Firstly, I would like to open by thanking each every one of you who read my debut article and left loving comments. This is a beautiful community and is made up of beautiful people.
For so long, I believed that transition was never something that I would be able to seriously consider. I’m so old. My nose is too big. I’m balding and so much more. But on reflection, maybe I can do something about that. I had this feeling that it might somehow help me to start to feel better about myself; something I desperately needed.
Before long I found that simple thought had grown into something bigger and had prompted action to get things moving forward. I made an appointment with a psychiatrist on Monday of that week, to allow me to share my thoughts with a professional. I wanted to make sure that I was of sound mind and stable in my thinking. I had also made another appointment on Thursday to get an assessment of my beard growth and follicle issue.
I know that this is likely to be an uphill struggle. I don’t have the resources of a famous lawyer, like some high profile people do. I can only work with what I have and need to make things count. I need to monitor the costs of the things I desire to follow my path.
All that taken into consideration, I have to believe that I have some hope. I need to believe that God loves me enough to help me become who he intended me to be, even though I have spent my life believing that I should have been female. I have started trying to raise money through a crowdfunding campaign to help pay for Facial Feminization Surgery and I hope it helps. Meanwhile, I know that there are many individuals who are disgusted with people like me, and they have a loud voice!
I know that having embarked upon this long journey, there will be many obstacles and challenges ahead. I understand that I may lose friends and my heart might be crushed many times. But if I can’t become who I was meant to be, how can I do what God has intended me to do? Surely there must be a light at the end of this tunnel?
If anyone has some insight that may help me on this journey I ask you with all my heart, please share your knowledge and experiences with me. I long for that elusive feminine figure and that girlish face. I miss having long, flowing hair. I want to wear a beautiful dress that makes me feel like a million dollars and one that may make a man blush too. I have a desire to claim the life that I truly believe I was meant to have, so much it makes me feel that I wish to claim my rightful soul back!
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