“The world seems a bigger place when you wear a skirt….”
“That’s one small step for man, one giant leap for mankind” quoted Neil Armstrong when stepping foot onto the moon.
Although not anywhere near the scientific or cultural impact, for me stepping out as Samantha at night was something of a big deal.
In this article, I want to share my experience with everyone and maybe inspire someone else to make that step.
Before I get into details, a little bit about myself. I have been crossdressing for over 30 years; however, Samantha has come into her own as well as expanded her wardrobe during the last 3 years.
I do not want to go beyond the alter ego and have no plans to transition. Just like the pioneers of space, I want to keeping pushing the boundaries of my own limitations and have these wonderful and ordinary experiences as Samantha.
Whenever I hear the phrase “girls’ night out” at work, Samantha has always seen an opportunity to be a part of the fun but never followed through on it, until two weeks ago that is. Let me explain….
When a colleague was announcing she was leaving and having drinks at a local pub, I decided to chicken out no more. This would be the moment Samantha would come out of the training simulations. Before I describe the events of the night, a bit of background…
I work for a very accepting and understanding company. This means I can be in the office, working, dressed as Samantha. It’s not every day but every now and then. To be honest, I love the opportunity to put on something smart & professional then get on with the day.
This particular day at work, I was dressed as Samantha, as per picture above. As soon as 5:30 came around, following a little touch up to my makeup, a quick spray of Britney and a tug of the tights, it was time to make that giant leap out the door and into the pub on a Friday night, of all nights, Yikes!!
When I say giant leap, it was more of a pub across the road, although for me and my overthinking brain, it may as well have been on the moon.
Determined, with a deep breath and handbag over the shoulder, it was out the office and into the pub. Walking in, the pub wasn’t that busy plus the girls were already there, so I pulled up a chair and sat down.
Task number 1, order a drink. If nothing else tonight, I was determined to do this. Walking confidently up to the bar I ordered a gin & tonic which seemed appropriate. That went well, score one success for the Samantha!
Sitting down, cross legged, as one of the girls and just chatting even for a few hours was so much fun, there was not an issue at all. I did make eye contact with a woman across a table, however this was just fleeting and she, like the rest of the ever-increasing number of patrons got back to starting their weekends.
As the pub got busier, I did start to retreat into myself a little and noticed myself clutching my handbag ever tighter on my lap, self-defense mechanism perhaps? Thankfully there was no bother from anyone all night. Come 9pm, it was sadly time to leave and bid farewell to my fellow girls. Stepping back out into the cold air felt like the end of a brief yet great experience, almost akin to landing on the moon, I suppose.
Perhaps the world doesn’t feel bigger when you wear a skirt after all.
I am not sure when Samantha will step out again but with freshly painted nails, touched up makeup and a with a firm grasp on the handbag, I will be ready and for another adventure.
Does this positive experience I’ve had in my recent past inspire some of you CDH girls to make that giant leap of taking your femme self out in public for the first time?
What is your specific issue which may be keeping you individually from making your giant leap out in public as your femme self?
Would you feel more comfortable going out in public as a lady your very first time in a girl group setting such as the one described above in my article? Or would prefer flying solo on your first time out as the femme version of yourself?
Thank you so very much for taking the time to read my article.
Please feel free to answer any one or more of the questions I’ve posed to you above! I look forward to reading your replies!
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