A view from the other side

It’s been a long time since I’ve been back to this blog, and I apologize for that dear reader. In a way, I suppose, my writing over the last few years brought me to the point of acceptance. It helped me to explore a part of myself I thought was my deepest dark but ended up being my truest self. And once I embraced my truest self I discovered a joyous life – a life outside of the struggle to find myself. A life filled with friends and adventure, lovers and passion, growth and discovery.

It’s been three years since I went full time, and two years since my surgery. I could not have wished for a more blessed entry into the fullness of womanhood.

It’s difficult for me to imagine sometimes, that I once looked from the other side of this chasm. The struggles I went through, the fear and heartache just to be. Just to be – really a basic thing that every person is entitled to, yet used to seem so elusive.

I pray dear reader that you are able to find your own peace in your journey. A place where your life path and your heart intertwine in a joyous symphony of your being. Where your song echos through the universe for all who choose to to hear.

It’s late at night, and I’m pondering many things. I don’t know if I’ll be back, or when I’ll be back should I decide such. It… brings mixed emotions to look back on my journey. To remind myself of how far I’ve come.

I’m filled with gratitude for the past, yet I’m filled with longing to continue my journey into the future free from it.

To all of you reading this. I love you. You were my strength when my spirit flagged, and my beacon when I had lost my way. I only wish that my words, my journey will continue to light the way for others to come.

Blessed journey.

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I’m passionate about creating a safe space for everyone in the transgender community to find laughter and friendship on their journey. I completed my physical transition in 2011 and through it I lost everything, and gained everything. I am blessed that I was forced to gaze inward and embark on the journey to discover and live my authentic self. My deepest wish is that all who wander here may find peace, happiness and freedom.
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Samantha (fem name)
Samantha (fem name)
11 years ago

I wish you nothing but the best!

sally
sally
11 years ago

sally I can’t wear men’s clothes it hard to put them on but I have to wear them now & then your’s sally

sheila
sheila
11 years ago

You Give Us Hope I Wish You The Best And Only HopE To Read More From You But If Not May Your Journey Be Care Free.
LoVe sheila

Anwar
Anwar
11 years ago

Dear Vanessa,

You are will always be in our prayers. God bless

Susan Veronica Miller
Susan Veronica Miller
11 years ago
Reply to  Vanessa Law

I wish you all the best dear and I have a question; Do you know of natural ways or pills to grow naturally female breats>

Karen Sierra
Karen Sierra
11 years ago

GOD bless you vanessa, Avery inspiring story for me as I’m deeply involved in my personal search as well. I’m a survivor of a large brain tumor, luckily the tumor was benign but it took two major surgeries to get as much of the tumor outas possible and I almost tied 3 times as a result. I suffered a mild stroke after the first surgery and I got bacterial meningitis after the second main surgery, then the docs dis 4 additional surgeries to repair a patch in my skull behind my nose. After all that i began to wonder if… Read more »

aliciamasters2013
aliciamasters2013
11 years ago

Vanessa, you have come such a long way. I am so very happy for you for sticking to it, even through all the toug and heart-wrenching things you went through.

Tammy
Tammy
11 years ago

Hello. Vanessa hunnie,
I am so pleased you have found your TRUESELF & you are much happier now. I feel like I have been on that journey with you, I have. Smiled with you & cryed with you its not been easy
for you hunnie. Now you have got where you want to be my heart SING for you.
Bless you, & hugs.

Tammy

joann
joann
11 years ago

I just like to dress in ladies undies I am not into sex with men is a site for me

Katy Kern
Katy Kern
3 years ago

Howdy,
Vanessa, your the primary teacher and
Professor for us, you always touch my heart with hope and certainties in your
writings love ya kisses
Katyk

skippy1965 Cynthia
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Trusted Member
1 month ago

Vanessa , you wrote this long long ago-two years before I joined after you repurposed the site(so I don’t know if you are “subscribed” to your old articles or not and may or may not see this comment or not). But I’m re-reading some of your old posts and it only reminds me how much you have meant to the community by keeping this amazing site going to provide the support you sadly did not receive enough of during your own journey. I shudder to think what my last ten years of life would’ve been in if I hadn’t come… Read more »

skippy1965 Cynthia
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1 month ago

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