 12.0pt; font-family: ‘Times New Roman’,’serif’; mso-fareast-font-family: ‘Times New Roman’;”>We have organizations that run them here, but they are few and far between!</span></p>
    <p class=”MsoNormal” style=”mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;”><span style=”font-size: 12.0pt; font-family: ‘Times New Roman’,’serif’; mso-fareast-font-family: ‘Times New Roman’;”>c/. Last but not least, I just love and enjoy the feeling of the fabrics of women’s clothing on my “bod”. It relaxes and sends me to another peaceful calm world. A world where I am just “me”, Catherine Louise Ryan at your service…..</span></p>
    <p class=”MsoNormal” style=”mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;”><span style=”font-size: 12.0pt; font-family: ‘Times New Roman’,’serif’; mso-fareast-font-family: ‘Times New Roman’;”>Many’s the time when, after being able to spend a couple of days as Caty, putting back on (as we say down here), the “socks and jocks” of male undies is quite a shock to the old bod.</span></p>
    <p class=”MsoNormal” style=”mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;”><span style=”font-size: 12.0pt; font-family: ‘Times New Roman’,’serif’; mso-fareast-font-family: ‘Times New Roman’;”>Happy dressing everyone</span></p>
    <p class=”MsoNormal” style=”mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;”><span style=”font-size: 12.0pt; font-family: ‘Times New Roman’,’serif’; mso-fareast-font-family: ‘Times New Roman’;”>Caty</span></p>
    <p class=”MsoNormal” style=”mso-margin-top-alt: auto; mso-margin-bottom-alt: auto; line-height: normal;”><span style=”font-size: 12.0pt; font-family: ‘Times New Roman’,’serif’; mso-fareast-font-family: ‘Times New Roman’;”>** this went on until some rellies came a checking one weekend and I got “Sprung bad”. I dont blame  my Dad for the tone and form of his “lecture” to me about what would happen if I continued “in this way”. He was a product of his times and generation.
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    But “The Boys in the Pub will call you a Queen”. has never left me  Oh….. the 60’s shame of it all…..

    I grew up resenting that “culture” and never became a “(nightly) boy at the Pub” anyway.

    But I digress!

     

    Happy dressing everyone

     

     

     

     

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    I think my story is a familiar one. Started wearing tights in my very early teens and for a good length of time, it was a sexual thing. Having said that, if in a social situation, I always find myself talking more with women than men. I’m a little shy and can only really converse with someone I click with. I can’t do the alpha male bit so I don’t bother. I suppose in general terms that makes me odd (If I was wealthy, I would be called eccentric). First wife hated finding women’s underwear in my drawer and we came close to divorce once over a receipt in my pocket that showed I’d bought some black tights. Second wife was told from the outset and she doesn’t really care. Half of my everyday clothes (jeans/t shirts etc) are from the Women’s department because they feel nicer, they are often cheaper than mandrab and above all, they fit better. In the last 3 years, I have found my femme side creeping into everyday life more and more and is just who I am. A mix of hormones driving a non conformist brain into doing that thing we all dreamed of as kids : Do whatever we like and answering to no-one. Clothes have no gender because it’s just cloth. The perception is driven by society. I’m not gay or straight or bisexual,  if I find someone attractive then their gender is as irrelevant to me as my own. If they look and smell good then its right  I don’t care what they are wearing.

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    My drive to crossdress began at about the age of 6.  It was then when the warm fuzzy feeling started as I looked at older girls and women.

    Getting caught in my mother’s underwear drawer by my hardliner Catholic mother was no picnic. That came with embarrassment one can only imagine.

    At age 9, I found a bra that my aunt left behind at my grandmother’s house and wore it for the first time with my shirt over it. To say it was a rush was an understatement. I didn’t wear it long, due to the possibility of being caught.

    Puberty only intensified the urge as I stealthily would be in my mother’s closet trying on just about everything she had. It was then I became a master of covering my tracks.

    From between the age of 15 and 22, the urge was nonexistent. But when it came back with a vengeance. I went back into stealth mode borrowing my girlfriend’s things. She never suspected a thing.

    Living alone in a separate residence from my girlfriend grants me all the wiggle room I need to get femmed up when alone without being discovered. As a bonus, Amazon has everything a girl needs to insure her stealth of not being discovered, while granting her access to whatever she needs to match how she feels.

    I prefer the look and feel of large breast forms in a pocket bra under a lace-trim satin cami with a matching padded gaff,  a long and straight brunette wig tied back and braided with clip on hoop earrings.

    I just lounge around my house like that when the urge hits me.

    When I am done, I just store my feminine things in a cleverly designed spot where no one would have any business digging.

    I’ve purged a couple times only for the urge to trigger a binge. So, I just keep what I have and just manage the urge whenever necessary and simply go about my business. It is what it is and what it is is just part of my chemistry that when ignored comes with unnecessary stress and anxiety.

    I’d rather self medicate with lingerie instead of blowing my cover to doctors and councilors only to be prescribed medications that can become addictive with side effects thus compounding the matter.

    I have way too much to lose by coming out of the closet, while abstaining only brings about unnecessary stress….plain and simple.

    You see, crossdresser heaven is indeed ideal in making us aware how not alone we really are. We all have our reasons for being in and out of the closet, while this site is perfect for guys who just want to share the ways they go about managing the girl that is and always will be part of him. Its that simple.

     

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     Kayla Skye 
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    I love the feeling of wearing stockings and heels with a flowing skirt. I have home made boobs that bounce and jiggle as I walk. I look forward to my alone time when Kayla comes out.

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      I feel a sort of release from stress when dressed feminine, even when home.  It is relaxing and yet exciting for me, at the same time. To live up to society standards is well, a pressure of sorts. It allows me to be free to just think and do what I want to do without pressure or expectations, like a drug of sorts maybe. I think each person’s brain is wired to some extent both male and female, according to what society expects vs real emotions, whatever that means. I still haven’t figured out why fully, I just know that I enjoy it. There is evidence, proof that each male has a certain amount of “X” and “Y” chromosomes that vary with each male person, and females too, I think. So if I try to shut off the part of my brain with more of the “other” chromosomes, the “other feelings” , I will feel stress. Dressing as a woman, with the makeup and heels, pampering my feet and shaved legs, relieves that stress.
      I have read about this “dual spirit” thing, the American Indians had in their society, and the “third gender” in India, I think. In some societies it isn’t as taboo as in others.
      Men, in early American society wore stockings like pantyhose, as well as England and France.
      Kilts are worn in Scotland and dress like tunics in yet others by men.
      Here in America, they way a person dresses defines gender in a most specific way. The mere hint or suggestion of a man dressing in anything other than the “man code” form of clunky jeans, super long ridiculous “shorts”.. ( I like short shorts, like in the 1970’s), can evoke comments and jeers of gay or queer.

