I’m sorry you’re going through the issue with your wife. It is a delicate and fine line; everyone is different in where they’re at in accepting something like our dressing feminine. My marriage didn’t work out, but that’s very okay because I am much happier being able to be my true self than in an unhappy marriage. Financially, it is always a consideration to many as well; divorce can cost us more than just money, and it isn’t worth it to many. Again I was lucky.

Purging sucks because you can’t keep much of what you want without having to hide it etc. The fine line appears as each relationship is different. Do you slowly press the dressing issue a little at a time until, hopefully, like most things these days she becomes accepting, or will it cause devastation not only in the marriage but for you because it’s not what you really want.

I think that for me it worked out well, and I have no regrets. I was able to do a little here and there while married and raising kids. I bought her things I’d like to wear (minus shoes/boots because we were 4 sizes off, lol. I didn’t go out at that time, so it didn’t matter. By the time the kids were out on their own, I was already divorced and on my own. With each paycheck, I bought myself 2 or 3 outfits and 2-3 makeup items. In months I had started to gather a great collection of clothing. The thrill of shopping for intimates, dresses, skirt outfits, shoes, boots, and coats is a huge adrenaline rush, and being out on the prowl shopping are highs I never had in marriage.

Don’t get me wrong; there are days I just want to relax in guy mode, but the days I can dress are the most relaxing days I have. I feel the blood pressure and anxiety of everyday life subside! I am my most healthy when I can dress and get out. I am NOT saying to follow what I’ve done, just that everyone is different and sometimes it takes time, or that other things are more important in one’s life than the urge to be feminine and live that life.

Do I have regrets about not doing this more in my younger years when I was actually skinnier and more passable (I have to work for it now!), yes, absolutely. I am at a point in life where I have reflected and know I made the right choices during that time of raising kids and having a family.  The purging and buying the ex-wife things I could wear, dresses, skirt outfits, and lingerie when I found alone time got me by. That’s the time I could practice my femininity/makeup and all of it helped along the way. Also, today the internet and social media help (whether for good or bad) because it wasn’t like it is today when I started and was well into my journey because I went from having nobody to having a slew of people and articles at my fingertips. Now, you can take away a few things (because there are bad advice tips out there and some really great ones) that apply to your life. In the thousands of articles you read, hopefully, you can find your path and comfort zone, even though all your decisions won’t be right, you will learn from them, and it helps make you who you are.

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    Angela Booth
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    1 month ago

    That’s a very thoughtful article Jessica and snapshot of a life being a crossdresser.

    Robyn Scott
    Duchess
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    1 month ago

    That’s a very well spoken, rational understanding of your self-acceptance of being transgendered. I too juggled my gender needs with having children, maintaining a marriage and career. Truly threading a needle until now, later in life coming to full acceptance and living my true self. Best to you in the future!
    Robyn

    Traci Green
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    Member
    1 month ago

    Jessica, I appreciate the article. As I have mentioned before I did tell my wife of 21 years on January 1st this year. It was with the encouragement of people here that I was able to come out of the closet and tell her. I felt relieved. She was somewhat accepting but also processing. The following days came with many questions and one blow up, venting. We are working through it and both seeing counselors. I love my wife. I am close to retirement and want to spend the rest of my life with my wife. I also enjoy dressing.… Read more »

    Rebecca Leeann Allen
    Baroness
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    1 month ago

    Jessica
    Thanks this was a very good article, I feel like I am not to far behind you. I have a lot of decisions to make in the coming months, my wife has said she will have nothing to do with my dressing, I am think and feeling this may be more than just dressing sometimes I am leaning towards full-time. But at my age can I really do that.
    Thanks
    Rebecca

    Andrea Smith
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    1 month ago

    Such a great article and I am appreciative that you took the time to craft an important message and covered a very important theme — while there are similarities with each of us, there are so many individual outcomes that fit one person but may not fit another. Those of us who are married may have come to understand what our relationship to gender is at different times — which is and has been the case in my circumstance. Being in a relationship with ones-self is the first hurdle and when one is uncertain of who he/she is at the… Read more »

    Susan Zahn
    Susan Zahn
    26 days ago

    TY Jessica good read and thoughts. Im fortunately to have had 2 accepting wives. I know were all a bit diff in our corner of LGBQT+ and all, but its wonderful it seems a lot of us Gals get to a place which really works well for us.

    Jennifer Friendly
    Lady
    Active Member
    24 days ago

    Hi Jessica, Great article, it’s so wonderful hearing about the heartfelt journeys of others like us. As you say, every one is different, we all have different circumstances and obstacles that we have to deal with, but also, we also all have such similarities. When it boils down to it though, we all have to weigh our options and make our own choices. But I love the way you wrapped it up: “, even though all your decisions won’t be right, you will learn from them, and it helps make you who you are." Indeed, we are who we are… Read more »

    Colleen Mack
    Lady
    Active Member
    23 days ago

    What a well written article. I could most definitely relate to every thing you said

    Thanks for sharing your experience because we always feel we are so totally alone in our experience

    Carla Roberts
    Lady
    Member
    22 days ago

    Thank you for sharing and caring enough to write to help others along their journey. My first marriage ended after many years of being accepted and encouraged. It was not because of my cross dressing, wanting to live life in different places and people. It was at the time a great disappointment, but ultimately a great gift, one which has allowed me to move from occasional dressing to fully embracing my feminine personna with an accepting female partner.
    Sometimes accepting was appears to be the worst, provide an Avenue we had seen before.
    Carla

    Marilyn Lacey
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    16 days ago

    are there any crossdressers near shelton?

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