Nearly every crossdresser I’ve had the privilege to meet since I joined Crossdresser Heaven has expressed at least some level of insecurity about their femme side. Why do I need to dress? Am I weird? Will I find someone who can love and accept me? It’s unfortunate that our society has forced so many beautiful women into the closet because we can’t accept something new or different. It’s completely understandable though why crossdressing can cause major insecurities. As I’ve been getting to know more genetic girls in a relationship with a crossdresser, I’ve found that we have a unique set of insecurities ourselves, aside from the typical insecurities many women in a relationship feel.
The perception of femininity that a crossdresser has if often much different than that of genetic females. We’ve grown up entirely female, so the allure of all things feminine is sometimes lost on us. Sure, most of us like to get dolled up and feel pretty, but it isn’t something that permeates our thoughts and daily lives as it does with many crossdressers. Our partners put a lot of time and effort into presenting themselves beautifully, and some of us partners wonder if we’re girly enough. Do our partners mind that we don’t always embrace our femininity? It sounds backwards, doesn’t it? But the idea that the genetic female in the relationship is insecure about not being feminine enough for our femme loving partners is a frequent topic of discussion among us partners.
There are other insecurities too, that are harder to share with our partners, because they stem from us not understanding crossdressing, as hard as we may try. We don’t know how our relationship will change when we find out about our partner’s femme side, and it can be scary. They may do everything right and make sure we know they love us but it’s hard not to worry that their feelings for us will change because our relationship dynamic has changed so suddenly and drastically. It’s not a fair thought to have, but it’s one that almost all of the partners I’ve talked to have had. Perhaps it’s the feeling that we’ve invited another person to join our relationship. We haven’t, of course, that femme persona was always there, we just didn’t know about it, but we don’t have any other frame of reference for no longer being the only woman in our relationship.
While discussing this in the Significant Other forum, another SO said something that has allowed me to reframe how I think about this particular insecurity. She’s given me permission to share her thoughts. When responding to a member who was questioning whether their partner will still love them and want to be with them, she said “He dressed before you knew and you are the one he desires. He dressed when you knew and you continue to be the one he desires. Dressing makes him who he is and you make him feel loved so does dressing really change that love and commitment you have with each other?” I felt like a lightbulb in my head (or perhaps my heart) went off! My partner knew about his femme side when he fell in love with me, so why would his feelings for me change just because I know about her now? If anything, wouldn’t him being able to share this special part of himself just make his love for me grow?
One of the things I love about this community is the way we can share with and challenge each other. My challenge to you, whether you are a crossdresser or you love one, is to keep in mind that for all the insecurities you have, your partner probably does too. These may never go away, but if we don’t talk to each other about these kinds of things, we may miss a perspective that can help us feel just a bit more secure in ourselves or our relationship, and that can bring great comfort.
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*Trisha Anne
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Thank you so so much, Trisha. I am in a 23 year loving relationship with my wife; we are raising a beautiful 14 year old son, and am just come “out” with my relationship with my inner “girlfriend”; and all kinds of physical symptoms are dissipating in my body, slowly released from to decades of low level repression. There is magic and mystery in the air. My wife is a little bit hesitant and uncertain, from her insecurities and unfamiliarity with the whole scene. But I am looking forward to periodically being the beautiful, kind, classy, compassionate, sensitive girl I… Read more »
Beautiful and I love the excitement.
It sounds like you and your wife have a WONDERFUL partnership! I love your promise to her, that if you can be the woman you want to be, that you’ll be even more than the man she needs. Balance is hard to find, but it seems like you’ve managed to incorporate your previously hidden self into your relationship, without losing who you are as a couple. It’s a really lovely story!
Insecurities. An important insecurity is not that of being a spouse, trying to be an accepting spouse to a dear crossdresser. That can certainly be difficult for any significant other in a relationship. The real insecurity, as this girl, Roxanne, sees it, is the insecurity of trying to become the woman, the female personality, in a trans relationship. Dealing with trying to figure out how to become the woman, the wife, in a new transsexual marriage. Oh, what stressors will tiptoe to the top of the soul! Not only does one have to deal with simply living as a girl,… Read more »
I’m not sure if I’m misinterpreting your comment, but I must say, I disagree. I know that CD and TG women experience insecurity. I acknowledged that in my article, but of course, my article was my own personal perspective as a partner. To say “an important insecurity is not that of being a spouse,” or when you say that the “real insecurity” is that of the CD/TG, and not the partner, you are minimizing the journey us partners also undertake. I encourage partners who have recently learned of their partner’s need to dress to remember how difficult this is for… Read more »
Oh dear, Trisha, I have phrased that so incorrectly! Please forgive me. You are right, of course. There can be insecurities for the spouse. Of course! But also, there are some who aren’t the ONLY insecure one. Oh, let’s just do away with all of this insecure mess, and just wish for happiness and understanding on both sides, ok?
Roxanne
Oh, my! Roxanne
Good Morning Trisha, Your article is heartfelt and, I believe, an accurate assessment of the dynamics within most relationships between a CD and his spouse or significant other. JoAnn and I have been married for nearly 24 years. I told her about my CD propensity shortly into our first year. Maybe I should have told her earlier, but as we courted, my crossdressing diminished significantly and I likely felt that it might go away completely. So, why bring it up? How did it come up? We were, of course, much younger and active in our careers, mine in public service.… Read more »
Oh Falecia.. I feel for you dear. Good for you for your honesty, and I’m so glad you’ve been able to make your loving relationship thrive through it all. I hope that one day she can accept this part of you, as tolerating is not the same…. that being said, you both clearly love each other and want to be together. That’s the MOST important thing.
Oh my word ….your story could have been written by me …maybe our wives know each other and are comparing notes :-). Goodness it was so nice to read your (our) story, thank you !!
Love Elaine
THANK YOU! What a great article! I will be sharing it with my SO!
Thank you, Trisha. I just came out to my wife who is trying to understand and be supportive. What you share will be helpful in our conversation.
I absolutely love this article. So very well written. The context uhh s spot on. Thank you Trisha.
Hugs girlfriend
Danielle