      Maybe it is the attention and the thrill, the excitement of being out in public that really turns me on. Maybe just the idea of a sexual encounter is what it is. The attention I get at the LGBTQ clubs, and some gay bars, is amazing.

      I have gone to the Flamingo Resort hotel numerous times as Lexi, and met many fun guys, people in general. One of the best times out to the club, was to Pepperz in Gulfport, FL, ( right next to St. Petersburg)  On that night, it was my very first night out fully dressed as Lexi, heels, pantyhose, bra, the whole deal, in a short, short skirt. A very tall older, and very good looking professional type man at the bar, sat next to me on the barstool.  He bought me drinks, and for all intensive purposes, treated me like his date, or a woman he wanted to “pick up”.. It was a huge thrill. It led to later activities, I won’t share here on this post, but it was very intimate, even sexual in nature as the night in the bar continued, and later.

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     Bettie Houston 
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    Why is a moth attracted to the flame?  I don’t know why I dress but when I do, I feel complete and less stressed.  For years I felt both shame and guilt.  I have purged my things countless times. After years and ongoing therapy, I enjoy my femme side and find she wants to be out more and more.

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     Jessica Lace 
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    I often ask myself that same question. I guess it’s the inner woman in me that just loves to get out. I have been doing this for years and have even stepped up my feminan side by concentrating on my makeup and hair. It is exhilarating to tuck the boys away, put on some sexy lingerie, slip into my black dress, and admire myself in the mirror. I’m exploring new makeup options and hair styles. Now if if I could only hide my other male features…!!!

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    I’ve always wanted what I perceived as the life that the girls and the women around me had (and have). I always wanted to go to the salon with my mother to get my hair and nails done…I wanted to wear a beautiful gown to the prom…I wanted (and still want) to be a bridesmaid. I love the softness of being a woman…I love it that women can hug and kiss one another…cuddle with one another when one is hurting – and no one sees it as something strange. There is a peace for me as a woman…the clothes and the perfume and the make-up are wonderful “perks” – but learning to really think and act like a woman is indescribable! I guess what it boils down to, is that I cross dress because it’s who I’ve become and who I am.

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    I think that my most influential reason for dressing was my resire to please my mom. I think that she really wanted a girl as her first child. All of her protective affection wre directed to keeping me from being a carefree boy. Is I grew older, I sensed the need to be like her in every way, including her dress. Once I reached puburty, the desire to dress completly like her tok control.

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    Sexual motivation mainly: I do love the feel of femme clothes.

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    Once of the wonderful things about this site is that I can reflect on my journey and share stories with others. So in addition to what I posted, I was number three of four boys. My mother wanted so badly to have a girl she gave me what would be considered a girls name, KIM.  That caused general problems, so I used my middle name. I wonder if a mother could send messages to the womb?  When I was around eight or nine, I came across a box containing dresses . put them on and felt wonderful and pretty.  I masturbated and feel asleep. When I awoke, there was a blanket over me. I put everything away and kept one dress because It was my favorite to wear over and over again. For the next week or so, whenever I saw mother, she would have a big smile and blush, never mentioning the blanket or that the clothes were hers when she was eight and was saving them for “her girl”.  I was embarrassed but delighted in having a dress to wear. It was a mutual secret. Looking back I would have loved to have been her little girl as a GG or CD. Her mental illness , language difficulty  and my immaturity made that hard to get across. I’ve had the male/femme struggle for many years.    These days, when I’m in Karley time, I sometimes think of being her girl and having mother -daughter talks. When in femme and dressed, I feel so much calmer and free.  My male persona feels so heavy and my femme side is light and happy.

    karley delaware

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    Because crossdressing is wonderful. I began at an early age and enjoy getting to be Barbara. As many of you I struggled with the being drawn to my female side and fought the powerful urges to dress. Now, I accept the beauty of getting to be both male and appear female. When I go out and “pass” and am treated like a lady, well that is just one big WOW! What fun and excitement. I only dress a few times a year, but that is a special time that I always look forward too and enjoy so much. Have fun dressing, Barbara Jane

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    When I’m dressed I just feel calmer and I don’t know why. It’s like it stops the static in my head and I relax in away I can’t normally. When I picture myself, I’ve always picture myself as a woman and almost always have. When I’m dressed and look in the mirror what I see matches my internal image. The level of joy and inner peace that comes from inner matching outer is indescribable.

    I think women’s clothing  also fits me better and is way more fun to wear.

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       Danielle Pink 
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      In all honestly, I just feel more comfortable. I feel relax and I love the soft feeling of women’s clothing. Their fabric is more soft and comfortable. Also it’s just really relaxing too, it helps me at ease and I like the way that I look better as a woman.

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     Sherri Christopher 
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    I was attracted to crossdressing when I was 4 years old. My sister had a crinoline petticoat hanging in a downstairs walk in closet and it was like it was beckoning me to put it on! One day I did and I felt wonderful wearing that petticoat! Ever since then, I’ve loved wearing feminine underthings, especially slips and petticoats! As I write this, I’m wearing a beautiful lace trimmed Victoria’s Secret slip with panties, garter belt and stockings, bra and heels and I get so much comfort dressing like this and it feels so good and yes, I’m overcome with feeling feminine! I’ve come to accepting this as a part of me and thoroughly enjoy it!

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     Martha Lou 
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    It brought out my feminine personality which was inside me for years.

    I( am now a transsexual realizing now that I really am a woman.

    I just love to dress and emulate a woman. I have become very effeminate as well.

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     Sara Marie Franklin (SMF) 
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    Wish I knew it just feels right an urge in me or a drive to be more feminine.  I have asked this questions for over 40 years and have not found the ah ha answer to it.  Like both side of myself I think I want to keep the drab side because I have lived so many years and feel more secure with that side, but want the feminine side.  Always wondered if I was to go fully feminine if I would have a drive to be male at times.  The cloths and makeup and all are just things that help me project the image in my mind to come to life so others will say you are a beautiful woman and then I will feel like I see myself in my mind.  I don’t know if that makes since but that is it.

    Sara Marie

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    So many reasons! First of all it’s fun. It’s exciting (especially at first). It feels good. It doesn’t hurt anyone.

    Also though I have small natural breasts (probably gynecomastia) and so I feel like dressing up gives me a chance to give them a purpose too. Instead of feeling self-concious all the time I can be happy that I am able to fill out a bra all on my own without forms if I want.

