… when you look down at your freshly painted toes and feel that rush. OMG!
I’m new, quite new in fact, but the desires have spanned decades. Like so many on here whose own stories are very compelling. They come from hard backgrounds, tough times and a locked closet of ten bolts, locks and rivets so that no one can pry that door open. Not all of our paths to this point are the same, but a lot of us have emerged from similar backgrounds.
So when there’s that moment when we can look down at our toes or feel the fabric grace upon our skin we can rejoice, even if just for a few minutes. Because ultimately, hopefully, some day we can let our inner girl out from the shell we’ve had within us.
No matter what way we choose to create that opening of exploration and feeling, it’s with hope that we all, all of us, can some day experience that at a time that best suits us. Not everyone wants 24/7 but a lot do. Not everyone has the same buttons to press and that’s okay too. The great thing about a place like CDH is that we all get it. We may not be the same, or have the same desires and wants, but we get it at the most basic level. The incredible love and support here is beyond words: the best experience I could’ve asked for.
The road may be very hard and difficult. The opportunities may be limited or seemingly non-existent but I will always know that I have a home here of girls that understand and get it. That’s a huge blessing when there are days I wake wondering exactly how I got here and where do I go now that I am here. These steps are tough but they’re good solid steps. However, as I take those steps I see my painted toes and I know this is where I was meant to be.
Welcome Blue Belle
Painted toes, I call it happy feet.
I love having happy feet, who doesn’t 🙂
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@Samantha " aka" Legs Thank you! I love the term “happy feet" because it absolutely is!! *big hugs!*
I miss Cdheaven can I rejoin the site I miss the sweet ladies
Aw – look forward to seeing you back when you can rejoin!
Very nice Blue Belle-I like the painted toes, the whiff of perfume and the frisson of the silky material against freshly shaved legs!
Thank you @skippy1965 Cynthia!! Very delicious indeed!!
I discovered the joy of painted toes a few months back. While helping my wife with hers she joked and said I should do mine and now I do all the time. I even wander around home barefoot where visitors see them. I joke about them but really for me there is an inner joy in doing something so feminine and pretty and getting away with it. Id never show anyone I work with though – hell I’m not nuts – but for now I can be Sarah all the time even in a little bit. Oh and the felling… Read more »
@Sarah Smith I completely agree about the inner joy of doing something some femme and able to just be myself! It was an amazing feeling! I can’t wait to have hair free legs to feel that silky material just draped over them … OMG!!! 🙂
Yes, Sarah, silkie material flowing around freshly shaved legs covered in nylon with painted toe nails is a real rush!! I have been to several nail salons in our small Arkansas town and getting a professional mani/pedi is far better than doing it yourself. I usually get a light pink color on my nails. I also wear pantyhose or thigh-hi’s every day, even under shorts when I am out in the town. I have not had a negative comment although guys avoid me like I have a bad desease. women tend to just smile or even wink. my advice is… Read more »
Like all the posts here i too love my red painted toenails. But being a closet cd i wear covered shoes when going public. When i paint my toenails red i, like the other ladies here feel at my most feminine. My nails on my hands are long and beautiful but for obvious reasons they are just covered with a clear polish, which look lovely and i don’t mind if others notice that. Bronwyn
@Brownwyn I completely agree! Red – for some reason really makes me feel even more feminine than I anticipated. I just done my fingernails and the last couple of days were wonderful! (I didn’t have to go out and explain why I had red fingernails but when I did – it was an awesome acceptance of feeling for me internally that I could do this.)
i love my red toe nails and finger nails also. my daughter says i wear hooker red but i like red. and she loves me regardless of who i am . love and kisses DDC
@Delbra Dawn cordry I love red too! And being bold doesn’t mean we wear the stereotypes either. If someone wants to cast their stereotype at our pretty red nails – well, we can’t do anything about that for them. I’m still going to wear it – even if it makes a statement onto others. Hugs n loves!
I love the article, it is so true, many paths we all have taken but seems that we all share quit a few of the same desires and wants. No Needs! Some do what they do for fun some to let the real person out I think. Others like myself do it and not sure why. But I know I enjoy the feeling of being dressed even if it’s just in doors and in private. As far as paint ed toes go so love blue and red, the few times I did paint them I was spellbound and couldn’t look… Read more »
@Jenny J – isn’t is amazing how something as simply as painted toenails can send us into orbit?! That’s why I wrote what I did because I still sit back and marvel at what I had done! Regardless of where you dress – it’s reaching your inner you – which is an amazing thing to do!!
Well, improvement in the world of cross dressing is a very erotic theme. I’m sure that some paint ones toenails, but not their fingernails. I shave my legs. I enjoy the smooth feel of hair free silky smooth legs. I can’t pass for a female as I’m too tall. I am a narcissistic person who is kind of closeted.
@Kim Newton I would have to agree with you. That’s the amazing part is that we’re all just a little different so while some can glam up entirely (leaving the rest of us in envy) some can just do toes or legs. I’m looking forward to enjoying my own hair free silky smooth legs in the near future! You’ve given me something to look forward to!
When I paint my toe nails I can’t describe the feeling anymore than total femininity! Nothing makes me feel more like a woman than seeing my shiny nails. I love red and pink! One day I’d !I’ve to show the world.
@georgettemarie Exactly!! I do hope that I can muster the courage to show the world too – but for now, I’m happy with just admiring my own nails whenever however I can 🙂
When I went to the SCC CD/TG conference last September,I got a mani pedi-deep red polish on hands and toes. The toes I left on til it started to chip three plus weeks later. The fingernails stayed red all week of the conference and the I kep it on for the two day drive home even though I was in male mode. They just looked too Pretty to take it off til I HAD to for work after I got home . Not sure who did or didn’t notice besides me but I didn’t care and no one said anything… Read more »
I love my happy feet. Keep my toenails painted especially in the summer and feels so girlie. Finger nails are also in clear polish but use all kinds of colors when out from summer plum to flaming red. Everyone notices beautiful nails now
@Debbie Wilcox I’m really looking forward to keeping my happy feet happy from this point forward. I have some clear polish that I’m looking forward to trying. The feet are bouncing happy!! 🙂