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We all hit plateaus in life, cross dressing is no exception! Wonderful article Jesse!

We all hit plateaus in life, cross dressing is no exception! Wonderful article Jesse!

Jesse know just how you feel Girl, been that way wit me for more than 47 years.
Off and on, get lots of girl things and then I cross dress for a few weeks and just
stop feeling Scared, embarrassed. And then I get rid of all my girls things. A
Few mouths go bye and I have the need to cross Dress and start all over. but last
year I got so Sick I almost Died, from that time on I have just wanted to bring out
more and more of Miss Jenny. I feel so much better as jenny and keep working
more and more each day to just get her right. Jesse take your time and jus be
your self that's all any of us can ask for. Hugs and Kisses Jesse MJ.

Jesse know just how you feel Girl, been that way wit me for more than 47 years.
Off and on, get lots of girl things and then I cross dress for a few weeks and just
stop feeling Scared, embarrassed. And then I get rid of all my girls things. A
Few mouths go bye and I have the need to cross Dress and start all over. but last
year I got so Sick I almost Died, from that time on I have just wanted to bring out
more and more of Miss Jenny. I feel so much better as jenny and keep working
more and more each day to just get her right. Jesse take your time and jus be
your self that's all any of us can ask for. Hugs and Kisses Jesse MJ.

Jesse there are opposite sin all things in life highs and lows, easy and tough and then rough and smooth. Whatever this is you can get through it hun.

Jesse there are opposite sin all things in life highs and lows, easy and tough and then rough and smooth. Whatever this is you can get through it hun.

JEsse,
I know how you feel-there were many times in my married life when I felt that way an even since then , the desires to dress and express Cynthia do ebb and flow-or perhaps more so in my case the STRENGTH of the desire waxes and wanes. At my age it never seems to go away and in general has increased to the point where I feel distress if I CAN'T dress everyday. I of course at this point am questioning whether the dressing is the end of m journey or merely a stop along the way to becoming fully female! I never use to think I would want t actually be female 00% of the te time an for the rest of my life but now the needle (which had previously been at ZERO on 0-100 scale of desire/need to transition where ZERO is NO desire and 100 is imperative transition) has risen to I'd guess about 35-45%. At this point before I can go further I HAVE To try getting out into the world as Cynthia and interacting to see if I Feel comfortable with being seen as a transwoman or woman. I have gotten lot of positive feed back so far but the proof is in the pudding so to speak! This year should tell me a lot as I am going to the SCC conference this fall where I will spend a great deal of time dressed around a lot of other people! I am both terrified and exhilarated at the thought of that! Keep it up JEsse-thee desires will likely wax strong again!

Cyn

JEsse,
I know how you feel-there were many times in my married life when I felt that way an even since then , the desires to dress and express Cynthia do ebb and flow-or perhaps more so in my case the STRENGTH of the desire waxes and wanes. At my age it never seems to go away and in general has increased to the point where I feel distress if I CAN'T dress everyday. I of course at this point am questioning whether the dressing is the end of m journey or merely a stop along the way to becoming fully female! I never use to think I would want t actually be female 00% of the te time an for the rest of my life but now the needle (which had previously been at ZERO on 0-100 scale of desire/need to transition where ZERO is NO desire and 100 is imperative transition) has risen to I'd guess about 35-45%. At this point before I can go further I HAVE To try getting out into the world as Cynthia and interacting to see if I Feel comfortable with being seen as a transwoman or woman. I have gotten lot of positive feed back so far but the proof is in the pudding so to speak! This year should tell me a lot as I am going to the SCC conference this fall where I will spend a great deal of time dressed around a lot of other people! I am both terrified and exhilarated at the thought of that! Keep it up JEsse-thee desires will likely wax strong again!

Cyn

Great article, has familiarity

Great article, has familiarity

good article Jesse and a lot of good comments. In my earlier years when I was still trying to be the male/father/husband i was supposed to be, I had very long periods of time when I did not dress. Although I tried my wife's clothes on, I was always afraid of losing the things important to me. Wife, friends, etc. In the end I lost them all anyway but there were long times when I did not feel the need to be dressed.

It is interesting to note that in times of increased stress, dressing was my safety valve as it were. Today I live as this woman and am happily balanced. My transition stops short of surgery but that is fine. I am all the woman I need to be and that is good.

You will have ups and downs throughout life. You are who you are regardless of how you present. When you realize that, the ups and downs won't seem so bad.

Good luck

good article Jesse and a lot of good comments. In my earlier years when I was still trying to be the male/father/husband i was supposed to be, I had very long periods of time when I did not dress. Although I tried my wife's clothes on, I was always afraid of losing the things important to me. Wife, friends, etc. In the end I lost them all anyway but there were long times when I did not feel the need to be dressed.

It is interesting to note that in times of increased stress, dressing was my safety valve as it were. Today I live as this woman and am happily balanced. My transition stops short of surgery but that is fine. I am all the woman I need to be and that is good.

You will have ups and downs throughout life. You are who you are regardless of how you present. When you realize that, the ups and downs won't seem so bad.

Good luck

Jesse, great article. Like others have said we all go through periods of time feeling like that.
I've had many times through the years that I just didn't feel like dressing.
But somehow just knowing the boxes of girl stuff were still in the closet made me
feel ok. I knew she could return when the mood hit me again.
That's why I would urge others to think twice about purging your femme items
when you hit one of these times that you just don't feel like it.
Hugs...

Jesse, great article. Like others have said we all go through periods of time feeling like that.
I've had many times through the years that I just didn't feel like dressing.
But somehow just knowing the boxes of girl stuff were still in the closet made me
feel ok. I knew she could return when the mood hit me again.
That's why I would urge others to think twice about purging your femme items
when you hit one of these times that you just don't feel like it.
Hugs...