    Also I am queer (somewhere between bisexual or pansexual? who knows?! I usually say bi). So why I realize that sexuality and gender are not the same thing I do think think my sexuality being kind of fluid maybe lets me be more forgiving of myself for dressing and being different. I would be different regardless and what are they going to do to me? Call me gay? Yeaaaah no kidding thanks for noticing sweetheart!

    So anyways if I enjoy it I am going to do it. Someday soon I just hope to be more public about it so I can incorporate this side of myself into my whole self. One step at a time I guess.

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     Gina Jones 
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    Unfortunately I can’t do it very often, but I love dressing.  It makes me feel so feminine and sexy.  I guess it’s the woman inside wanting to feel pretty.

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    It comes from deep inside. The woman in me needs to come out and play.looking in the mirror seeing myself is so satisfying.  I got cheated out ,born in the wrong body. i have to make it happen.

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     gaicrossdress 
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    My personal reason for crossdressing is very simple : i love to be a girl, to act as a girl, to love as a girl…

    And a girls NEEDS to dress in a girl style….So i wear bra, pantanose, skirts, high heels and so on.

    Because i feel to be a girl

    Kisses from Gaia

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     Olivia Faye Marie 
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    it has taken a long time for me to figure it out, but I can say with some confidence that I have dressed because I felt like I wasn’t accepted as a child by my father. I would bring him pictures I had drawn and things I had made and he always had a critique ready for me. everything could be better, nothing was good as it was. it was a standard I couldn’t live up to. and being the child I was I believed the fault lay with me. that something was wrong with me. that if I was different, then he would accept me and my work. that’s where it started at least. I never really started dressing until I was 13 though. it just seemed to hit me out of nowhere. like an ambush in the dark. I really wish I had a better support group at that time. I would have saved so much trouble and pain. but that was then. now, I realize that I am me, I don’t need approval to be good at something. and that things that I thought of as feminine are things that I can embrace no matter what side i’m presenting. I can be a guy who likes clothes, does cooking and cleaning and loves children, who is an artist and a romantic. this is me, and weirdly, I don’t have to change how I look to be this way. I may once and a while for fun, maybe, but how I look doesn’t define who I can be. I choose who I am. We’ve let society put us in boxes, that men can be this but not this, that women are like this or that. we are who we decide to be. here is a bit of a challenge. take something you like from your fem self and incorporate that into your everyday life. being a dude doesn’t have to be drab, girls. be free to be whole, whatever path that may lead you down.

    Caelynn

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    Thanks everyone for sharing. It was very insightful and gives me the courage to join in. Well, I have to say my main reason is sexual. It started in college and my wife really pulled it out of me later. She lets me dress when we have sex. It is awesome and I really am less selfish a lover as Josie. Lately, I started fantasying. About going out. Its scary as hell and all you brave girls impress me. I love wearing heels and dresses. I have started to try out makeup but have no idea beside lipstick. Josie is starting to grown inside me and I love it. Letting her take control is exhilarating.

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     Steven Andrews 
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    For me, it just another way to be me. I am who I am. As men we are not supposed to be pretty, or to like pretty clothes.  It’a all so Manley, we should be happy wearing rough jeans, have facial hair rough as 80 grit sandpaper, drink beer all the time and fart. I mean what the best thing a guy gets to “feel sexy”? Maybe some silk boxers, cotton tighties, an old tee shirt….. Like I enjoy the acorns sticking to my legs.. NOT.

    I’ve always thought that I should feel pretty and or sexy. and it makes sense to me that wearing clothes that help make that happen would be natural. I’ve never felt pretty or sexy wearing a suit and tie. Quite the opposite. It always feels restrictive.

    Wearing nice underwear, dress slips, pretty dress, or shoes just seems like what should happen each day. Because of what I do for a living going out in full dress would be detrimental in my business. But I’m ok with that because I’ve made that choice early on. I don’t stress over it. But at home and esp on weekends I’m more likely to get the “Girl” on  in a more sneaky ways than thru the week.  Everyday I have some level of an outfit on. That just all seems normal to me and it reinforces that I am who I am. I feel good a parent, a person, and a member of my community.

    I feel more Femmy Power and confidence when in full dress that I do in full man garb. Besides, That burly dude I’m facing everyday has no idea that he’s getting schooled by me while I’m wearing a a full on Femmy Undergarment set… That always make me smile a bit 🙂

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       Stef Smith 
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      Steven

      you hit it right on the head

      i too have a job that makes it detrimental to wear what i want

      but i can wear lingerie underneath and wear femme jeans and sweaters

      and at home i can indulge my shoe fetish with my clothes

      i love the way the clothes make me feel and the way i look

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    I have alway loved the look and feel of ladies clothing as well as all the other aspect of being a lady from makeup to beutiful hair to perfume and female sanitary products. I can remeber being 16 and putting on my Moms panties her panty girdle with a Moddess sanitary napkin her nylons and her nurses outfit. I felt so sexy and felt truly complete. I dressed up many times up to 18 in her outfits and loved it. I also had a neighbor who was just hot and I would house sit for her and where her clothing from pink panties to her sexy lingerie for bed this made me feel complete. Since those day I continue with undergarments and sometimes a Kotex pad in the panties but never complete as when I was younger.

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     Wanda Full 
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    I tried it in a safe environment and liked it. I’m a professional clown and at a convention there was a school theme, and for student night I dresses as a school girl. I got several positive affirmations from notable entertainment luminaries and researched it more, and decided to pursue cross dressing. I’m hooked. I haven’t been out yet, as the facial hair is a giveaway, but I spend considerable time putting together outfits and practicing makeup. As a 50+ over weight dude, options are limited with clothing and the ability to pass as femme. In the entertainment environment I feel safe, but don’t in the real world yet. I am gradually wearing more and more makeup to work, but have to keep it low key. I have long hair and try styling it differently, and have had negative comments from management, so I’m going slowly. I push boundaries whenever I can. I suppose my reason is to stick it to the man and raise awareness of the impending sexual revolution. You go Gurls!

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     Bronwyn 
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    because i can.

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     Andrea Adlerberg 
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    The very simple answer for me is that it just feels right; it is an affirmation of my true personality.  As to why it just feels right…well that is a discussion point that opens doors in many directions.  Have done a fair amount of internet research and explored the whole “nurture vs nature” view points.  Also have a few sessions with a professional therapist.  Wasn’t really helpful in determining why I felt this way, but to be fair I gained some insights on how to deal with life’s disappointments–which we all experience.  My conclusion is that it is a combination of nature and nurture.  The arguments about hormonal mix during pregnancy resonate with me, and if one grows up in an environment where there are some affirmation strokes for “feminine behaviors” the die is cast.  When I am dressed in feminine mode I feel comfortable with myself; I feel I don’t have to pretend to be some sort of macho guy I am not.  So I guess it is a comfortable fit and I only “sort of” know why.  Would love to hear other theories as that is how I learn.

