Thank You Crossdresser Heaven

When I set out to write this article, I first started off with my earliest recollections of crossdressing, but it soon developed into a long story about my crossdressing life. As this was my first article, I asked my dear friend Andrea to take a look. She came back with many suggestions on how I could make my good article into a great one. So rather than share my not very interesting CD life story I’ve decided to focus on one little part; the story of how joining Crossdresser Heaven last year not only changed who I am, but gave Stephanie life.

I’ve been dressing on and off for over 40 years; I’m 56, but instead of the urges to dress diminishing, they’ve actually increased over the last few years. What else has changed is in how I dress. I use to be satisfied by grabbing a couple of hours, but now when I dress, I need a whole day. Last March, following such a day, which had gone quite well, I did a bit of surfing and came across the Crossdresser Heaven website. I read many of the fascinating articles and looked at some of the lovely pictures. It got me thinking that I could join some day. Over the next few months, CDH became my favourite site. I devoured the stories and dipped my toes into many of the forums. What I quickly realised was that this site was indeed a heaven; I could sense the warmth and kindness permeating throughout the site. There were so many girls seeking advice and even more offering their support, solutions, and encouragement. I knew instinctively that CDH was going to be my new home, a place where I could safely escape to, and a place where I could be my other self.

But who was I? In all these years of dressing, I hadn’t thought of myself as anything other than a guy who enjoyed dressing as a woman now and then, but since finding CDH, I knew deep down that this wasn’t the case. There was something else, someone else inside of me who wanted desperately to be set free. I decided to join CDH; I went to the registration page and hit my first challenge! I needed to provide a name and email address; I didn’t have either! It took me three days to decide on my femme name. I thought it would be simple, but soon realised that the name needed to fit my feminine personality. It had to match who I was both on the outside and inside. I decided on Stephanie; just saying the name sent goosebumps all over me. That’s how I knew it was defiantly the right choice. Now that I had my name, I quickly set up Stephanie’s new email account, and within minutes, I was a registered member with CDH. What I hadn’t bargained for was the sudden realisation that something akin to an internal earthquake had just happened. My feminine self had taken on a true identity; she was real, she was living and breathing, she had a personality, she had a name, and she was me! She is Stephanie.

I can’t stress enough that joining Crossdresser Heaven has changed my (our) lives; it has literally given me a new lease of life. I really can’t put into words the huge impact joining CDH has had on us. Up to this point, no one else has any idea that I crossdress and identify as Stephanie. I’m able to chat to other girls, share my thoughts and dreams, my worries or concerns, I can talk about everything and anything, and I can have a laugh or even cry.

THANK YOU Crossdresser Heaven for helping bring Stephanie out and into this world and also for helping me realise who I truly am. The first steps for Stephanie have been fantastic. I’m looking forward to taking further, bigger steps.

A big thank you to all my new friends, especially Andrea for all her kind help and support.

Love and hugs,

Stephanie xx

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Stephanie Aston

i had a really rough year in 2018 loosing 3 very close relatives including my younger sister, CDH has been a shining light for me through the bad times espeshialy Andrea who has always been there for me, Thank you Andrea x . This new year I’m promising my self a new start and hope to take Stephanie to a brave new world outside the closet. Love Stephanie x

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Emily Mills
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Thank you Stephanie for that article. I too found CDH whilst surfing the web. Despite having a supportive girlfriend there are still things I feel I need to find out for myself, looking at it from a MTF prospective, and the forums here have been a massive help, whether it is through questions I post or previous posts from other ladies. Emily is still growing and will continue to grow with the help and support here and at home.

Carleigh Fields
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Thank you for your article Stephanie!. I hope that being addressed by Stephanie still creates those wonderful tingles inside for you. I really love that feature about this site when you register to join, in asking you your femme name. It is a powerful device that, in someone like ourselves It takes that woman we enjoyed falling into our dressing, and gives her a reality.. the most important part.. a name. Thanks so much for sharing with us Stephanie. This site really is a slice of heaven for many of us!

Lucinda Hawkns
Lady
Member

hello and welcome to this wonderful site C.D.H. yes in deed its a great place to join and chat with others like our self’s. thank you for the great story on your journey to cross dressing and to C.D.H. i have been x dressing for many years, started with a pair of tights for a school play and was hooked, but my x dressing went away for awhile then came back stronger. now at age 56 i have my own collection of dresses,nylons,make up,perfume, ear rings,wigs, heels and all that. wife found out years ago but will not see me… Read more »

Rikki Edwards
Duchess
Member

Nice article Stephanie. Like you, my desire to dress is no longer satisfied with a short and furtive few minutes in a pair of stockings and heels…I have to wear something every day, and its progressed to panties and either stockings or tights, and painted toes pretty much full time, and shaved legs half the year. I joined looking for kinship and support. Hopefully we will all get what we need!

*skippy1965(Cynthia)
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Active Member

Stephanie- I had a very similar experience back in August 2015 when I joined the (then much smaller ) Crossdresser Heaven site.( I was member 131 lol). I too devoured the forums as we didn’t even HAVE chat yet-that came two months later. I have written over two dozen articles and over a hundred forum topics-including several similar “thank yous” to my sisters here for all they’ve done to help me go from a shy soul quivering in my bedroom to someone who has flown cross country in full Cyn mode. I hope at least some of what I wrote… Read more »

Lea
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Member

Nice article Stephanie. 3.5 years ago, I decided to start a crossdressing blog as a way to express myself and also introspect. I was faced with the same dilemma you had, I needed a femme name and an email address. It took me 3 days to come up with a name that I felt described me. Then, when I joined CDH, I needed a girly avatar that sort of represented me, that took 2 days. Now all that feels so natural, like that’s who’ve I’ve been all these years.

