I’m going to share with you my story about my day at a TJ Maxx store. Just keep in mind I’m no writer and I’m just a man telling his story.
On August 31, 2023, I blew 10 bucks at a TJ Maxx store. I was there looking for a birthday gift for my granddaughter-in-law. I walked over to where they had dresses. You know, just to look at the clearance selection. I saw this dress that just screamed ” Buy Me Now” and it was only ten bucks.
So, I went to the fitting room, and it fit perfectly. I’m sitting there in front of the mirror doing the swaying and spinning around thing you do when you wear a dress. Here I am, just falling in love with this simple dress. I don’t believe that I have ever wanted a dress this bad before, and I was going through I had to have it kinda thing.
So, I took it up front and paid for it. But this time, I did something I had never done before. I asked them if I could go back to the fitting room and put the dress on and wear it out of the store.
I bet they all wanted to take a picture as this big hairy, bearded man walked out of the store wearing a satin casual dress, carrying his purse and shopping bag.
I finally felt real freedom. I had done something I wanted to do, like forever. Get this, I had no fear whatsoever. I just did it like I was meant to wear it. Talk about how cool is that! To not have any fear whatsoever, and I did it without the help of any alcoholic beverage. Like my first time in public as a CD in the 1980s. (Talk about how times have changed)
And I did this without having to be girly or anything. I was the real masculine, androgynous, crossdressing me. I was myself, the real me. I can’t even put my joy into words about how this really made me feel.
I spent the rest of my day in that dress. I went to three cities doing my running around and doing my errands. People all day asked me if I’d lost a bet or dare. Some even wanted their picture taken with me. It made me feel a little famous. I loved all this positive attention I was getting.
I haven’t felt this happy and free in a long time. It proved today that you don’t need to look female to enjoy wearing a dress and be outdoors in public view.
I’m so freaking stoked that I finally made it to this point in my life. I just had to come to Crossdresser Heaven and scream out this accomplishment of mine.
Hippie
P.S.
Venus (My Wife) loves the dress too and she has threatened to steal it from me.
I figure a Q & A bio would a good idea. So without any farther delay. Here we go.
1) Are you a panty-only cross-dresser, or do you wear more than that, like bra and nylons, etc?
I wear panties (Full-time), nylons(nylons are from time to time & not an everyday thing), leggings, really love skirts, nightgowns, camisoles, jeans and a few other things.
I'm not a fan of most female tops. The tops are not manly enough for me. And I hate the bra. I wouldn't be caught dead in one. They are a torture device that S.O.B had to be invented by a man. Trust me, I tried wearing a bra a few times. I just don't like them.
2) Do you feel you have to sneak doing this behind your wife, girlfriends, or parents back because she/they are unaccepting of it ...or is she/they OK with it, and you don't have to hide it?
When I was with my first girlfriend, I never hid it. It was her idea for me to crossdress. (I'll explain more on below)
Now after her, I went into denial and hid the fact I wore. I went from being comfortable to having a fear. This was my binge and dump stage.
Now let's jump ahead a decade plus add a few years. This is the time I developed "I don't care what others think of me " stage.
Today i never hide the fact I wear women's clothes. As a matter of a fact it was a girl that got me interested in crossdressing. Yes that is very true.
3) Do you feel like you are a girl living in a boys body or do you feel like a guy that gets turned on by wearing girls lingerie or more?
Nope, I'm a straight with bi-sexual tendencies man 110% all the time. I love my big beard and hairy chest. I am man hear me roar.
4) At what age where you when you first discovered your gender identity realization and/or your cross-dressing desires?
When I was 9 and that was a little wearing here and there., but that faded out by middle school. Then when I was 18 and I meet my first girlfriend. To make a long story short. She would not have sex with me unless I wore, and I was a virgin and wanted sex, so I wore it. It was her fetish that became mine and that fetish invokes a lifestyle change over the years. (For more information on this. Just ask me for more information on this.
5) Did you see something in porn, or in real life, that first made you curious about trying cross-dressing? ...what was it?
I did it for a girl, so I can have sex See above question
6) Are you "passable" (meaning you look like a girl when you are dressed like one and all made up), or not so much?
Am I passable? Hell no. I would make a butch lesbian look more feminine than me.
7) Do you use just female clothing only or do you also wear a wig and breast forms?
Just clothes. I'm a man and happy looking like a man. Just call me the modern Maxwell Q. Klinger. That guy from the television show M.A.S.H. (You younger folks, look up the television show and you'll get the reference)
8) Is the dressing up part as far as you go, or are you also doing breast hormone treatments, or more?
Clothes only. I just really like the designs of women's clothing. So I wear what I like.
9) Do you cross dress everyday or only on occasion?
Every freaking day. I am a true gender bender. I love to blend masculine with feminine
10) OTHER - Add, and answer, something that I may have missed
What I would love to see is masculine dresses and gowns for men. Like take a 3-piece suit with a tie and combine an evening gown to it. That way I could have women's high heels or mens dress shoes. Depending on my mood.
Some dresses are way too freaking girly for me
Oh, one more thing before I go. I just love my nails painted, and I have a nickname. Some call me the Crossdressing Farmer. Yep, that's right I'm a farmer on top of it.
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And your wife! Thanks for including her in the story. Many of us who are married face that public rejection that you have (feared) for so long right in our own homes from the person that loves us the most. To me, I see two successes in your story. Thank you for sharing.
I love this story Hippie. You’re clearly right out there on the don’t-give-a-stuff-about what-anyone-thinks scale. I love that you didn’t try to hide your masculine self. See dress. Will wear. Why not?!
I do think there’s an aestnetic juxtaposition between physical masculinity and the design of modern feminine clothes. But heck. It’s your life! Well done you!
Awesome story Hippie! Two huge wins, enjoying yourself out there without any fear, and your wife liking your dress so much that she wants to wear it too. How great to be so accepted!
Well, that was weird. Hippie shows up and I got two notifications of two new replies. I looked for replies dated in December.
Nope. It’s as if the two posts just materialised now. 😁
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And your wife! Thanks for including her in the story. Many of us who are married face that public rejection that you have (feared) for so long right in our own homes from the person that loves us the most. To me, I see two successes in your story. Thank you for sharing.
Thank you. Having a wife like Venus does help a lot
That’s fabulous! Awesome to that your wife loves the dress! Such a simple thing isn’t it, but oh so rewarding, just being yourself.
Amy
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I love this story Hippie. You’re clearly right out there on the don’t-give-a-stuff-about what-anyone-thinks scale. I love that you didn’t try to hide your masculine self. See dress. Will wear. Why not?!
I do think there’s an aestnetic juxtaposition between physical masculinity and the design of modern feminine clothes. But heck. It’s your life! Well done you!
It also helps that I’m the hyper and obnoxious type person. Even pushing 60 years old I still push my body and mind to the limits.
I try not slow down. I’m always on the go
Awesome story Hippie! Two huge wins, enjoying yourself out there without any fear, and your wife liking your dress so much that she wants to wear it too. How great to be so accepted!
I guess you can say I’m one of the lucky ones
Well, that was weird. Hippie shows up and I got two notifications of two new replies. I looked for replies dated in December.
Nope. It’s as if the two posts just materialised now. 😁