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    Hi Shannon, with me it is everything feminine from underwear, to dresses, to make up and yes sanitary products they all give me the buzz. If I venture out as Mikki it is great thinking people see a woman and not a man ( hopefully ).

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     Lucinda Hawkns 
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    the style, looks,  sexy dresses and skirts and nylons. the feel and look of dressing up feminine is all about letting my fem side out that i did not know i had. since i had to wear tights in a school play i was hooked. from there i wanted more, now in my 50s i have my own attire of female clothing, make up, perfume, jewelry, heels, bras, panties, pads and boob enhancers to give me that cleavage look. i dress up all the time when i can and allot of under dressing in winter. if i could go back in time i would rather be a female.  i am a thin person with a female figure. wife knows but will not see me but she has been seeing me dressed up. she is some what excepting my fem side to a point. but for why i dress up. its a feeling of happiness, depressed free. being all i wish i was. love to dress up and be pretty. its like a switch male mode is not here and dressing up like i am female.

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  • #81257
     Jenna Good 
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    I just love the feeling of being feminine.  Even when I just put on a pair of nylons, panties and/or a little lipstick.

    I then get that urge to dress up completely, real sexy and I love the woman that I see.  It’s just exhilarating to be Jenna.  Then I wonder how my life would have been if I was born as a woman.

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       Veronica Raines 
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      Hi Jenna. If the picture you have there, is really you, then you definitely should have been born a woman. You are beautiful…

       

      Veronica Raines

      I live in La Mesa, Ca. which is 10 miles east of San Diego.

      Veronica Raines

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    I would be intigued to know. Its selfish for me. I love nylon clad legs, I love propper hi heels and I love a skirt at just the right height . So to get all those things juuuust right, Im doing it myself lol.

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     Stef Smith 
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    I love the clothes

    i love the clothes on me

    i love the male female contrast

    i love theverotic feeling of it

    i just like it

    i love how it relaxes me

    its me

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     Dame Veronica Graunwolf 
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    I tried being a male for a long time while enveying girls and their clothing! Such variety, such comfort and sooo fun! I tried dressing at various Fetish Nights and had a great time.  That did it……..it was time to change my life and I did so………I haven’t transgendered, too old now, but everything about me has changed……I am now a girl, new clothes, new attiude, and new name.  Enjoy being a girl, it is wonderful.

    Lady Veronica

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     Michelle Nelson 
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    I love being feminine. The clothes, hair, and make up. That feeling of being pretty is just the best. It unlocks this whole feminine side of me.

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     Jennifer 
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    I feel like the real me when I dress. The older I get the more my man clothes feel like the costume. There’s nothing like wearing a beautiful feminine outfit to wash away all of my anxiety. I’m my true self when dressed. It’s so relaxing when I don’t have to hide who I am inside.

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    Thank you for all the replies to this question. I have really only got immersed into dressing as Violet in the last few weeks although I have played at it on and off for decades. Like many I have no true understanding of why I feel the need except that I feel so much more comfortable and content in my female attire. So after much soul searching my reason is because I want to and love cross dressing.

    The only other thing I can say is that I have always loved shopping for clothes with and for my wife. She loves clothes. Browsing the female stores is so much more enjoyable  than the drab men’s shops. Cross dressing allows  me to wear the pretty clothes I have always found attractive. I don’t ever cross dress in front of anyone except my wife but when ever possible wear tight bum hugging jeans and flowery, preferably pink shirts even when in my male clothes. Pink has always been my absolute favourite colour.

    Violet

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     Maggie 
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    I would have to say I do not fully understand why but I do know I have to, always have, always will and I love this part of me as it is deep in my soul.

    Iloveit

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     Hannah Jeanne 
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    When I dress, I feel confident, proud, happy and genuine.

    It is as simple as that.

    Hannah Jeanne

    "Just the first step on a what will undoubtedly be the most difficult journey to date." - Hannah Jeanne

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    It brings out the true me .i feel like i was suppost to be  gurl just got tuck in a male body.when im dressed up im a completely different person .i lice alone so im pretty much all gurl now .just wish i would been myself all them years go

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     Steph 
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    Ever since I was 6ish and I sat and consciously  peed “like a girl”, I knew something was up.

    It’s so complicated in so many ways, but, I love looking down and seeing boobs and non phallus. Ive always wondered, dreamed and fantasized about being a woman; how it feels both happiness and trials.

    Now that  my wife is involved I’m quite curious to see where this leads over all.

    All I know is this who I am and I enjoy being myself.

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    Why? do I crossdress.

    the reasons for me are many, but I have to admit that a large part of my crossdressing is sexually erotic for me.I have been crossdressing for over 50 years and first started  around 11 or 12 years old.I loved wearing my mums pull-on corsets,bras and stockings and suspender belts.

    As I  went through my teens obvoiusly my interest in girls grew,and I had girlfriends, but I was jealous of the way they looked and dressed.I adore all females and just strive to look as close to a female as possible.I am very lucky in the fact that I am quite small and my size is about 10-12,but I can wear things that are size 8,I can squeeze into a size 6-7 shoe.

    Looking at females when i,m out…the first thing I notice is how they are dressed.When I see a girl wearing a top that shows her bra,or tight skirt that shows her knickers……I just ACHE to copy that look.When i,m Shannon,I can stop that ache, because after 50 years experience I have sucessfully copied the female look.

    Walking in heels and with a nice skirt and top on etc, seems so natural to me,as if I was meant to be female.Shannon goes deep into my soul and she is part of me.She is with me every waking hour and when i,m fully dressed hair,make-up nails etc I truely feel at ease with the world.

    Strangely when I am dressed male mode I have trouble finding clothes that fit properly but Shannons things seem to fit perfectly.

    Shannon

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    I love how the clothes feel and I love the colors and fabrics and they are so much different than boring old male clothes but it seems like I have my different moods where I will not dress up for like 6 months and then out of nowhere I did into my duffel bag that I keep hidden and I open it up and just decide to dress up or wear a nightie or something like that. I adore women so much and cannot watch a movie or TV show without being drawn to what a female is wearing. I think I am more than just a cross dresser and perhaps I am transgender as well because deep down inside if given the chance I would change from male to female in a heartbeat.

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     Samantha Josephine 
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    I loved to wear panties and bra si ce i was young i used to wrar my aunts bra panties skirts n it feela so good on my skin

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     Lindsey Re 
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    Hi like to wear bikinis because of how it looks and feels, its great to be yourself!

