Shades of Mona is my own journey to the beautiful world of being happy and a “Crossdresser”
My story is not unusual from many other Crossdressers. I can relate to other CDs who are very happy being a crossdresser married to an understanding wife who have no plans to go full time. What may set me apart would be my keen interest in fashion and makeup. I am also a shopaholic when it comes to women’s clothing, shoes and accessories.
I started full female dressing when I was about 24. Prior to that it was only about random clothing, bra or panty or stockings and shoes that I would wear and then return back to being the boy I was known as. I was working full time and living alone in my one bedroom apartment when I first attempted a full female makeover. I spent a good amount of my paycheck to buy bras, panties, skirts, tops, pantyhose and sandals. I also bought basic makeup items like foundation and lipstick as well.
I can say that I looked myself in the mirror and I was so thrilled to see a new person in front of me who reflected someone I would love to be. This was the 90’s era when social networking was limited to some chat forums and digital cameras were yet to be invented. I did have a PC and I used to chat on Yahoo using my webcam. That was my first ever female exposure to outside world. A new person was born and it will hence be known as “Monika” or “Mona” for short…
Mona gradually grew from there to have long hair, more clothes to wear, better fitting shoes and lingerie and better makeup. With every new attempt I was encouraged to keep going. Then came the Internet explosion and YouTube and digital cameras and off course more money to support my passion. I would download and read loads of fashion articles, makeup tutorials, interacted with more TGs around the world to get better at being Mona. All these years Mona stayed restricted to one bedroom suite and the virtual world called the Internet. Mona would wake up from a long day sleeping every evening and go to bed wearing soft silky nighties and pajamas.
After 4 years, I fell in love with a beautiful woman and Mona took a back seat as I did not see how Mona would fit among us. There was simply no room for a 3rd person in our relationship. So Mona got sacrificed and all things belonging to Mona were securely disposed off wiping her out of the existence. Time went on and one thing that remained lingering was I wanted to see my wife wearing those beautiful clothes, lingerie and makeup and look how I liked Mona to look like. A sexy elegant beautiful woman who is full of feminist and style. It was very challenging and unfair to expect her to change to be Mona and then the big move came and we moved to US. US open free culture, shopping opportunities, frankness, self service culture allowed me to peek more freely at women’s things without being frowned upon or being questioned. I would pick up an article of clothing or two and ask my wife to wear it for me. But it never came close to the experience of being Mona.
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