Lea

Steff Aston
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Steff Aston

Hi Lea
Thank you for reading my article, it just goes to show its not a simple thing when it comes to identifying who you really are, taking time is so important.
Take Care
Love Stephanie x

Toni
Duchess

Thank you for sharing your experience in cdh I have also come along way with the help of all the people here in cdh.

Steff Aston
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Steff Aston

Hi Toni
Thank you for taking the time to read my article. I glad CDH has also helped you on your journey.
Kindest regards
Stephanie x

Cloé (CC)
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What a wonderful story of a real life changed for the better. Finding the strength with encouragement from friends is like having your wings unfurled with a gentle breeze to proclaim your femme name. I found deep friendships through chat. I really needed that live connection and sisterhood that sometimes eludes written words. I’ve know for many years it was more than dressing for me. Finding CDH helped me to explore without pressure to make decisions that may not have been right for me. In fact the moderators helped keep me focused on just being me and not what someone… Read more »

Stephanie Aston
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Stephanie Aston

Hi Cloe Thank you for your lovely comments, what you say is so true and I know what you mean when you say it eludes written words, when I plucked up the courage to write my article it started off a life story but over the days it took me to write it I really started to sense there was a different story emerging between the line I was penning! I soon realized that what I wanted to talk about was how life changing joining CDH had been to me, it really is like being born again. I love CDH… Read more »

Ashley Parker
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“But who was I? In all these years of dressing, I hadn’t thought of myself as anything other than a guy who enjoyed dressing as a woman now and then, but since finding CDH, I knew deep down that this wasn’t the case. There was something else, someone else inside of me who wanted desperately to be set free.” This is what I’ve been feeling too. Exactly this. It’s thrilling but scary too. For so many years I just thought I was “kinky,” that I had this weird fetish for women’s underwear. But then, looking back, so many things made… Read more »

Stephanie
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Stephanie

Hi Ashley
Thank you for taking the time to read my article. I agree with you 100% it’s so scary but SO exhilarating when you finally realize that Ashley is a real part of you and giving her a name really is the beginning of a new life what ever you make of it.
I also hate being put back in the closet but I try to make the most of the time I have as Stephanie, life is to short for regrets. Love life for the now and enjoy every minute you can.
Kindest regards
Love Stephanie xx

Leah Princess
Lady

I enjoyed your story. Like you I have a stronger and stronger desire to be Femme. This is a great site for emotional support. XOX Leah

Stephanie
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Stephanie

Hi Leah
Thank you for taking the time to read my article.
love Stephanie xx

Mona
Duchess
Active Member

Thank you for this great article Stephanie. I am so very sorry to hear about your horrible 2018, but you’ve landed in a great place, full of love and support. I wish you all the very best in 2019.

Big hugs of love and friendship, Mona

Stephanie
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Stephanie

Hi Mona
thank you for your kind words and hugs, 2018 was not good but I’m determined to make 2019 a fab year especially for Stephanie : )
when you say “Landed” I must admit me feet haven’t touched the ground since joining CDH.
Thank you for reading my article and for your wishes for 2019.
love Stephanie xx

Elaine
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Elaine

What a lovely article, it was like you were talking about me. Thank you …

Love and hugs
Elaine

Stephanie
Guest
Stephanie

Hi Elaine
Many thanks for finding the time to read my article and for your comments.
Kindest Regards
Stephanie xx

April (Pacific Princess)
Ambassador
Member

Wow – does that sound similar to my own experience! April had no name until less than 3 years ago when she finally came to life. At the age of 58 no less. And my crossdressing over the years has also progressed to where putting on a few articles of clothing for an hour or two is really not enough. I need a whole day as April (at minimum). I am so glad you found our site Stephanie. I know for me when I happened upon this site less than three years ago I was also looking for some love… Read more »

Stephanie
Guest
Stephanie

Hi April
Thank you for your lovely comments and of course for reading my article.
Since joining CDH Stephanie has become so much more of a real person, although she hasn’t managed to get Out yet she is steadily building the confidence to do so. CDH has been a real revelation in my life and I’m overwhelmed with the love and support that I find here.
Love Stephanie xx

Miranda Lebel
Lady
Member

Stephanie,
I went through a similar self acknowledgment when choosing my name. Thank you for providing a perfect description of that special moment when you let yourself become who you are!

Stephanie
Guest
Stephanie

Hi Miranda
I’m so pleased you found my article interesting and could relate to the importance of truly discovering your real identity.
Kindest & Hugs
Stephanie xx

Lisa watson
Duchess

Thank-you Stephanie
Lisa
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Stephanie
Guest
Stephanie

Hi Lisa
Just a quickie to say thanks for finding the time to read my article
Kindest
Stephanie xx

PY Marshall
Duchess

Hi Stephanie,loved the article and i hope this is the start of a very special journey. Py. x

Melissa Penning
Duchess
Member

Hi Stephanie. Your story is my story. I have been a member of CDH for only a little over 2 and a half months, but I am a changed person. Indeed, Melissa is a real person with her own personality, and I love being Melissa and talking and being open with my lady friends here. Who would have thought 3 months ago that I would be openly sharing pictures and messages to this community. Who would have thought that I would have been brave enough to come out as Melissa to the quirky lady at SteinMart that is now my… Read more »

Danielle Lace
Lady

Thanks for sharing 🙂 Looooovvvvvveeeeeee the navy blue lace dress btw. 🙂 😮 I have been meaning to buy something very similar for a while now.

Christine V
Lady

I love your blue dress, where did you get it?

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