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     Leslies Ann Gray Girl 
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    I have crossed dressed all my life,not everyday,sometimes i would go several years without but, i always had fem feelings it has never left.I do indeed feel that i an more female than male,i to enjoy wearing female clothing, i have several thousand dollars worth and keep buying.With Miss Jenner coming out and all the news media talking about trans people it made me realize i to am a trans lady and to quit fighting the feelings is the right thing for me. I love being the real me, and i will be the rest of my life, it makes me very calm inside,happy.Nothing like a new bra or pantie or dress to brighten my day. ladies be who you are life is short, live, enjoy.Leslie

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     Olivia Faye Marie 
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    I’d like to speak generally on this topic. The Reasons for crossdressing are numerous and to some unknown. it would be nice if you could just say “this one thing is the reason behind my desire to look and feel like a woman”. Unfortunately, at least when it comes to my experience this isn’t the case at all. to use an analogy, its like a big ball of christmas lights that you tossed in a box a year back. in that ball are multiple strands of lights. all different types of bulbs. some lights you didn’t even know you had. they may possibly be untangled, but you still got to figure out what you are going to do with them. to bring this back to crossdressing, the reasons behind your crossdressing can be understood, the why and the how figured out. but that is really only the first step. its the beginning of understanding more about yourself, but from there you need to decide what to do with that knowledge.

    also, a note to those who are new to crossdressing and/or feel that if they could understand why they could control it better. my experience has told me that understanding opens doors, but in the end, in one way or another, avoidance and control are not going to be enough. you need to jump in. be aware, be careful, be cautious, but jump in to your desire with both feet. its scary. but if you give yourself permission to explore your desires, no matter how things will turn out, ultimately I believe you will thank yourself.

     

    Caelynn

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    My crossdressing started at a young age and at its high point I even got caught stealing stockings from a local drug store! Talk about humiliating when the store cop called my parents and told him what I had tried stealing! That moment scared me a lot and while I would still sneak putting on a pair of my mom’s panties I pretty much stopped crossdressing for many years. I thought something was wrong with me and I did not understand why I wanted to put on women’s clothing. Of course it aroused me and exploring my sexuality was part of it, but I have always thought there was something more to it than just sex, something much deeper. As I got older the urge and need to crossdress continued and even got stronger! There are many times that I would buy makeup, panties, bras, stockings, dresses, and heels and dress up. After a couple of days I would be ashamed of myself for giving into my desire to crossdress and throw away everything I had bought. I have since stopped feeling that shame about it, but would be completely mortified if anybody found out I was a crossdresser. I was (and still am a little) very nervous about sharing this with anybody, but I have kept it bottled up inside me for so long that it feels really good to finally get it out and talk about it. So far everybody I have meet her has been totally supportive and in telling me it is safe here to talk about my crossdressing. What is my reason for crossdressing? It is something that I have to do. I feel that I am the true me when I am McKenzie and really miss it when I can’t be her. Sometimes I question my gender and I get the overwhelming feeling that McKenzie is who I want to be for the rest of my life. For now I will enjoy the feeling of those wonderful women’s clothing on my skin and the peace I get when I am McKenzie!

    Thanks for reading,

    Kenzie

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      Oh, McKensie, Your story is so similar to mine! I have now been able – after so many years- to wear what I want in public. Realizing that people are more interested in themselves how they look, etc. and not so much about my appearance. I dress up most every day and now go out into the world.  I do this for me for my well being and the pure joy of being the female Me.

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     Johnnie 
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    Good question and I am seeing a therapist to help me find answers.

    Most of my life I had underlying feminine feelings. During my childhood I liked wearing my sister’s pantyhose and dresses. As an adult I liked wearing man panties because I liked the feeling of wearing panties. But I never wore a dress and I didn’t feel or see myself as being a cross dresser. A few years ago my wife unexpectedly pass away. After a long grieving period, I decided to order some women’s clothing such as panties bra, garter belt, stockings, heels, wig, and dress. I simply want experience how it felt to dress as a woman nothing more nothing less. After putting on the clothes my whole world flipped upside down. Initially it was only cross dressing, but over a short period of time I began to question my gender identity. My dressing was no longer about wearing women’s clothing, it become more about identifying as a woman. Was I transgender? I went into therapy to find answers

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    For me it was many things.  I was small as a boy and seemed to gravitate towards the girls.  Then at 13 I started really noticing the girl’s clothes and wished I could be them.  I have always been attracted to women and one fateful day after looking at dad’s Playboys as a teenager and not only being aroused by the bodies, but the clothes, I got into my mother’s lingerie.  I loved it.  Many times I tried to suppress it or “cure” the desire, but always came back.  My wife was the first person in the world I ever told.  My father caught me once, but didn’t do anything nor did he say a word.  He acted like it never happened.  My wife laid down some rules that work for us and sometimes it really spices up our sex, but I believe in balance and moderation.  Juli is someone I have come to know, love and express, but I fall more in the fetish/play side.  I am comfortable with myself as a man who loves to wear women’s clothing.

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     Nancy Gamms 
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    Much more fun then being a guy but more work too.  I’ve dressed to some degree for as long as I can remember and gave up trying to figure out why.  When I see me dressed in the mirror I just get a peaceful feeling like “this is me”.  I love getting out when I can, being called miss and mam, people holding the door for me, all of the little things.  Waitresses seem a bit friendlier.  And having guys notice me and watch me walk by is certainly flattering.

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     Gina Arriaga 
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    Such a deep, profound and intimate topic.

    Is it a physical need? A sensual need? A sexual need?  A spiritual need? A metaphysical fulfillment?

    I ponder all of these approaches to my crossdressing needs.  Sometimes I am completely Gina, other times we’re two people, one hosting the other.  But who is hosting whom?

    I don’t know that I will ever have a concrete answer if I am asked that question in person; it will completely depend on the context of the moment.

    Not unlike a galaxy of universes, my reasons for crossdressing engages physical, sexual, sensual, spiritual and metaphysical aspects with many more I haven’t yet found a way to put into words.

    As Rebecca, above, says, it “just feel right.”

    xo
    Gina

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     Jill Mansfield 
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    I have no idea how or why I started but after 30 Plus years My desire to Dress has not faded, in fact it has increased greatly.

    When I was younger I found it arousing, but as I have matured it has become an extension  of Who I am as a person.

    When I am Jill I feel complete and think and act Like a female. I cant imagine not having Jill in my life as she is as much a part of me as My male persona.

    So the reason I dress is very simple to Me. I love being a Beautiful Woman .

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       Bronwyn 
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      Jill, i can relate so much.  As a mature crossdresser i feel so much at ease with my fem persona. I just love that feeling of femininty.  Bronwyn

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     Zoe Kay 
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    I dress because I am bigender and need to express my gender identity when I am in girl mode.  It brings me a feeling of peace and balance – I feel like me!   Feeling pretty, doing my makeup and feeling the embrace of a nice dress and stockings on my body is just a bonus!

