When I began writing this, I wasn’t even sure how long I had been coming into the public chat room. It felt like only a couple of weeks, but on checking I found out that it had actually been since April, 2016. I only know that when I’m there, I feel at home. It’ as if I’m surrounded by Family. A group of people that I’ve never actually met, but have come to love. If I’m a little depressed, these girls are sure to cheer me up. If I’m getting too serious about life, they straighten me out, and If anyone needs help, I get to contribute. Like sisters, we all open our hearts to one another, sometimes, tease each other, but always the love is underlying everything. I find that it’s often easier to talk to the others in the chat room than it is to talk to physical family members. My Son and his wife are wonderful, but they don’t hug me every time I see them. You all do. You always have time to listen to how my day is going and always offer kind words if it’s not that great.
The people here come from all over the world. Many different occupations. Many different lifestyles, and aged from 18 to 85. But there is a common denominator; We are part of a bigger community. Kindred souls, if you will. Cross dressers, Transgender, Transsexual, Bi, Straight, and Gay, we belong to this wonderful family. We have our “Evil Uncle Ernie”, occasionally, you know, the ones who come as Guests, looking for more than support, but for the most part the people coming into the chat room are looking for support and friendship. We have our crazy Aunties, our wicked Step Sisters, our Gentle Grannies and our Little Sisters, whom we watch over and try to protect. We have our Sorrows, our Triumphs, our Adventures, our Dreams, and our Failures and wee share all of these things with each other. That is probably the best thing about the chat room. In sharing our lives, we enrich ourselves and each other. In this we learn that we are no longer alone, but that we are part of something bigger and better.
We have each other, and we have the Ambassadors, who have to keep us in line on occasion, and who I would not, could not, do without. If I ever have a question about what is proper, I know I can ask them and they will find an answer for me, if they don’t know already.
The chat room offers guidance, support, and love. It gives us a chance to express ourselves in a way that is not available on the outside. We hear about great places to shop and neat little tricks we can use to improve our makeup. It is a place we can bounce ideas off other people with similar interests, without being afraid of being embarrassed. After all, this family is here for us, even when our physical families aren’t.
I can’t imagine that I would have come as far as I have without the chat room. It has let me grow in ways I would not have without it. Or, without you, who have come to mean more to me than you can possibly imagine. You are my Family and I would not give you up for all the gold in the world, because you are mine. And, I am yours. Now and for always. If I have learned anything here, it is that I am not alone. And I am loved.
I love you. And now I love myself. Thanks to you.