Definition of vicarious

1experienced or realized through imaginative or sympathetic participation in the experience of another a vicarious thrill (Merriam-Webster)

My intention here is to start a group of wiki-lists of favorite places to enjoy vicarious fulfillment from others’ experiences. This article is both an introduction to the series; and Part 1: Favorite Crossdressing Youtubers.

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Before we start, a bit of “why” background. After Halloween 2019, I purged for the last time. (My profile includes a picture of that swan song outing.)

I have nothing but respect for crossdressers who carry on through their doddering years. Good for them. But… that wasn’t for me. Decades ago, not dressing, but passing was my goal, my joy.  What I loved was BEING a woman in the world … occasionally. In the last couple of years, I have come to accept that that just wasn’t possible anymore—so I purged.  Luckily, I have a friend who could use most of the shapewear, wigs, clothes, shoes, and all.

But the loss of such an important part of me has been made easier by something. Mostly, it is the internet. What I have learned is that I can get a lot of vicarious satisfaction from the lives of others.

For one, Crossdresser Heaven is a grand place. I spend many happy hours reading about our CDH sisters’ adventures, writing articles to share with them, surveying their pictures, pondering the ideas penned in their own articles and posts, learning from reading their profiles, and more.

But there are other places besides CDH where I find vicarious fulfillment.

Offhand, I can think of a half dozen categories of such places.  Here’s an advance look at some of the Parts to come:

Part 1: Favorite Crossdressing Youtubers

Part 2: Favorite Transitioning Youtubers

Part 3: Favorite Transgender Autobiographies Available on Amazon

Part 4: Favorite Transgender Novels Available on Amazon

Part 5: Favorite Transgender Bloggers

Part 6: Favorite Short Story Fiction Sites (and Favorite authors on those sites)

For each of these Parts, I will share a few of my favorites; and then ask everyone to add to the list of favorites in the comments section following.  Also, please feel free to add another category, a Part 6, 7, 8, etc.

Okay, to start here are my favorites of Part 1.

Part 1: Favorite Crossdressing Youtubers

#1 Starrynowhere.  “Emma” has been posting videos of her walks around different towns and cities in the northern UK for nearly a dozen years.  Often, she claims that she is or will soon be done with this practice.  But, like most of us she can’t resist for long and is soon back on YouTube with more videos.  IMO, she just keeps getting better. Generally, she dresses beautifully in tasteful everyday clothes. Every once in a while, she gets adventuresome, as in a “schoolgirl” look; but even then, she is never campy, only cute. I suggest to everyone to pay special attention to her walk, her purse hand, and especially her free hand when she walks: she’s got it all going and, IMO, is worth emulating.  Almost all her videos are enjoyable to watch, but I especially like these few:

(; Three Summer Styles

(; Emma’s Summer Walk

(; Out and About

#2 Heidiphox100.  Heidi (and her bffs, Lisa and Donna) have been all over the place for nearly ten years: Washington DC and Las Vegas; shopping malls; beaches (in bathing suits); line dancing in crowded country western bars; fancy restaurants with their wives (that’s right: four women all dressed up!) She’s one of the few YouTubers who will often show her viewers herself getting dressed, transforming in front of our eyes from a balding businessman into a stunning woman. Also, many cd YouTubers don’t speak. But not Heidi. She talks to us all the time, telling us about her adventures, her life, her beliefs, etc. Again, almost all her videos are fascinating, but I especially like these few:

(; Crossdressing at a Busy Mall

( ); Elegant Dinner with Our Wives

(; and Crossdressed at the Beach

Who are your favorite Youtubers?

(From Brina, Managing Editor: Cassie has given a glimpse of what could be and what is tasteful. That is what is expected when commenting. You may list those you like, but links will be deleted. I have neither the time nor the desire to police inappropriate postings. I sincerely ask for your cooperation. Thank you!)

  • The photo at the top of this article is shown with Heidi’s permission; Emma lives in Scotland and reaching her for permission to use her photo ran up against our publishing deadline, but there are plenty of views of her on her YouTube channel.