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    I love the feel and the freedom of women’s clothing. I am totally relaxed knowing this is who i am. Love this journey i am on. It makes me whole.
    Lindie xx

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     Wendy Ohara 
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    For me it started at a very early age when in a children’s home. I was punished for a minor misdemeanour, by being made to wear little girls panties, petticoat and dress. This carried on for a little while then stopped. The dress was left on the edge of my bed as a deterrent. I always knew when I was to wear the dress again when I got up in the morning and my boy pants were not left out and a pair of frilly knickers were in there place. It got to a point were this was every day even going to school. This became normal after awhile, even to a point I was deflated when made to wear boys clothes again. I have worn lingerie ever since. And just recently bought and wore my first dress. I feel like me again when dressed. Yes it’s erotic, however I feel more relaxed and comfortable when am wearing nice undies, stockings and a nice dress.

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    Women’s clothing is so much more fun.  It feels better on the skin and the styles are so interesting.  I admit there is a sexual thrill for me, especially as I have transitioned to bisexual over the years, but not as much as it used to be, it’s more and more about a growing interest in fashion, expressing my feminine side, and artistic expression than as a sexual fetish, though there’s nothing wrong with that either.

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       Rebecca Jones 
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      Jamie, I am with you on this one.  Women’s lingerie, panties, garter belts, stockings, bras, are so much more interesting than boxer shorts!  And I do find it erotic as I am dressing.  The material feels so good against my skin, and although I am not passable, I like the way they look on me.  Putting a dress on over the lingerie and stepping up into heels, just complete the transfer to a more comfortable place.  I am bisexual and I feel very desirable when dressed.

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    I was born this way…

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     Dame Veronica Graunwolf 
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    I always hated mens clothing….so boring, so consistant, so look-alike.  At gala affairs all the men look like a bunch of Emperor Penguins sitting on their eggs. The females……well there is something different everywhere you look. Yum Yum!

    Lady Veronica

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     Johnnie 
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    I cross dress to better identify with my feminine gender identity.I am passable and sometimes want to be a girly girl and really dress up sexy. But I like be comfortable in my clothes mostly wearing a pair slim fitting stretchy blue jeans and a tank top is what I mostly prefer to wear because I see myself mostly as a tomboy. I also dress to relieve my dysphoria

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     Zoe Peru 
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    • Hi.  Thanks for a wonderful post.  Like many others here, I don’t know why I crossdress.   However  it happened, I am so grateful I have the “gift”of crossdressing.   Zz
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     Carla Jones 
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    It started with me at a very young age. I always loved looking at my Mom dressed up and her clothes always were prettier than anything guys wore. I would dress up in her things when she was away from her bras, panties, stockings and dresses and it always felt right. She found a couple of her panties and a bra in my dresser one day and she asked me why they were in my drawer. I told her I liked them. She said they were hers and not mine. A few days later I found some panties and a bra in my size in my dresser. She never mentioned buying them but would wash them with my clothes and put them back.

    So I have always enjoyed women’s fashion and still do and always will. The reason is “I feel correct” when in my girly clothes.

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      You were So lucky to have an understanding mom. When I got caught it was bad. Supressed my desires for many years after that. She even told my girlfriend.

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    I have no idea why i crossdress, and have not known for 30 years.  I’m not a deep thinker.  Bronwyn

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    I’d been thinking about this, having only in the last week or so come to realize it’s something that I want to do.  While the initial fantasy (dream actually) was sexual, I have enough fetishes to know this felt…different when I woke up.  For instance, as a good catholic youth, I get a vague sense of shame for any deviance from “normal” sexual behaviors.  (I’ve spent a lot of my life getting it down to that ignorable shadow of guilt.)  I had none of it here.  I’m not saying it wasn’t sexual, it was highly so, but there was more to it.

    I’ve been thinking about it, and somewhere I emotionally get it, but it’s hard to put into words for me.  I’m not transgender, I don’t feel like I’m in the wrong body; I’ve been Brian for a long time, and it’s not a fraud.  A big part of me is a man.  But I’m coming to realize there’s more to me than that.

    The problem is that I come from (hopefully the last) generation where “toxic” masculinity wasn’t considered toxic.  It’s how you raised your boys to be strong providers and protectors.  The jovial slurs of my childhood were predominantly insinuations of femininity and thus weakness.  (Sissy, Nancy, Pansy, heck “you throw like a girl”.)

    The result of this is that you learn to repress any softer side of yourself.  Boys don’t cry, and when they do, they are embarrassed by it.  And it’s pervasive and insidious.  I know it’s toxic bullshit, but it’s ingrained patterns that permeate my entire life.  I’m no alpha male, as the term is currently described, but I do feel the duty to be the protector.  My perceptions of sex are largely mechanical/physical, it’s about physical sensation, and results.  (Is there anything more pathetic than counting how many times your partner climaxes like your keeping score?)

    I’ve been in and out of therapy since my teenage years coming down to neurological/brain chemistry and unidentified and unresolved issues.  One way this manifests is bipolar manic and depressive episodes.  We talked about me not repressing my emotions; but they and I thought it was about being stoic, holding in anger, frustration, etc.

    What I realized was as a woman, I am able to put aside that toxic crap.  I can be emotionally open in a way I find difficult in my real life.  I realize that I want things that I never even considered whether or not I want them.  I want to be pretty, and to make myself pretty.  I want to give up control, and to be vulnerable; to know I am protected instead of having to be protector.  I want to make love to my wife where it’s about the intimacy, love, exploration, and not about giving and getting climax.

    None of this strictly speaking requires crossdressing, but being Bree is what allows me to open up myself to it.  I guess in a perfect world recognizing the harmful parts of masculinity that negatively influences my masculine self would be enough to make me jettison them, but as of now that hasn’t happened.

    I mentioned my bipolar mania/depression.  It’s worth noting that since I discussed this with my wife, (both because honesty is important and because she helps me work out my mental ticks), I have been level.  I can’t remember the last time I went more than a day without a noticeable mood swing that I had to work to control.  I’m not saying that this solves everything; but I really feel like I’ve discovered something important about myself.

    I guess the TLDR is this: Crossdressing is how I give myself leave to exhibit all the feminine traits that I have denied myself throughout my life, which is helping my mental health.  And damnit, I want to look pretty.

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     Rebecca Jones 
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    For me it’s all about the feeling of womans clothes. They feel so much nicer than mens. I feel different. I’m relaxed. I’m comfortable.  And spending time shaving and getting dressed just feels right.

