I was 13 when I first started fully dressing up. I was also 13 when I first thought of ordering my own clothes, that would be mine and only mine. Unfortunately, I was only 13, so I had no job or money to order clothes with. Nor did I have a credit card to order these clothes on, and I wasn’t going to ask my parents (I wasn’t out to them yet). So, my dream of ordering clothes stayed that-a dream.
I had just turned 18 when I got a credit card. My first thought was “I can order anything I want!” Then, I realized that I really could.
I ran over a few roadblocks when I actually started to order, however. I was horribly mistaken with the size of women’s clothing, so I had to spend time learning what shoe size I was, dress size, how big this had to be, how long that had to be, etc.
I do remember the excitement of seeing the first thing I ordered- a box with my name on it, just sitting out the door when I came home from my job at the time. I brought it into my room and opened the box up, and there it was- a black shirt I could honestly say was mine.
It became a bit more of problem when more boxes came and I had to hide it from my family. Sneaking into my room with a box looks fairly suspicious and especially when someone found the boxes first. I had come home to find a box on my table with my name on it. I panicked and thought “Did anyone open it? Who brought it inside? Do they know?”
I eventually ordered enough things where the delivery man knew our house, and every time I answered the door it was the same thing, “Oh I guess my mom ordered some clothes, thank you,” then closed the door and rush to my room in excitement.
I kept one of the boxes that the clothes kept in for my makeup, which also started coming in. I ordered from various websites and made sure to always order things that weren’t too expensive, and after that big rush of clothes and ordering, I laid low for a bit and enjoyed my clothes.
I haven’t ordered that much since then, but my most recent order was some black leggings about a month ago. I found them on a website and instantly knew I needed to get them. They came in and wow! They were great.
The biggest lesson I learned from shopping online is to watch your spending. If I ever bought something from a store, I would probably use paper money just to make the money seem more “real.” After my first big buy, I needed to work for a while to earn that money back. It’s just one of the things I need to remind myself, before I get carried away buying too many shoes.Tags: crossdressing clothes for first time first crossdressing experience shopping for yourself