When I set out to write this article, I first started off with my earliest recollections of crossdressing, but it soon developed into a long story about my crossdressing life. As this was my first article, I asked my dear friend Andrea to take a look. She came back with many suggestions on how I could make my good article into a great one. So rather than share my not very interesting CD life story I’ve decided to focus on one little part; the story of how joining Crossdresser Heaven last year not only changed who I am, but gave Stephanie life.

I’ve been dressing on and off for over 40 years; I’m 56, but instead of the urges to dress diminishing, they’ve actually increased over the last few years. What else has changed is in how I dress. I use to be satisfied by grabbing a couple of hours, but now when I dress, I need a whole day. Last March, following such a day, which had gone quite well, I did a bit of surfing and came across the Crossdresser Heaven website. I read many of the fascinating articles and looked at some of the lovely pictures. It got me thinking that I could join some day. Over the next few months, CDH became my favourite site. I devoured the stories and dipped my toes into many of the forums. What I quickly realised was that this site was indeed a heaven; I could sense the warmth and kindness permeating throughout the site. There were so many girls seeking advice and even more offering their support, solutions, and encouragement. I knew instinctively that CDH was going to be my new home, a place where I could safely escape to, and a place where I could be my other self.

But who was I? In all these years of dressing, I hadn’t thought of myself as anything other than a guy who enjoyed dressing as a woman now and then, but since finding CDH, I knew deep down that this wasn’t the case. There was something else, someone else inside of me who wanted desperately to be set free. I decided to join CDH; I went to the registration page and hit my first challenge! I needed to provide a name and email address; I didn’t have either! It took me three days to decide on my femme name. I thought it would be simple, but soon realised that the name needed to fit my feminine personality. It had to match who I was both on the outside and inside. I decided on Stephanie; just saying the name sent goosebumps all over me. That’s how I knew it was defiantly the right choice. Now that I had my name, I quickly set up Stephanie’s new email account, and within minutes, I was a registered member with CDH. What I hadn’t bargained for was the sudden realisation that something akin to an internal earthquake had just happened. My feminine self had taken on a true identity; she was real, she was living and breathing, she had a personality, she had a name, and she was me! She is Stephanie.

I can’t stress enough that joining Crossdresser Heaven has changed my (our) lives; it has literally given me a new lease of life. I really can’t put into words the huge impact joining CDH has had on us. Up to this point, no one else has any idea that I crossdress and identify as Stephanie. I’m able to chat to other girls, share my thoughts and dreams, my worries or concerns, I can talk about everything and anything, and I can have a laugh or even cry.

THANK YOU Crossdresser Heaven for helping bring Stephanie out and into this world and also for helping me realise who I truly am. The first steps for Stephanie have been fantastic. I’m looking forward to taking further, bigger steps.

A big thank you to all my new friends, especially Andrea for all her kind help and support.

Love and hugs,

Stephanie xx

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31/01/2022 update
 I’ve been crossdressing on and off most of my life but in 2018 finally came to my senses and accepted that there is a very special part of me that could no longer be restrained, that year Stephanie was born, gained an identity and joined CDH. Since then I have grown as a person and blossomed as a woman. In 2020 I finally came out to my wife, at the time it was very stressful but she has accepted that Stephanie is a real part of me. Both of my children (25 & 22) also know about Stephanie and took the news very well. Unfortunately COVID cost me my job so I now class myself as early retired but the up side of this is that I now have more opportunities to be Stephanie. During COVID I managed to lose over 45lbs in weight which has really made a difference to my (and Stephanie’s) health and well-being though over the last few months I’ve put a few pounds back on so have now joined a gym to rectify that ASAP. In 2021 I took my first ever steps out into the world with a walk in a park (please read my article) and I’m planning on more adventures this year gently expanding my horizon’s and building my confidence. 4th Feb 2022 update…. Went out shopping as Stephanie for the fist time and it was glorious……. 13th March update…… Today my wife and children met Stephanie in person for the very first time. Everything went brilliantly and they had nothing but love and praise for Stephanie. It has truly been a monumental day : ) April update…… I have now told my Mum and Dad all about Stephanie and they took the news well, if anything they were more curious than shocked. I’ve also told an ex work colleague and close friend, he was surprised but is also very supportive. He has said he would like to met Stephanie some day! May 1st. Today I told my two brothers about Stephanie! and all went well and both have offered love and support. Also today my wife told her mum about Stephanie. I’m pleased to announce that All went very well . 27th May. Today I met up with my long term CDH friend Andrea who I have know since joining here 4 years ago. There were so many firsts achieved this weekend such as the first time I have met another CD’r as Stephanie, the first time I’ve been on an overnight stay as Stephanie, the first time I’ve sat in a bar and had drinks as Stephanie, the first time I’ve eaten in a restaurant as Stephanie, the first time I’ve had photos taken with another CD’r, the first time someone else has taken a photo of Stephanie. Thank you Andrea for a lovely weekend. I love all styles and fashions but the more feminine the better, my preference’s are dresses but I’m starting to love skirts as much and I love both midi or mini lengths. I’m told by some of my girlfriends here that I have a fabulous eye for fashion and style which is very flattering. I’m always happy to chat but prefer messages as I’m rubbish at the chat rooms due to my dyslexia lol. Please feel free to PM me a msg anytime. Love you All, take care and wishing you a very happy 2022 
Stephanie xx

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Noble Member
5 years ago

Hi Stephanie, it’s Scarlett! I loved your article and it hit home with me. Before coming on board with CDH over a year ago, I was a member of the worst cross dressing site on line which will remain nameless. The girls and mods on that horrific site were extremely jealous girls who were mean, rude, and inconsiderate. In direct contrast, Crossdresser Heaven founded my Vanessa Law is a first class site full of encouragement, support, and compliments. I can’t get Scarlett out in pubic very much because of the high profile position my wife has in our county and… Read more »

Noble Member
5 years ago

Thanks Stephanie and so happy you feel so comfortable and welcomed on the best on line CD site! I felt the very same way after joining well over a year ago! I love this site and the girls seem to get a big kick out of my photos and comments in the chat room. In regards to my smile, it’s a reflection of how I genuinely feel when I get my total girl on as Scarlett. Some girls say that my smile is their favorite curve on me! I’m exhausted and we will talk later. Just keep posting Stephanie photos!… Read more »

Samantha Joan
Active Member
4 years ago

Beautiful story, thank you for sharing.

Samantha x x

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