When I set out to write this article, I first started off with my earliest recollections of crossdressing, but it soon developed into a long story about my crossdressing life. As this was my first article, I asked my dear friend Andrea to take a look. She came back with many suggestions on how I could make my good article into a great one. So rather than share my not very interesting CD life story I’ve decided to focus on one little part; the story of how joining Crossdresser Heaven last year not only changed who I am, but gave Stephanie life.

I’ve been dressing on and off for over 40 years; I’m 56, but instead of the urges to dress diminishing, they’ve actually increased over the last few years. What else has changed is in how I dress. I use to be satisfied by grabbing a couple of hours, but now when I dress, I need a whole day. Last March, following such a day, which had gone quite well, I did a bit of surfing and came across the Crossdresser Heaven website. I read many of the fascinating articles and looked at some of the lovely pictures. It got me thinking that I could join some day. Over the next few months, CDH became my favourite site. I devoured the stories and dipped my toes into many of the forums. What I quickly realised was that this site was indeed a heaven; I could sense the warmth and kindness permeating throughout the site. There were so many girls seeking advice and even more offering their support, solutions, and encouragement. I knew instinctively that CDH was going to be my new home, a place where I could safely escape to, and a place where I could be my other self.

But who was I? In all these years of dressing, I hadn’t thought of myself as anything other than a guy who enjoyed dressing as a woman now and then, but since finding CDH, I knew deep down that this wasn’t the case. There was something else, someone else inside of me who wanted desperately to be set free. I decided to join CDH; I went to the registration page and hit my first challenge! I needed to provide a name and email address; I didn’t have either! It took me three days to decide on my femme name. I thought it would be simple, but soon realised that the name needed to fit my feminine personality. It had to match who I was both on the outside and inside. I decided on Stephanie; just saying the name sent goosebumps all over me. That’s how I knew it was defiantly the right choice. Now that I had my name, I quickly set up Stephanie’s new email account, and within minutes, I was a registered member with CDH. What I hadn’t bargained for was the sudden realisation that something akin to an internal earthquake had just happened. My feminine self had taken on a true identity; she was real, she was living and breathing, she had a personality, she had a name, and she was me! She is Stephanie.

I can’t stress enough that joining Crossdresser Heaven has changed my (our) lives; it has literally given me a new lease of life. I really can’t put into words the huge impact joining CDH has had on us. Up to this point, no one else has any idea that I crossdress and identify as Stephanie. I’m able to chat to other girls, share my thoughts and dreams, my worries or concerns, I can talk about everything and anything, and I can have a laugh or even cry.

THANK YOU Crossdresser Heaven for helping bring Stephanie out and into this world and also for helping me realise who I truly am. The first steps for Stephanie have been fantastic. I’m looking forward to taking further, bigger steps.

A big thank you to all my new friends, especially Andrea for all her kind help and support.

Love and hugs,

Stephanie xx

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  1. Scarlett398 4 months ago

    Hi Stephanie, it’s Scarlett!

    I loved your article and it hit home with me.

    Before coming on board with CDH over a year ago, I was a member of the worst cross dressing site on line which will remain nameless. The girls and mods on that horrific site were extremely jealous girls who were mean, rude, and inconsiderate.
    In direct contrast, Crossdresser Heaven founded my Vanessa Law is a first class site full of encouragement, support, and compliments.

    I can’t get Scarlett out in pubic very much because of the high profile position my wife has in our county and I can’t go out in public when she’s in town. So my public outings are limited to four nights each year when she’s away on business. My way of getting Scarlett out is by my photo postings each week or so.

    The girls seem to love my photos and come to me for advice, knowledge, and tips on how to take their cross dressing skills to their highest levels possible. I, as a former teacher, enjoy sharing knowledge and teaching the girls how to improve their skills through private messages and by helping them in the chat room as well.

    Thanks again for your article and it’s obvious we both love the best cross dressing site on line which is CDH!

    XOXOXO Scarlett

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      Stephanie Aston 3 months ago

      Hi Scarlett
      Sorry it’s taken me so long to respond to your comments!

      Firstly thank you so much for taking the time to read my article, joining CDH has been such a revelation and a real coming of age for Stephanie, in fact as a real person Stephanie didn’t even exist until she joined.
      I do love CDH, it is a lovely place to be with so many girls offering help and advice or just shooting the breeze, one thing that did surprise me was how comfortable I felt when I first uploaded a couple of public photos, this was the first time (in 30+ years) that anyone had seen Stephanie, what also made it so special were the lovely comments I received which I really wasn’t expecting.

      Talking of photos, I do love all yours you look so lovley and natural but what I love most about you is your fantastic smile.

      I do hope we can catch up again soon

      Love Stephanie xx

      • Scarlett398 3 months ago

        Thanks Stephanie and so happy you feel so comfortable and welcomed on the best on line CD site!

        I felt the very same way after joining well over a year ago! I love this site and the girls seem to get a big kick out of my photos and comments in the chat room.

        In regards to my smile, it’s a reflection of how I genuinely feel when I get my total girl on as Scarlett. Some girls say that my smile is their favorite curve on me!

        I’m exhausted and we will talk later. Just keep posting Stephanie photos! The girls here love looking at pictures of us girls!

        XOXOXO Scarlett

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