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    My main reason for crossdressing is that I have all this women’s clothing in my wardrobe and I’d hate it to go to waste.

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     Bobbi Scott 
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    Fairly simple for me. I consider myself trans gendered and cross dressing allows

    the feminine side of me to express herself. Makes me feel complete. This is who I am.

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     Kara Kelly 
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    I just enjoy it. It does give me relief from daily stress. Every night I wear sexy lingerie to bed. I’m more relaxed and sleep better. Also, it makes me feel more feminine and brings the women inside of me out.

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    I started very early – when I was about 6/7 years old but most kids at that age don’t really know the difference. I’d wear my sister’s panties over my PJ’s but later on when I was 12/13 I really wanted my parents to buy me a bunny girl outfit for Xmas (of course I didn’t tell them) or a skirt and especially female underwear. Frankly, it turned me on and I didn’t/don’t know why. I started borrowing my Mum and sister’s panties and trying on their bras and slips. Later on it was girlfriend’s underwear and dresses (normally too small, I’m slim but 6′ tall), I still can’t pass a washing line without checking out the underwear. Its a compulsion I guess, harmless. I’m in the closet both about my desire to dress as a woman and my bisexuality – I find other CD’s incredibly sexy no matter how unconvincing. Male genitalia in women’s panties for me is one of the sexiest things to behold. I’m 53 have a family and rarely cross dress but have a collection of panties and when I’m home alone will wear my wife’s dresses, I would love to wear heels but my feet are size 11 UK! I now have the confidence to buy lingerie in shops which I didn’t do for years, despite having a beard I’d love to try make up and maybe a wig despite being overtly masculine. Thank you for letting me share this, I have never done so before. Sarah x

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    I’ve never really understood why I enjoy wearing feminine clothes. I just do.

    I’ve never really understood why I look at some things differently than most men.  I just do.

    I’m tired of trying to understand.  I just know that I love my girl time even if it is just within the friendly confines of my home.

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     Olivia Faye Marie 
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    I’ve thought about it a lot. and I think that there are multiple reasons all bundled up together. first, my dad was not very attentive, and being a little child I thought it was me. I remember thinking that maybe he’d like me better if I were a girl. 13 came around, and sex entered the mix. but also, I  am fascinated by the idea of transformation.  that putting on clothes make-up and a wig can alter society’s perception of you. you can be someone else just by changing how you look. that is strange and wonderful and a bit mindblowing to me.

    Caelynn

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    I have always dreamed of being a woman and dressing as one helps to control the feeling and I love to shop for clothes at the store because I am proud of who i am

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    Somethings we just have to accept without fully understanding and for me being a girl is so important now. I am at peace and content in my female persona and prefer the company of being accepted as one of the girls. And must admit I do like the attraction and attention of other men that accept us for what we are.

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    My motives are kinda raw and sexual.  Wife died off, dating CD’s and loving it.  Then, a man asked me to be his sissy, and I said “yes,” and love it.  The world from the opposite point of view.  I love the feel of women’s clothes on  me.  I love being a sub; since I am really a quite macho guy. As we know, its exciting in many ways. Shopping for clothes is fun, figgering sizes is NOT!

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     Patricia Waldron 
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    I started to crossdress late in life, although I wanted to do so at earlier stages of my life, but I could not pluck up the courage. My desire to cross-dress started back further than I care to remember. When I was in my early twenties, I was employed at a catering equipment manufacturer and one of the secretaries, in particular, fired up my yearning to cross-dress. She used to wear most of the time a black or navy blue skirt and sheer tone or barely black tights. I so badly wanted to wear those kinds of clothes, but that was in the days before the internet became a household thing. Coming forwards several years, I am now the proud owner of a variety of skirts, tops and tights of a variety of deniers and colours. I also possess a shoulder length wig.

    I find that when I’m in the en-femme mode, it does so much to alleviate the daily stresses of life that we all have to face.

    My best friend knows that I cross-dress and he is really sympathetic and he holds the opinion that because I am an artist that my cross-dressing is an extension of my creativity.

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     Georgina 
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    I love the look and feel of women’s clothing. They’re much more sensuous than men’s clothing, and I feel much more erotic in them. And aesthetics aside, I feel as though I’m expressing an essential part of myself when en femme.

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    I really don’t have any choice. i’ve been dressing in women’s clothing since I was about 12 (and wanted to earlier.) I feel more like my true self when I’m dressed as a woman. What I see in the mirror is who I think I should be.

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    I love the feeling i get. i feel really hot and sexy.

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    It’s just who I am. I’ve stopped trying to work out why.

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  • #50709
     Daeyton Jayde 
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    I started crossdressing when I was in my early 20s. My GF at the time was Bi-Curious, and loved dressing me up and having my do ‘exciting things’ to/with her.
    The more she dressed me up, the farther I’d let her dress me up the next time, the better she made me look, the more I enjoyed it. It was passionate and fun – for about a year and a half, till other reasons broke us up.
    Later in life, I ended up single for a few years, and missed living with someone who was dressed up ‘Sexy’ in the house. I missed the smell of soft sexy perfume, the feel of lingerie & stockings, the long pretty hair to play with, and the click of heels on the floor every now and then. I still had the box full of dress-up stuff from my ex, so I took it upon myself to “fill in the blank” as it were, becoming the Gemini Female of myself, to satisfy my desire for having a ‘better half’ around.
    After doing some online research, buying some more things for myself, figuring out that I had a shoe fetish, and getting better at transforming myself, I found that the more I practiced, the better I got at it, and the better those sexy heels looked on me – in a well fitting, appropriate outfit.
    It just gave me a happy feeling walking past the mirror and seeing a pretty, well put together woman sharing my home with me. And took the pressure off of wanting to start a relationship with someone, just for the sake of being with someone.
    From there is snowballed, more makeup, more perfume, more wigs, more shoes, more shapers, more bras, more breast forms, more panties, more dresses, more stockings, more lingerie, more nails, more toenail polish, more shaving, more accessories… and Oh, the Patterned Tights! I bought workout clothes for yoga at home, leggings, skinny jeans, so I always had the right outfit for the mood, from Elegant Princess, to Cartoonish Prostitute, and most everything in between.
    From Not ever wanting to be seen en femme,… to dressing up and going out on the middle of the night,… to being comfortable with going out for a drive in the evening… to picking up my ex after work at the busy bus station as Daeyton in full makeup, matte red lipstick, a red shoulder length wig, black Alfred Sung mini-dress, black patterned tights, red platform open toe heels, black sparkly nails, and a 3/4 black trench coat, with a scarf, bug hoop earrings, and bracelets, a couple rings, and a black purse.- Boldly attracting Way Too Much attention when she hugged me outside the driver’s door.
    I’ve evolved so much since the beginning, and continue to evolve continuously.

