Weβve all heard the term βthe pink fog,β but what does that mean? Hereβs my thoughtsβ¦ The pink fog isβ¦ The blissful state of mind that comes over you when youβve finally accepted that you are and always will be a crossdresser. That wonderful feeling of anticipation,...
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During a conversation the other evening with a close friend, who knows about my life choice here in France, she asked a question. I felt I should try to explain. It relates to something that has surfaced over the past five years and causes concern. I wish to share my observations...
Four years ago, I joined my first online transgender/crossdressing community, Crossdresser Heaven. Like so many others, taking that first step of joining an online space was fraught with indecision, fear, and anxiety. I asked myself: will I find others that I can really talk with...
To quote Mark Twain: βThe two most important days of your life are the day you were born, and the day you find out why.βΒ We celebrate our birthdays with a dying intensity as the years pass by until the candles required to add up the years are costing more money than the cak...
If you are like me, a lifetime crossdresser and transgender male to female, you have asked yourself this question MANY times. Who am I really? Am I happier as a guy or as a girl? If the answer to the question is βa girlβ, βwhen did this start?βΒ For me that happened in m...
If there is an angel who hands out blessings to crossdressers, then I received many in my lifetime. But, it seemed to me that every blessing also came with a curse. I was one of the lucky girls who had a mother who would play dress up with me as a child. The curse that came with ...
Hey, buddy! Yeah, itβs about time you let me talk. You always talk about me in the third person, like Iβm not you or something. We are the same person; ya dig? In fact, maybe I am you, but I guess weβre still figuring out how thatβs going to go. When are you going to admi...
Hereβs the Thingβ¦ I donβt come with an on/off switch. How convenient would that be? To be able to shut off my feelings and close down my brain when I need to be me. Rightβ¦ which me are we discussing again? That is always going to be the issue. I was standing next to one o...
What is a vanished twin? And why might it be important to understanding why you crossdress? βAre you, your female self, a vanished twin?β Many in our community needlessly suffer confusion, shame, guilt, and more for simply trying to live authentically within boundaries, expec...
The complex and unpredictable pattern of life had drawn me away from this site to follow my path and life journey as it unfolds before me. In ways that sometimes feel to have been predefined, or happening for a reason that I am yet to discover. An ever-changing, evolving process ...
Enlightenment for the newbies It concerns me to see girls moving towards altering their physical appearance in a way that pacifies a desire or maybe a fantasy, and sometimes without sufficient research into procedures, impact, and effects. I see this often on so many sites, inclu...
Why Being a Crossdresser is Really a Blessing, Not a Curse

Many of us, or perhaps even most of us, here on CDH have been crossdressers for most of our lives. And many of us have probably struggled throughout our lives with feelings of shame, guilt, anger, confusion, denial, and more. That’s because we are “CROSSDRESSERS!̶...
Lost in Transition

Hello, My name is Susan Scott and I am writing this not only to tell my story, but also to get feedback from those that have similar experiences. I apologize for any grammatical errors as I do not have access to any correction program prior to printing my story and my writing ski...
When I first considered surgically altering my body to become a female, I am pretty sure it was originally done on the whimsical notion that it was simply done like any other surgical procedure, and I could pick up where I detoured off and go on with life afterwards, as I dreamt ...
Merriam Webster’s definition: to be excited or emotionally stirred up with anger. Yepβ¦ that explains it. Β I never know when a thought will hit me that is worth pursuing for an article. I love the challenge of finding parallels in thoughts and assumptions. βSeeing Redβ...
The past, not any past, but your past. Was there someone who knew about you, and totally disapproved. Told you negative things about you or even things that were not very nice. The things such as you need counseling, or even left you because you are the way you are. Maybe even go...
There is so much feeling put into the preparation of becoming the woman we envision. The excitement that builds as a certain time gets closer. It can be the worldβs greatest distraction. The hands of the clock moving at a speed slower than snails on a glue trapβ¦ Many have the...
GIRLS, YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH! From a child we are taught that girls play with dolls and boys play cowboys and Indians, or race cars and other manly things. Girls can wear makeup and boys shouldn’t. Society points us in the direction that it thinks we should go. That’s o...
This past November, I began my CD journey. Iβve worn undergarments and lingerie on and off for years in secret but realized I didnβt want to suppress my femme identity any longer. I started buying clothes and dressing in secret as much as I could. Never fully dressed because ...
Hi Girls, I haven’t been a member here for that long. While cruising the CDH site and reading various posts, Iβm have noticed what appears to be a common theme among a lot of the βmatureβ girls. This theme is that many mature crossdressers, like myself, have an increa...
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