Hi everyone! I wanted to share something that happened to me a couple of months ago. First, let me briefly give you some history.

I began thinking about crossdressing around the age of 13. I noticed that women had so many products made for them to look pretty, look sexy, smell good, and age with beauty and grace. Then I looked at what men had. There was not really much that I could think of to help men in these areas. Sure there was cologne and nice clothes but I didn’t like suits.  Most of the colognes I had tried, in my opinion, did not smell very good on me. Also, men were just supposed to age and do the best they could.

Due to society and being raised in the church, I put the thoughts of crossdressing out of my mind for several years, until I was about 23. I was at home alone and decided to dress in some of my wife’s clothes and put on some makeup. I didn’t look too bad for my first attempt. I thought to myself what a pretty girl I would have been.

Stepping Out Secrets

Fast forward to my current wife. She sends me mixed signals. She may bring home some clothes or makeup for me that she picked up while she was out and be, for all appearances, very supportive and accepting.  At last!  Then, not a week later, she tells me that I look like an old used up barfly trying to look young. This is very hurtful and discouraging.

So, on the occasions that I do get to go to the grocery store or run some public errands en femme, I have to muster up my self-confidence, hope that I look good enough, and appear natural enough.

It is such a huge confidence booster when a cashier or somebody will use “ma’am” when addressing me. I feel like I have achieved what I wanted to, and I feel good about myself.

However, until a couple of months ago, I had never experienced what I did that night or perhaps I just didn’t notice.

It was one of the nights that I was feeling confident (with me, that feeling of confidence has its own ebb and flow). I was wearing a black, somewhat see-through top with a black top underneath, a pair of blue skinny jeans, and 3 1/2 inch heels. I thought I looked like one of the women I see at the store and think, “She is a trophy wife”. We needed some items from the store, so out I went. As I was in the checkout line at the grocery store, a man who was in line behind me (he appeared to have had a rough life) started to chat with me. The small talk started to lengthen until he was asking how long I have lived here, etc. I soon realized he was flirting with me!! OMG!!! Talk about a confidence booster! I felt I was ready to conquer the world at that point and it felt great, weird, and awkward all at the same time! As I was going out to the car, I wondered what the other people around us were thinking. Did anybody “out” me to him (if any of them even knew)? I put my items in the car and as I was getting in, I saw him in the parking lot. He was looking at me and I flashed him a little smile and waved. He said for me to have a good night and we each went on with our night. I sat for a few seconds reflecting on the event that just took place. WOW!  I have no clue if he suspected I was a crossdresser, if he knew and liked crossdressers, or anything else. But, it actually felt good with being flirted.

So, that was my experience in realizing a guy at the store was flirting with me and my confidence was soaring!

I still fight the war at home. I am fearful that I may end up having to choose between Mirandah and my wife.  I don’t want to be put there.

Perhaps my path will cross this man’s path again someday. If so, I will let you know.

Thank you for allowing me to share this, and I hope it can encourage and inspire somebody.



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Mirandah Landrum

Hi! I am a married MtF CD. Started having an interest around 11 or so because women had so much stuff made exclusively for them to be beautiful and age beautifully and men had nothing for them. That was the beginning. I suppressed it due to various reasons. I have been closeted for many years, dressing but staying at home. Mainly out of fear of being confronted by a bigot or seeing an acquaintence “out there”. As of the last couple of months I have started to run errands late at night and early mornings. I am able to dress on Fri nights and stay dressed all Sat, unless something takes precedent. Still don’t look a lot of people in the eye but don’t hide either. Am called “Ma’am” or “Miss” everytime I am addressed directly.

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  1. Aahna Suri 1 year ago

    Its a great experience Mirandah. Recently, I went to a shop to buy some dresses and she tried to help me in the trial room. I was little hesitant but, she said….I am a girl like you….why to feel shy ? And I was on the top of town 🙂 She did help me to try various dresses. During trial, she inadvertently touched my body parts like thighs, back, chest, butts but, did not realise. I was so happy to leave from there as a girl.

  2. Janine 1 year ago

    I was out dressed en.femme wearing a cute little mini skirt. I didn’t wear panties because it was a hot day and I wanted to be as cool and comfortable as possible. I was wearing a prosthetic vagina under the skirt to hide my male parts and it makes me feel more feminine when I wear it.
    I was just window shopping and decided to go up to the second level and check out the stores up there.
    I got on the escalator and someone got on a couple of steps below me.
    When I got off the escalator I noticed that the person who had been behind me was a girl who looked to be around twenty.
    I walked past the stores looking in the various windows until I got to the last store.
    I turned around and went to where the railing is and looking down at the first floor stores.
    That’s when I heard a voice say
    I wouldn’t stand there if I were you.
    I looked to see if it was being directed to me and saw the girl who had been behind me on the escalator.
    I smiled at her and said
    Why’s that?
    She said
    Well if anyone looks up their going to see your not wearing panties
    I said
    How would you know that I’m not wearing panties?
    She said
    Because I was on the escalator behind you when you came up here and I could see that you weren’t
    I was embarrassed and said
    Why didn’t you say something to me when we got off the escalator?
    She said
    I thought that you knew that you were showing yourself to me
    Oh no I said. That wasn’t my intention at all
    Its just that it’s so dammed hot and I was not wearing panties so that I could feel cooler
    I really didn’t think that you’d be able to see that I’m not wearing panties I’m terribly sorry if I offended you.
    She said
    No harm no foul. I just thought that you’d like to know that anyone who looks up here can see your not wearing panties and that you’re exposing yourself
    I tugged my skirt down a bit then walked to Victoria’s Secret and bought a pair of panties and put them on
    I’ve been out panty less since then but not when I’m wearing a mini skirt
    That was a horrible lesson well learned.
    I was so naive to think that no.one would be able to tell that I wasn’t wearing panties under my mini skirt

  3. Marie Sweets 1 year ago

    I went shopping in male mode at a department store about 3 months ago for a few nighties. I sorted through the rack for my size and chose different colours. I got to the cashier desk, and placed them on the counter. As the salesgirl was folding a blue floral nightie, after scanning the price, she commented that the colour suited me. Wow, that was a boost to my self confidence. I was not expecting that. That has made me more positive and confident to go to any store and purchase women’s clothes. I think that women have that sixth sense.
    Note: I make sure that I know what lingerie items I want to purchase before going to the store. As NOT to draw attention to myself of security or sales-staff. Being positive will help you.

  4. Marie Sweets 9 months ago

    Hello Mirandah, On the weekend, I went to the same department store where I purchased my nighties some time ago, and bought 3 dresses of different styles. It is an oh so feminine feeling wearing bra with breast forms & panties and a dress with flats to complete Marie. Thank you for sharing your story.
    Hugs, Marie

  5. Katieluvsit1 Smith 5 months ago

    Good story lady. Sux your wife would say mean things. I remember the first time I told my ex wife about my femme desires. We were separated but were to reunite. Before we did I went the local adult boutique to get us some outfits and such. There was a couple in there browsing through all the sexy clothes as i was. As I was entralled, I didn’t know the woman had came up beside as I was looking at a blue silky teddy and imagining putting it on. All she said was, “you’d look good in that”. I felt so sexy even though I was in boy mode. She was attractive and I was stunned. I don’t think I even said anything back to her before she walked away. A few minutes later before they left I had to go up to her and say something, “thank you for the compliment” was what came out. She smiled and winked. After they left I was soaring and bought my first wig. To this day I wonder if I had struck up a conversation could she have been a girlfriend that would help me dress and be pretty and fashionable. Teach me make up. I will always cherish that memory

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