    The next step is probably going to, or hosting a local En Femme night. We’ll see, maybe if I can lose those last few lbs this summer, I’ll feel more comfortable showing the rest of me off.   😉

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    I’ve been doing it since I was about 6 years old and I can’t understand why I do it. It feels naughty and sexy and maybe the ‘forbidden fruit’ aspect of it is an element of it? I love the soft, feminine fabric despite having a masculine body and a beard. I’ve tried to stop but always end up buying more lingerie from Amazon or even super markets. I love wearing swimsuits, skirts and anything fem. Sexually I am bi but regardless lingerie has to be involved. X

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       Stef Smith 
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      I think for some of us thete is something erotic and blending genders

  • #49421
     Martha Lou 
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    I had the desire in early life but never did until late in life like 57.

    However, I do it to relieve stress and to look and feel younger. I make a very attractive woman as well.

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  • #49184
     Dawn 
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    I don’t feel like I’m crossdressing, I feel that I’m a woman in the wrong body and should have been dressing this way all along. I think I have been crossdressing as a boy all of my life.

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  • #46173
     Jeri S 
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    I began this journey some 20 years ago wearing pantyhose because they feel sexy to me and made me feel sexy.  Then I began adding lingerie again because of how sexy it made me feel.  Along the way, out became less about sexy but more about comfort and look.  My only regret is the portrait that society paints of me.  I am not a freak, weirdo, or pervert.  I am a human being who likes to wear what I like to wear.  I am not out and don’t plan to be more for my family than me.  So Jeri dresses when she can in the privacy of her bedroom.

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    • #102014
       Stef Smith 
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      I feel you

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     Kendra 
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    I wish I had a better understanding of why I crossdress. I just know there is a drive in me that compels me to wear pantyhose and lipstick and that I feel content or even happy every time I give in to the compulsion

    i get excited when I walk into the drugstore knowing that I’m going to buy a pair of pantyhose and I get thrilled driving home knowing that the dress or eyeliner I ordered on line is at home waiting for me

    i have spent a lot of time and money reading about potential causes and explaining my feelings and experiences to a therapist- but more recently have decided to spend that money on lingerie, dresses and heels

    i guess I don’t know why I feel the desire- but I know that satisfying that desire is why I crossdress

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     Rose 
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    @jessica Hiver: If we changed “early 50s” in your post to “early 40s” you’ve pretty closely hit the nail right on the head for me.

    @natalie Roster: Welcome to CDH, and congrats on finding yourself. Happiness is beautiful, and I’m glad you found yours!

    A Rose by any other name...

    @}~}~~~

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    I like many of you started dressing early in life, being young, I had no idea why and flew it under the flag of just play, which was fine until I hit my teen years. As I grew through my teen years I continued to dress as often as possible, not telling anyone. The teen years past and as I grew I found that I didn’t share the same outlook towards women as my boy friends (platonic), the classic teenage knuckle dragger that wants to get in every girls knickers!, yes I wanted to get into knickers as well, but not like they did. I was happier to sit and talk with the girls. So the years passed, all the time the same feeling of being different to the other boys, not fully understanding why this compulsion to be accepted by girls as one of them. Again the years passed by, a marriage and some children later and the feelings still remain, I started to dig very deep into my  own self to understand this compulsion, which I might ad put great strain on my marriage as I would become quite reclusive in order to save family members from further torment a grumpy git is a better way of putting it, at this point I began to realise that I was different from the other men then and now Why?, because I am not like other men, I am Transgendered. So forwards to today, I only realised fully who I am recently and that is when Natalie fully Blossomed and showed herself to me in all her gorgeous girl glory. 💋💖. I am sitting here writing this wearing one of my favourite swishy skirts, lovely low cut topand all the things that make Natalie who she is, both inside and outwardly. So there it is a brief history of why I dress and how I got to this point in life. I have never been happier than when I can be me”Natalie”. I hope this tail brings happiness and comfort to all that read it.

    Stay strong girls, The love is out there, and inside. 💋💖💋

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    So true

    i ve started just dressing the way i want

    my style

    panties

    thigh highs

    heels are the final frontier

     

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  • #43502
     Michelle 
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    I love feeling feminine and the feeling of peace that goes with it.  I love the clothes, shoes and accessories that go with them. I love shopping for new items, both online and in the stores. I went shopping the other day at a number of places for things I wanted and bought panties, a bra, boots, nail polish and a bunch of other girl things. It was a fantastic day and I found it very enjoyable and relaxing.

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    I am unable to say why, really. Unlike many on CDH the interest arrived late in life, in my early 50’s. An opening to being intimate with other men developed a bit earlier as well. And while the two things intersect they are not the same for me. A sense of comfort, confidence when engaging in CD is something that I think speaks to my reasons. Still, it’s a mystery that occupies my mind and heart.

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    • #54551
       Johnnie 
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      For me Crossdressing is not about fetish or sex play. It’s about expressing my inner woman. Dressing up, doing makeup, adopting female mannerisms allows to be whole as a woman. I think that is the difference between a cross dresser who dresses up to fulfill a fetish or fantasy and a TG dresses to present her identity as a woman and be whole with her inter self. For a TG dressing all about gender identity and that’s my reason to dress up.

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  • #43001
     Andi 
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    I like being pretty, I like associating with experienced girls,but most of all I need to feel accepted. Being the opposite sex is fun and all on your own, but having people to do it with is bliss. It’s having fun and not being alone in it. It’s affirmation and bravery. It also opens up avenues for new experiences that you normally can’t pursue as a male, and that makes it exotic and adventurous.

    Plus when I’m told someone was actually checking me out, that just makes me beem with self-esteem.

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       JudyCDTV 
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      My sentiments exactly, playing dress up is so much fun and exotic and much fun than being in masculine mode,

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     Jessica St. John 
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    I do agree with many of the sentiments of the others.  I cannot give a reason for my dressing or my feminine side.  It has always been there, as far back as my memories take me I have had this part of me.  I gave up worrying about why many years ago and just embrace who I am.  The whole notion of labels, be it crossdresser or whatever I don’t really bother with either.  I don’t feel crossdresser to be pejorative, nor do I find it a positive term either.  I see merely as a descriptor.  As in I’m kind of short, I’m white, I have brown hair, I run, I crossdress, I have children.  They are are merely descriptors of various parts of me.  None of which I get hung up on.  Who knows maybe I’m the oddball, or maybe it’s one of the few advantages of age.

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      I am rather old, at 73, and have found labels not to be very useful.  Grown adults, including parents, have a lot of sides to them. Trying to identify another human in a simplistic way is neither useful or smart.

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