Feeling Like You don’t Fit in?

I figure a Q & A bio would a good idea. So without any farther delay. Here we go. 1) Are you a panty-only cross-dresser, or do you wear more than that, like bra and nylons, etc? I wear panties (Full-time), nylons(nylons are from time to time & not an everyday thing), leggings, really love skirts, nightgowns, camisoles, jeans and a few other things. I'm not a fan of most female tops. The tops are not manly enough for me. And I hate the bra. I wouldn't be caught dead in one. They are a torture device that S.O.B had to be invented by a man. Trust me, I tried wearing a bra a few times. I just don't like them. 2) Do you feel you have to sneak doing this behind your wife, girlfriends, or parents back because she/they are unaccepting of it ...or is she/they OK with it, and you don't have to hide it? When I was with my first girlfriend, I never hid it. It was her idea for me to crossdress. (I'll explain more on below) Now after her, I went into denial and hid the fact I wore. I went from being comfortable to having a fear. This was my binge and dump stage. Now let's jump ahead a decade plus add a few years. This is the time I developed "I don't care what others think of me " stage. Today i never hide the fact I wear women's clothes. As a matter of a fact it was a girl that got me interested in crossdressing. Yes that is very true. 3) Do you feel like you are a girl living in a boys body or do you feel like a guy that gets turned on by wearing girls lingerie or more? Nope, I'm a straight with bi-sexual tendencies man 110% all the time. I love my big beard and hairy chest. I am man hear me roar. 4) At what age where you when you first discovered your gender identity realization and/or your cross-dressing desires? When I was 9 and that was a little wearing here and there., but that faded out by middle school. Then when I was 18 and I meet my first girlfriend. To make a long story short. She would not have sex with me unless I wore, and I was a virgin and wanted sex, so I wore it. It was her fetish that became mine and that fetish invokes a lifestyle change over the years. (For more information on this. Just ask me for more information on this. 5) Did you see something in porn, or in real life, that first made you curious about trying cross-dressing? ...what was it? I did it for a girl, so I can have sex See above question 6) Are you "passable" (meaning you look like a girl when you are dressed like one and all made up), or not so much? Am I passable? Hell no. I would make a butch lesbian look more feminine than me. 7) Do you use just female clothing only or do you also wear a wig and breast forms? Just clothes. I'm a man and happy looking like a man. Just call me the modern Maxwell Q. Klinger. That guy from the television show M.A.S.H. (You younger folks, look up the television show and you'll get the reference) 8) Is the dressing up part as far as you go, or are you also doing breast hormone treatments, or more? Clothes only. I just really like the designs of women's clothing. So I wear what I like. 9) Do you cross dress everyday or only on occasion? Every freaking day. I am a true gender bender. I love to blend masculine with feminine 10) OTHER - Add, and answer, something that I may have missed What I would love to see is masculine dresses and gowns for men. Like take a 3-piece suit with a tie and combine an evening gown to it. That way I could have women's high heels or mens dress shoes. Depending on my mood. Some dresses are way too freaking girly for me Oh, one more thing before I go. I just love my nails painted, and I have a nickname. Some call me the Crossdressing Farmer. Yep, that's right I'm a farmer on top of it.