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Currently sliding from senior citizen into elderly. Dressing for almost 60 years, but rarely in last dozen. Fairly famous TG author, usually under one of two pen names (Alan Barrie or Cheryl Ann "Cassie" Sanders.) Many books in Lee Brewster's classic publishing line, Mardi Gras Press. And a long-time bestseller on Amazon, A WOMAN'S PASSION. (Those sales were eclipsed in recent years by all the $2.99 tg junk writing on Amazon; however, I recently got back the publishing rights and arranged for an inexpensive Kindle Edition and sales have picked right back up.) Also just added a new Kindle Edition of an old nugget to Amazon: THE SUNDAY GAME by Alan Barrie. Although always closeted to my family, I used to travel heavily for business, so had a lot of time to dress. Back in the day, could pass easily even in places like a White House tour or a hotel bar. Have been to a couple of the New England groups first events at Provincetown, but, again, not for a few years.
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Sandy Jayson
Active Member
Sandy Jayson (@loneleycd)
1 month ago

I like Heidi also and I often watch xdressing with Paola. Paola gives a lot of cd tips and tells of her cd experiences.

Suki Rivers
Suki Rivers (@suki1990)
1 month ago

Thank you for posting this. I have curious to check out some YouTube videos.

Alice Black
Active Member
Alice Black (@aliceblack)
1 month ago

Cassie, liked your latest blog. I too enjoy watching the Heidi Phox videos. She is elegant and classy. A question, was. She originally a performer on Rupaul Drag Race?

Alice Black

Rei Durden
Active Member
Rei Durden (@reidurden)
1 month ago

I’ve haven’t strayed much from CDH but found a lady named Juliette Noir for some make up tips etc

Krista (@kristacanada)
1 month ago

Great topic Cassie. I’ve been watching Heidi, Paola and Emma for years. Others to have a glance at are: Melanie-Jane Transit, Nathar Sugarfree, TVAlexuk, Crossdressing Isabelle, a young man (a professional youtuber) who is quite entertaining (as long as you don’t mind his swearing) F1nn5terLIVE and a comedy husband wife team Marilyn Marshmallows. Stay safe, stay healthy, All the Very Best, Hugs, Krista

Tricia Lynn
Tricia Lynn (@trish913)
1 month ago

Since coming out to my wife three months ago (and her decidedly negative reaction), I did a complete purge and cessation of physically expressing my feminine side. Vicarious experiences are helpful. Thanks for this article!


Patty Phose
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Patty Phose (@pattyphose)
1 month ago

I’m subscribed to many CD’s on you tube. Starry is awesome, Heidi is incredible as is so many others.Some are amazingly beautiful and sexy, like Starry and Heidi. Others are extremely bold and confident.I’m a big fan of those who go out dressed. Others don’t seem to but put on great shows.

Patty Phose
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Patty Phose (@pattyphose)
1 month ago

Oh my. There is so many. I’m looking at my list. Crossdressing Thrill Clara Hudson, Mel Cross, TheCourtneycummings, Mandy Goodbody, Crossdressing Lifestyle, CuriousKatecd, Kimberley Beregrove, QUEERPOINT makeover studio, Kelly James, Ines CD, jiyoonTV, Alpha Peacock, Lily NJ, Crossdresser Carolina – High Heels and Pantyhose, Crossdresser Show Style, SuperSexyCDs Channel, Krystal Forbes, Amanda White, Melanie-Jane Transit, random pastime, Kim Westone, Sandy Crossdresser, Crossdresser Martina Giraffe, Leah Santini, Lara Alizee, Alexa Bree, ANTONELLA ITALIANA CD, JennyTV63swe, jina miss, A Crossdresser’s Life, Sarah Jackson, Jolly Ratcher, Nikki Woods, TVAlexuk, Angie Williis, Alison Thighbootboy, natcrys, heather young, DeannaCD24seven, Ashley Kemp, pantyhose gurl, tanajuklova. These… Read more »

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