My first time in women’s clothes came to me at the age of five. I didn’t know how fortunate I would be to experience such a thrilling moment at such a developmental time for me. My sister who was seven at the time brought me into her room and opened her closet. I remember I had black and white horizontal leggings on with a denim skirt on over it, then I had a cute white shirt on. I was embarrassed but at the same time I had never felt this fuzzyness going on in my chest. I became addicted to this feeling and would constantly be trying to put myself in a situation where my sister, a friends sister, or anyone would dress me up. I remember I would always hit in our shoe room and wear my moms boots or hold her handbag. I never knew what this would mean.

In middle school, when my parents would trust me with the house alone when they would go out, I would find myself in my mother’s closet. I loved running my hands through her hanging clothes. First, I would always find my favorite pair of her panties, which was a pink g-string with a little pompom on the butt that my dad got her for Easter one year. I’d but that on and look at myself thinking that I looked good. Next I’d put on a black bra, followed usually by a black skirt. At this age I didn’t have a clue about fashion so next I’d put on a pink sleeveless golf top. Next came my favorite part, picking the jewelry. I discovered that I loved women’s watches (still do). I would wear a gold watch, gold bracelets, and a gold necklace. Then the moment I will never forget was the first time I looked in a mirror all dressed up how I wanted to be. I was mesmerized. I felt so comfortable and relaxed, I remember my face was just glowing with how comfortable and natural I was. I just looked at myself touching the necklace for what seemed like hours.

Today I am 20 years old and I don’t know what I am. Am I gay? Am I straight? Crossdresser or transgender? I told myself I was gay but I still didn’t feel right. I told myself that I was none of the above, yet I kept coming back to dressing.

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So I started going online and creating profiles to chat with others about crossdressing and ultimately found myself on a porn site talking to men who were interested in girls like myself. I would get such a rush from it that I now know what I am. But before I tell you that, I need to tell you how I discovered my new identity.

I was talking to a man, and I brought up names and he suggested Ruby, because I love jewelry and diamonds make jewelry twinkle. So I took on that name and I still felt a little off. I was in another chat with a guy and told him that I’m Ruby so we talked for a but, then he mistakenly called me Rose. And that was it. Rose is my name.

So hello world, my name is Rose and I’m not gay, I’m a transgender who is attracted to men!



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Hello, I am Rose Strayed. I am 20 am a closet crossdresser without much experience. I like to keep up to date in the fashion world with my dressing desires. I love love love all jewelry especially wearing watches. I want to be a feminized woman. Once dressed, I feel like the beautiful woman I was meant to be. I want a husband and a man to provide for me and please. I've never been with a man, but when Rose comes out, that's all she wants.

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  1. Tamera Lynn 2 years ago

    I thoroughly enjoyed your post, Rose, and sincerely hope that [Rose] finds the man of her dreams–and the one who is deserving of her! Love to you, Tamera

  2. Roxanne Lanyon 11 months ago

    Rose, my Rose,
    I sincerely relate to your post. When I am in feminine attire, it is like something creeps from the articles of clothing and goes into my heart. I am a girl! And I feel ever so wonderful! Yes, I could easily become a wife to a sweet man. I am Roxanne. My stockings, my jewelry, my hair, my make-up, it all screams, “Look at me!”. I AM a woman, and I want a man!”
    Rose, my soul throbs with feminine passion, girly desire, sweet reflections, and my world becomes ok again. I feel sweet, caring, loving, wanting to be Roxanne, with love in my heart. Lord, Rose, what happened to me when I slipped that pretty skirt on? What will happen to me. What will I find, and will I be able to handle it, be the person I was truly meant to be?
    Please, oh please, help me!
    Roxanne, and her feminine Soul

  3. Stef Smith 10 months ago

    Take your time
    When Rose comes out shes attracted to me is not uncommon because at that point YOU feel
    Like a woman and you are thinking a beautiful woman would go with a man
    So is that a fantasy or is that a reality
    Are you attracted to men when not rose?
    Just things to consider
    Always here for support
    No judgement zone

  4. Roxanne Lanyon 4 months ago

    Rose, A Piece of My Heart
    I crossdressed for years and years, as a teen, and even a pre-teen. The thrill of pretty ladies clothes so attracted me. I could then take them off, and become a normal person again.
    About three years ago, my ex-wife divorced me, not related to crossdressing. Now, I am on my own. I seem to have increased my en femme feelings, and amgrowing more and more like a woman, a wonderful lady with pretty dresses and a feminine soul. Now I feel like I want to have a husband, a sweet man who will love me forever. I wish that more and more every day. Where do I find him? Will he want me? As I grow older, I feel this thing more and more! I feel like I want to cllk for him, clean house for him, wash his clothes, and simply be his wife! I wonder, . . . . will it ever happen? Oh, I surely hope so. Being married to a wonderful husband would make me the happiest girl in the world!
    Yes, a long way from an occasional weekend crossdressing session, right, girls? I want to be a married woman, now!
    Roxanne Lanyon

  5. Roxanne Lanyon 3 months ago

    I truly feel the same, Rose. Yes, I do . . . . Roxanne

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